I fixed my page so all the dates are in order now... :)
December 2nd
We are so happy and scared to be pregnant again after miscarriages and miscarriags... All I can do is wait.. okay.. well I will be eight weeks tomorrow and still havent told anyone except of course for my DH. I feel soo bad though because I havent told my cousin and her and I are sooo close and we both have been trying to conceive foreveer , I told her every other time , but im just so tired of getting everybodys hopes up and then letting them down, I dont want to tell anyone till im a little over 20 weeks or not even unil I show.
December 4th.
Well I told some friends that I was pregnant and they looked at me like I must be in sane, no looks of happiness or joy, I thought I had maybe accidentally told them a family member died. Maybe they're just realist and know that i am living in a fantasy world thinking that I will be able to carry a baby to term. Well I have a dr's appt on the 12th and i am just soooooooo nervous, every day i wake up i feel my boobs everytime i go to the restroom i practically want to cry because i think im going to be spotting or bleeding.. maybe its just tooo much.. I'm sad :(
December 7th..
I think I am posting completely backwards but I wanted to say thank you guys for all you kind words you guys really do bring me up a whole lot.. Well I went into the ER last night with severe chest pains. I thought I was having a heart attack but it turned out it was just anxiety which I highly doubt im not an over dramatic or really sensitive person and definitely not anxious.. it felt more like someone had hit me with a baseball bat on my chest.. Heart burn mayyyybe.. But anxiety?? come on!! Well they didnt check the baby or anything, i was later thinking that i shouldve lied and said my belly hurt to so i could see if my little one was okay but then i would just be down right lying!! :) .. Maybe I was having an anxiety attack. but I dont think so my chest and back literally hurt. Well they prescribed me some Lortab which i will not take but might be good for DH.. well again thanks and I hope I still have a healthy baby.. will let you know on the 12th.
December 10th, 2007
Well I have felt soo crappy all this weekend.. Extreme naseau but i think its because of the Lovenox, and just all around tired. This morning I woke up to extreme back pain, no spotting but alot of vaginal discharge ( i know gross) but i am sooo scared. I have had really bad headaches and just a hard time sleeping, my appointment is this wednesday but i feel like calling in today and asking them if they can please take me in. Well I'll post later to see what happened, please please please stay strong baby... we all want you!!
December 11 2007
Well I finally got into the Dr's office and there is still a little baby in there... still a good heart beat.. So i am soooo relieved for now.. now another 2 weeks to wait impatiently.. The lovenox shots are making me really sick but i will do anything to keep this baby..