Journal

February 14, 2008: Happy Valentine's Day!! Wow, finally...some relief! I am beginning to think that my doctor's office isn't the best. Although, they're the most used here in Utah. But that could very well be the problem, considering they're so busy it's almost like they don't have time to deal with you. Anyway, since about my 8th week I've not been able to keep a thing down. They've continued to give me the run-around with phone calls and things. Now, finally, in my 12th week they're starting to realize that nothing really is working!! So 2 days ago they had me come in and they gave me some shot in my hip and sent me on my way with a RX to follow up the shot, and telling me that if things haven't changed in a few days then I need to start getting hooked up to some IV's. I wish I knew what was in that shot, though, because it was magical! Even though it's a few days later and I still can't bend my leg certain ways 'cause the needle was ginormous! ;) But I am extremely happy to finally be having some positive changes. Now maybe I can start to enjoy my pregnancy a little more!

March 19, 2008: Almost been a month since I last wrote. Just not much has happened. My morning sickness has definitely let up and have thrown up maybe once in the last 3 weeks. Amazing! Anyway, more important....WE FOUND OUT THAT WE ARE HAVING A LITTLE BOY!!! We are so thrilled, oh my gosh! I would have been so excited for a little girl too, but I just think boys are so much fun to be around. I am way excited! His name will be Jairus Lorin Hodgson. We got a DVD made, and it's so incredible that we got to take that home!! I watch it constantly since we we got it on the 17th. It's such an unbelievable miracle! I'm in awe everytime I pop it in. What's more amazing is the fact I can see him move on the screen, yet I can't feel that in my own belly. It'll be so interesting the first time I get to feel Jairus movin' around in there. :D Austin's already a proud daddy, and at this moment I feel like August just can not come soon enough!!

April 22, 2008: Today was one of the biggest days for my husband and I. We have been running around doing errands for moving to St. George all day. We're absolutely beat! Among all the chaos and hecticness, we still managed to make our ultrasound appointment. The last time we got an ultrasound we had gone to this lady who specializes in that specifically. This time, I just went to my regular OB/GYN, so I was curious to see if they'd tell me the same thing. Although, after the first one, there was no doubt in my mind it was a boy just from watching the DVD. I put the pictures up from this ultrasound, though....DEFINITELY a boy! ♥ This time around was so interesting because as I saw him kick or wiggle around on the screen, I could feel those movements in my tummy. That was so incredible. I've really enjoyed the fact that I've started to feel him in there. It makes this experience so much more real. As if morning sickness didn't have me convinced enough...Haha. But now it's FUN....not draining. We're excited to get our move to St. George out of the way so we can focus on getting things ready for a little guy!

May 9, 2008: I finally really feel like I'm starting to show. I posted some pictures up today in celebration! :D I have been waiting and waiting to really feel like I'm looking pregnant and not just looking like I need to lay off the doughnuts! My husband and I are in the midst of setting up a baby shower. I've debated whether or not it's stupid for us to throw our own, but when our move to St. George became official, we decided it's important for us to at least throw a going away party, so why not have it be a baby shower/going away party. As soon as Austin gets home from work we're going to get registered at Babies 'R' Us!!! I am so excited to go look at baby things. I really haven't since I've been pregnant. So, it feels like Christmas! :D We just got back from celebrating our First Year Anniversary. We went to St. George to look at a townhouse that we'll be renting for the next six months 'till we find a home. It is PERFECT! If I could buy it, I would!! We totally enjoyed ourselves out there. I can see us living there for a long long time, raising our little boy! Dressing Jairus is going to be easy while he's little 'cause it's hot pretty much everyday, or just warm. It feels like a really really safe place. I just don't see anything negative about this move, except for the fact that I hope I can find a doctor out there who is willing to take me this late in my pregnancy. But I really don't think it should be a a problem because John's wife (the guy who offered us these jobs) works for IHC, so she knows plenty of doctors and people to have me talk to.

May 21, 2008: My newest favorite thing to do is go walking while I'm pregnant! Not only do I get my excersize and get to spend quality time with my husband when he comes along...I get the baby to move around like crazy!! It's the highlight of my day. He's getting so big, it's crazy to me. I've never really been around anybody pregnant growing up, so this is extremely surreal to experience firsthand. I think the movement of my walking for longer periods of time is soothing to him and he moves with me or something. I think I've started to recognize when he stretches and his little bum sticks out near my belly button. It's so cute. Amazing how much you can feel it. Sometimes he'll hang out more on my right side, so my belly is lumpy and lopsided by the time we get back home, haha! It's just such an interesting thing to go through. I get more and more excited everyday to actually get to meet him, because everyday it gets more and more real. At first it was just sickness, now it's fun and exciting mixed with a little sickness ;) Only thing I wish I didn't have to do right now is work. I'm so exhausted all of the time, and work is the last place I want to be! I probably could put in my two weeks now, since we're going to have to do that soon to move to St. George, but my husband and I work there together, and I don't want to miss out on anything. I enjoy having us both work there, and I will miss it when we move. It's been so much fun!! And we've made some life long friends and I don't know if I can just up and leave. And they're really sad because they won't get to see Jairus when he's born. At least not until Austin and I are comfortable driving back with him.

July 24, 2008: So St. George isn't happening anymore, which is fine. Yeah, the money we would have been bringing home with that new job would have been great, but the doctors told me I shouldn't move right now. So maybe it'll happen after Jairus gets here!! If not, my parents said they'd put up their place in Arizona in order to have somewhere for us to stay while we found jobs and such. I would LOVE that!! Arizona was my first choice. But we'll see how things go. Anyway, I am SO ready for this pregnancy to be over. I've been sick all over again. Last night at work, I had to run to the family bathroom and throw up. I didn't even know I was sick, until I was sick! Then, to top it all off, I peed my pants from throwing up! Eh. I felt humiliated to be at work with that happening so I just started bawling and wishing that I wasn't pregnant anymore. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to be pregnant, I'm just so done with how it interupts your life and I'm just so anxious to meet him already as well! I went to the doctor the other day and he told me his guess on Jairus' weight is between 4 and 5 pounds! That was exciting to hear. Only about a month left....

September 4, 2008: Been quite a while since I last wrote anything. Kinda had my hands full bein' a new mom as of August 15, 2008!! This little boy is the greatest baby I have ever been around. He's very good about sleeping during the night, which of course we love! We had his first pediatricians appointment two days ago and we learned alot about how to teach him when we sleep and things. So far, it seems to be working perfectly! Hoping it keeps up. :) At two weeks he has already accomplished rolling over. And he's getting pretty good at holding his head up on his own! Imagine he'll be a pretty strong little kid. We love him with all of our hearts, we couldn't have asked for a better baby! I can't wait of my parents to get the chance to meet him. They live in Arizona and haven't had an opportunity to leave work and get out here. We're thinking we may be taking Jairus on his first trip pretty soon...because if they can't come here, we'll go to them. :)