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Well on December 16th which is our one year wedding anniversary...my present to my husband was showing him the pregnancy test. He was very happy..but I am more scared cause I've already went through 2 m/c..One in November 2006..we found out on my bday that we were having a baby..then 3 days later we ended up losing the baby..then on Feb. 28th 2007..I found out we were expecting again..in the middle of March..just a lil over 5 weeks..I ended up getting very bad cramps and some bleeding..the Dr. wanted to do a d/c right then and there although my HCG was going up just not doubling..I told her no..there is still a very slight chance. So I got a second opinion...and this Dr. wanted to give it atleast a week..he actually did a pelvic exam..two ultrasounds..and all the blood test possible..my first Dr. never did..well with the pregnancy..I had a little bit of cramps in my lower abs..and a rash on my stomach..and I called my doctor and told her..the same one from the first two m/c's and all she told me was we have to wait and see what happens..I told her you got to be kidding me..you know my history of m/c's..this is my 7th pregnancy and only 2 live births..so I cancelled my U/S appt with her and went back to the Dr that did more for me on my last pregnancy..and he told me to get in there ASAP..so I did..he checked everything..took my blood...and told me since I wasn't bleeding and the cramps only lasted for a very short period that it was normal.. I went home and the next day he called me and told me that my HCG was at 459..to me that seemed pretty low for being 5 weeks..he assured me that it was fine and that it was in the range..and to come back in on Monday..the 24th for another HCG level and an ultra sound..on the ultra sound ..he saw the sac and the stalk which made me feel good cause the last pregnancy the Dr. saw the sac but no stalk..and I got my results back and he said the my HCG more than doubled...and wants me back in there on Dec. 31st for another ultra sound..I will be 6 wks and 4 days..and we are praying and asking the Lord to give us a healthy beautiful baby..we've already been through so much this year..this will just add more joy to our family.

Sunday, 30 Dec

Well..I go in for my second u/s tomorrow..12/31/07...I `m a little nervous. Hoping that they detect the heartbeat..I had my first u/s at 5wks 4days..he said he say something in my uterus and the stalk...and that, that was good. But it was still to early to see the heartbeat..the only reason I `m hoping they detect the heartbeat is cause this pregnancy is different than my other 2..the only symptom I really have is tender nipples..not bbs..I don `t have any form of morning sickness...this is my 7th pregnancy..and only 2 live births..so I am really worried..the last two miscarriages..I never made it this far...so I am greatful so far..I know my heavenly Father is watching over us and protecting my unborn child..and that is giving me almost all of my faith...I will update tomorrow on what we find out..

Monday, 31

DecWell..went to the doctors today for my u/s..the u/s tech..didnt see anything in my uterus..so she called the radiology guy in and he didnt see anything besides a corpus letum (s/p?) cyst..so they told me that from the looks of it I have an ectopic pregnancy..I started crying..I already had one of those 6 1/2 years ago..and they had to remove my right tube...yet last week..my doctor told me when he did the ultra sound..he saw the sac and the fetal pole..my B HCG only went up from 1111 to 1140somethig..which aint good in a week..my doctor told me that he is not happy with the u/s tech..he said it may be a missed miscarriaged...I `m not bleeding nor am I cramping..he told me to come in on the 7th for another B HCG..and on the 8th for another u/s..I pray to God..that this pregnancy..turns out to be positive..I just CAN NOT go through a 5th miscarriage..this would make the 3rd one in 13 months..Yes I already have 2 beautiful kids..that I am grateful for..from privous relationships..I just want one by my husband..this is just another chapter in my tragic life..I feel like such a failure..

Friday, 4 Jan

Well..at 4am yesterday morning..I had some more brown spotting..and went yesterday to get my BHCG done..still waiting for the results..went to bed last night with a few cramps nothing to make me cry or double over..but after waking up this morning and seeing more blood..not alot just upon wiping..and its orangish red..I have a OB appointment in 30 minutes and a then an ultra sound after that..But I `m sure I done lost the baby..I haven `t had any symptoms of being pregnant for the last two weeks..well I guess..after this one..get my health back and start TTC again... : (

Friday, 4 Jan

Well spent 3 1/2 hours in the doctors office..and found out that it could be one of two things..ither an ectopic pregnancy with two babies in there or just two cysts on my left tube..and didn `t see anything in my uterus..so they went ahead and gave me a methromix (spelling???) injection to reaborsb the baby back into my body..just to be on the clear side..now I don `t know what to feel..they said its 50/50 chance that the shot will work or not work..so there is still a chance I could lose my tube...and its the only one I have left..one thing I know for sure is...when the time comes I will be with all of my kids...I may of not been able to hold this one in life..but I am blessed to beable to carry him/her for the time I got.