Robert and I are working on our first child together. We are very excited! He has a 4 year old daughter,Katie, from a previous relationship. I have a daughter, Leila, also from a previous relationship, that passed away shortly following a pre term birth.
We will be happy as long as we have a healthy, happy baby. I do have to admit, though, we were hoping for a boy, and we got him!!! (Our son, Riley James Mills) That way, Katie would have a brother, and our future children will have a big brother. All I know is I cannot wait til my baby is ready to come out and greet the world...
We are now on weekly appointments , with my awesome high risk specialist. We are keeping our fingers (and toes) crossed that this all goes as smoothly as possible. We have a long way to go before we get to bring home our baby boy, at only 36 weeks along, but looking at it as a time line of when we have to have so many things done by, it's all coming upon us very quickly!
TICK TOCK, TICK TOCK!!!
UPDATES
Wednesday, 7 Nov
Are these construction cramps in my tummy? They are nothing painful per say , just a lil pressure to make me anxious. No blood. Still feeling nauseous at 3 am til lunch, being sleepy ans do uncomfortable to do so when i am not peeing , and hating all the food I loved just weeks ago! I don't get my cerclage til 14 weeks so i am nervous, being only in my 7th week.It is very difficult not to get anxious over every lil pain or twinge when you you have lost a baby at 22.5 weeks, like I did. Atleast this time, I know a cerclage is needed. Let's hope and pray that I have a successful pregnancy up until, and after then, like I hope for each and every one of you! ♥
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Sunday, 11 Nov
* first appointment with high risk specialist on Tuesday - November 13th. First ultrasound at that appointment!
*morning sickness like a mother trucker
*mood swings from all the hormones and everything ; easily annoyed especially
* mild cramps occasionally
*so tired all the time, but restless all the time
*frequent trips to the tinkletorium
*feels like i got hit with a ton of bricks
*an overwhelming feeling that everything will be okay if i just relax. In the end, I will be a mom, just breathe!... ♥
♥ Wednesday, 14 Nov
We had our first appointment, yesterday!
*The doctor said the baby has a strong heartbeat!
I have a picture from the u/s! The baby has our wavy black and white lines! lol. We are so excited. Doc said my cervix is looking good, right now. I go back on December 13th.
*I am ready to be done with this morning sickness. I believe it's getting worse!
*He suggested crushing the prenatal vitamins to help avoid as severe nausea.
*The doc said the cramping was normal, my uterus is under construction, and all.
Well, that put some of my fears to rest, actually seeing my baby's heartbeat. It is my largest concern and biggest dream for this to all turn out positively! I can't go through what I already went through, and live my way through it, again. Last time I was pregnant, with Leila, she was my biggest passion. I loved her, and being pregnant, fiercely. Same this time... no matter the morning sickness or sleep loss, or anything else that come along with it. I will gladly take it all (bad with the good) because the reward... nothing comparable!! xoxo ♥
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Tuesday, 20 Nov
I go to Dr. Reuss tomorrow so he can give me meds for nausea. He says my nausea can be turning into a Hypremesis situation, AGAIN. I feel awful today. Everyday it seems to get a lil worse, instead of a lil better. It is affecting my sleep. I wake up just after midnight sick, now. I just want to keep down food, and SLEEEEEP!! Other than the nausea, and lack of sleep, I am doing well! Busy wondering all about the lil us we made. Building hopes and dreams, nestled firmly in the arms of faith and prayers. Prepare for the worst, but pray for the best! xoxo ♥
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Wednesday, 21 Nov
Due date moved up 1 more day because of leap year 2008. Did your doctor take leap year into account? I had to ask mine. ♥
♥ Wednesday, 28 Nov
Here we are in the 10th week! Last week, I got nausea meds because my nausea appeared to be becoming Hypermesis again. I am able to keep down food, and water. I have only thrown up twice in nearly a week! For the first time last night, I slept the night away, sick-less. However, this was no exception for having to pee, lol! I am feeling a heck of a lot better! Take care! ♥
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Monday, 3 Dec
Week 11! All is well. I go to my next appointment very soon. I can't wait until the doctor invites us to know the gender of our child! I don't know why, I am going to be happy with anything he says regarding a healthy, happy baby ♥
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Thursday, 6 Dec
I am starting to get my 2nd trimester energy! We are almost to the 12th week! I am excited, and can't wait to have the baby here, with me, for always! I am starting the search for nursery themes and all of the baby goodness and mommy mania gear. There is alot to get and do so Im preparing NOW! I have gotten a lot of good advice from a lot of people about not waiting to start the details!
I am sleeping through the night (you would think i was the baby, huh) and I am really adjusting to all the maternity business!
Take care. Thank you for all of your love and support, everybody! It has helped me through everything included in this first trimester! xoxo ♥
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Monday, 10 Dec
WOW! 12 WEEKS! It's just unbelievable. I am entering an entire new stage of worrying. I will get the stitch in my cervix soon, which means: Epidural! Next, it's approximately the start my 2nd trimester which for some reason brought on a huge new wave of 'gonna be a mom' freaking out
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Tuesday, 18 Dec
Whoa, 13 weeks, now!
I am definetly starting to show and I feel a little glow. It could be from the calming of my tummy,or from me being so excited - I do not know, but, whatever it is, you will not hear me complaining! Doctor ran a lot of blood work last week to see if I have and blood clotting disorders and what not.
They are not going to do a cerclage unless it is necessary, so lets pray everything just naturally goes great! Pray for the best, be prepared for the worst!
Thanks for checking up on us, we love it when you stop by!
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Wednesday, 26 Dec
I made it through Christmas, granted I was nauseous, but it happens. It `s all part of pregnancy, right? I started my 14th week on Christmas eve, and I am very excited. In a month, I will be halfway through in one month! Soon will come the gender and kicking and all the good stuff that comes with time, right now. I am worried, of course, but I have faith for ten women in my shoes thanks to my supportive family and friends and Robert!
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Thursday, 3 January
Happy New Year, 2008 is here! As of today, I am 15 and a half weeks along with my pregnancy, and am getting some of the details together about childbirth classes and such. We should know gender by Valentine `s day. At that point, there will be a boy or girl theme, and I will have made it apparent! I am so excited about the coming events, as well as a little bit nervous. The happiness outweighs the anxiety, though, In the end, i will have a baby. All of this will be worth the wait and effort just to have our child!
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Friday, 18 Jan
Today was our 4th month appointment with our wonderful Dr. Reuss! We got to listen to our fetal heartbeat. I was stunned, but i believe in the background I heard 158 beats per minute. My last appointment they sent me out to have a horrendous amount of blood work done. They took, like, 13 of those huge tubes of blood and I wasn `t right the rest of the day! From that, they gained no insight as to what could have sent me into premature labor last pregnancy. My high risk specialist, as a precautionary measure, is sending me to a perinatal high risk specialist. I go the same day as my ultrasound to find out the baby `s gender. I made that appointment at lunch, today, and it is on January 29th!! Even though I don `t prefer a specific gender, I am really excited to find out the sex! Weird, huh? Well, that is all for now, I have to try to eat some dinner! Love - us
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Thursday, 31 January
The international Specialist said there is no cause to worry this time around! I still need to watch for pre term labor, though. That means bi weekly ultrasounds for a couple of weeks, which is okay. I am having a bouncing baby boy! He is healthy! No birth, neural tube, or heart defects. Brain looks good, spine looks good. He wouldn `t stop moving long enough for them to perform an ultrasound! I had 2d, 3d and 4d. It was, and still is amazing. I watch my dvd and it takes my breath away!I am very happy!
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♥ Wednesday,February 20
Everything is okay! Today is the day I lost my daughter in my last pregnancy. Everything from here on is new to me. I am very nervous. I had the flu and went to the hospital for dehydration last week and they said my cervix was open a dimple. Today, at Dr. Reuss `, we were told there is no use for alarm at this point. I am still dealing with the nausea, but my son is so worth it! 22 weeks and counting...
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♥ Friday, February 29
Here we are 23.7 weeks along the way. I feel him kick and hiccup! It is absolutely indescribable joy (sometimes pain), but every move tells me he `s there and being his active self! In short, all is well. The morning sickness has improved immensely, inly to be replaced by sleep loss due to being uncomfortable, haha! The joys of pregnancy, this amazing time is all worth it, but the down falls are there none the less. Once again, all worth it and much more! We are so happy and lucky! Happy Leap Year!
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Friday, 7 March
Another great week! I am really loving being pregnant without all of the throwing up! I just feel so special to be carrying our son. I feel so blessed that we have made it this far. I don `t want to jinx anything, but I think we `re all going to be okay! I did have the flu this week, but a lot of fluids and rest got me through it!We have our next Dr. appointment on March 13th, which is also Robert `s 25th birthday! I will leave another update at that time, and I did update all of the photos in our photo book so feel free to take a look! Take care, and Thanks for checking in to see how we are doing! xoxo