I fixed my page so all the dates are in order now... :)

December 2nd

We are so happy and scared to be pregnant again after miscarriages and miscarriags... All I can do is wait.. okay.. well I will be eight weeks tomorrow and still havent told anyone except of course for my DH. I feel soo bad though because I havent told my cousin and her and I are sooo close and we both have been trying to conceive foreveer , I told her every other time , but im just so tired of getting everybodys hopes up and then letting them down, I dont want to tell anyone till im a little over 20 weeks or not even unil I show.

December 4th.

Well I told some friends that I was pregnant and they looked at me like I must be in sane, no looks of happiness or joy, I thought I had maybe accidentally told them a family member died. Maybe they're just realist and know that i am living in a fantasy world thinking that I will be able to carry a baby to term. Well I have a dr's appt on the 12th and i am just soooooooo nervous, every day i wake up i feel my boobs everytime i go to the restroom i practically want to cry because i think im going to be spotting or bleeding.. maybe its just tooo much.. I'm sad :(

December 7th..

I think I am posting completely backwards but I wanted to say thank you guys for all you kind words you guys really do bring me up a whole lot.. Well I went into the ER last night with severe chest pains. I thought I was having a heart attack but it turned out it was just anxiety which I highly doubt im not an over dramatic or really sensitive person and definitely not anxious.. it felt more like someone had hit me with a baseball bat on my chest.. Heart burn mayyyybe.. But anxiety?? come on!! Well they didnt check the baby or anything, i was later thinking that i shouldve lied and said my belly hurt to so i could see if my little one was okay but then i would just be down right lying!! :) .. Maybe I was having an anxiety attack. but I dont think so my chest and back literally hurt. Well they prescribed me some Lortab which i will not take but might be good for DH.. well again thanks and I hope I still have a healthy baby.. will let you know on the 12th.

December 10th, 2007

Well I have felt soo crappy all this weekend.. Extreme naseau but i think its because of the Lovenox, and just all around tired. This morning I woke up to extreme back pain, no spotting but alot of vaginal discharge ( i know gross) but i am sooo scared. I have had really bad headaches and just a hard time sleeping, my appointment is this wednesday but i feel like calling in today and asking them if they can please take me in. Well I'll post later to see what happened, please please please stay strong baby... we all want you!!

December 11 2007

Well I finally got into the Dr's office and there is still a little baby in there... still a good heart beat.. So i am soooo relieved for now.. now another 2 weeks to wait impatiently.. The lovenox shots are making me really sick but i will do anything to keep this baby..

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My husband is the biggest jerk in the world. so unsupportive, I thought he really wanted this pregnancy and now have come to find out that he just see's the thing as a big headache "Sure id like a kid but it's not worth all this trouble" he says """"""""WHAT!!!! ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND, IT IS SOOO WORTH IT""... On a happy note i am still pregnant and am soooo excited to be i dont care how sick i feel.... Maybe this pregnancy is just making me overly sensitive... I dunno.. Baby dust to all of you... hugs and kisses.

Well yesterday and today was devastating. I started getting some dark discharge yesterday around 6 pm and then around 9 it turned into dark spotting.. and early this morning when i woke up I just felt in my gut that something was wrong. Sure enough I got up and felt something big pass and i went to the restroom and saw bright red blood. I finally got the courage to call my doctor and he will see me today at 1... I know im miscarrying i just feel it.. I am soooooo devestated and without words. I pray for all of you and hope that you guys have a great pregnancy.. My husband, doctor and I did make the decision that if I miscarried one more time that i would have my tubes tied, and now i dont want to i am sooo sad but guess its for the best....

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE!!!

I didnt miscarry, im not out of the woods and have been put on strict bedrest,, but there was a live little baby in there doing jumping jacks and summersaults.. It was soo exciting to see it.. I went in crying tears of devastation and came out crying even more but tears of pure joy.. I wont lie I am still really scared because I am bleeding not tooo too much but its scary... Thank you guys for all the support and baby dust...

10 weeks...

This is my baby at the last appt when they found out it was a girl.. She looks kinda slimy!!

Feb 5th..

Today is a bad day.. im sorry baby i hope you are not feeling all of this stress.. Things are horrible again in the home front, and my life just seems to be falling down around me. I feel pretty good healthwise except for the headaches but ive almost gotten used to them i think.. I am excited that i have made it to 17 weeks but still scared cause my last miscarriage was at 19 weeks.. The reassuring thing is that this time around i can feel the baby move and just kinda nudging me and telling me "dont worry so much mom, im still here",, with the last pregnancy even at 19 weeks i had never felt movement.. Well I hope everyone is doing good, and congratulations to all the baby girl and some boy news.. :)

February 14..

Wow..I can't believe it's Valentine's Day... My husband surprised me with a beautiful bouquet of roses, which I am totally a sucker for, and a chocolate cake.. It was nice I guess....Next week is a huge milestone for me, because it was the week I was at when I lost my baby... I am alittle anxious but feel a big sense of calm this time around, I have been feeling the baby move quite a bit, which is awesome, at first it was flurries and just slight movements but now she is twirling and backflipping with all she's got.. Its sweet... Well my doctor's appointment is on the 22nd so 8 more days till I get to see my little one again, my husband will be out of town but its okay its a much needed break for both of us.. I finally told everyone that I'm pregnant and announced it all over myspace, which if any of you would like to be my friend you can find me thru my email notimecj@yahoo.com Well anyways I hope everyone is doing great..

Baby dust............................

February 21st

Well last for some reason, I got into cleaning mode yesterday and redecorated my whole room and cleaned the crap out of my house, i know this is supposed to happen but with my first two it happened way later, so hopefully this doesnt mean i will be going into labor soon, i feel pretty good for the most part, i have been feeling the baby move alot more and my husband even felt a kick last night, which scared the heck out of him because he went to my tummy to kiss it and the baby just gave him a punch or kick right on the lips,, maybe she wanted a kiss too...aww but he was sooo excited. Well I have my 20 week scan tomorrow and i hope everything is going good, and I hope I can report back here with good good news... Hope everyone is doing okay...

March 6th...

We'll i've been sick sick sick... but it looks like the worst is over.. I guess I got a really bad case of food poisoning and had to be hospitalized.. I am feeling alot better, just scared, hope this didnt harm the baby.. I never got an ultrasound which I thought was weird but they would listen to the heartbeat everyday.. Well its good to be back...

March 7th

The baby's name has changed, my husband wanted Kalynne and I wanted Chloe so at the end I won the first name but had to compromise and let him pick the middle name, which i thought we both had agreed would be Madison because we both loooooved that name, but he changed it to ANNE.. bleeeeaaaaauuuuchhhhh. I hate it.. Its my first name and the middle name of all of the females on his moms side,, but still I dont like it... Oh and were also changing the spelling of Chloe :( ... but its okay, the more he feels bonded with the baby the better,,, so the new name is
Kloey Anne Jensen
I cant wait to see you Miss Kloey!!!

March 24, 2008

Wow, I cant believe it! Its almost April! just 92 more days and we will finally have the little baby girl we have been praying for. Everyone has started getting excited now and the reality that we are soo close to really having a new baby in the family is setting in. I have my first baby shower next month on the 26th and then 2 in May and 1 in June, i am truly blessed to have such a wonderful family and awesome friends.. and although i appreciate everything they are doing for me greatly, the greatest thing for me is finally being able to add to my family after 3 grueling years!! I hope everything continues to go okay..... I hope everyone else is doing great!!!

April 8th

Everything has been going well, my doctors visits have all been great, i have another one April 14th,, and my first baby shower a week after that.. I registered last week which was a pain in the butt,,,, i didnt even know what to get,, you'd think i'd know since this is my 3rd time around but i really had no clue! it was fun though! Umm well nothing else has really changed, just getting bigger, ive already gained 30 lbs, i really hope i can keep it under 40 lbs.. Kyle and I are doing okay, taking it day by day, and I just cant wait to meet this little girl who's constantly kicking and reminding me she's still hanging on!! Hope everyone is doing great!!

April 27th

Just a small update, everything is going good, I have a dr appt tomorrow and i hope its all good news. Almost there girls.. wishing everyone lots of baby dust... and Khloe I love everyday I have with you, I hope you know that, i love your kicks and twirls and all your silly acrobatics.. I cant wait to give you a great big kiss.. Love you baby girl..

May 12th

Well Khloe had been scaring the crap out of me because her movement has sloooowed soo much but everything was A ok today at the doctors office.. My induction is still set for the 23rd but im trying to see if we can change it for the 27th so that it can fall on a weekend.. we shall see...