Friday, 18 Jan

Hello Mommies! My pregnancy was more then a surprise! This is kind of a long story but I think it sweet, feel free to skip it or enjoy it :) - First off my BF was not even my boyfriend at the time, we had met at 22 and were only friends, he then moved back to NY and our friendship was a long distance one. But we wernt just any friends, we were confidantes, the type you are always on the phone with? We talked every minute-while we were cooking, cleaning, even while waching the news or just while doing nothing, we were on the phone all the time and this was until Early last year. You see I was moving to Italy for a few years because of school, I was leaving in Sep 07. He was devistated--I on the other hand was super excited. So in June he was like-- I have to see you before you go. I said of course, we `ll do that. Now you have to know that we were strictly friends--- yet when he would go out on a date I would get sooo Jelous and act so serious or I would not answer the phone in days, the same case was with him-- every time I went out- OH and God forbid I said something nice about a date because he would find a flaw in them right away- hahaha So silly. The time came for him to visit, I was super excited. I finnaly saw him after 5 years of a long distance frienship on June 8th, 07. I almost had forgotten how he looked like, but he was much younger and scrawnier back then. He at 27 looked so much manlier and older and ahh in other words Sparks flu, our chemistry was huge and I felt all the affection of our long friendship become real. I felt to love him on the spot. He visited Arizona from the 8th till the 13th we had an amazing time. We didnt use protection only our first time together. Anyways he went home and we resumed our retualistic talks. He soon told me he loved me and that it had been this way for years-- I cared about him all this time too. He told me that he could not let me go, for us to give love a chance, that he would buy us the perfect house and that it would work etc. etc. In other words--for me to move cross-country for him and forget about Italy. Now like most women I have always wondered who the one for me was or if I even had one, in the past sometimes I would picture myself with him but it never went past that, we would sometimes talk about us in a US kindda way but it was seldome, we just lived far and had many things going. I focused my life in school. I would date every blue moon, but I ran across nothing good. I thought a lot about US and Italy and the experience of a life abroad. Ancient Civilizations and the Arts are my passion, yet being a wife and mother has always been a strong inner desire. So I accepted and he soon made an offer on a loft in an artsy district of Charlotte (he had moved to NC) because I love art, but I was like I would like a lil house with trees, Im from AZ and theres hardly any green over in my city. So he retracted that offer and found one with trees- made the offer and it was accepted! It is a two bedroom cottage and we were debating on what the second bedroom would be. In those days I was already feeling so sick: I remeber my arms could not touch the side of my breasts! I also had been dieting and on one of those days I broken it with a been burrito and I had constant heartburn since then, or so I thoght. My mom was the first to tel me I was pregnant. She was giving me some TUMS for the been induced heartburn when my arm brushed my boob and I was like Och! Immediatly she was like :o Your pregnant. I was like noo Im about to get my period -I felt it coming, but I would wipe and nothing, tonight I `ll get it, if not, I will in the morning- HA! nothing! I said its too soon to know Ma, she said when I `m pregnant I feel sick the first week and my boobs hurt like yours. `Go get checked tomorrow `. The next morning I wiped and nothing so I went to a Free pregnancy clinic by my house, peed inthe cup and gave it to the nurse. I stayed outside the little lab room, waiting. She said you can come and see. I walked in and she was dipping it-- I looked at it and I saw only one line forming. A fast mixture of releif and dissapointment passed through my head. I looked at the nurse and said- Oh its negative. That is all it took--seconds. She was like: Actually its absolutly positive :) I looked back and saw two bright lines, not one. I could not believe it, I was pregnant. Omg omg OMG. When I got home my mother was like- I told you! And told whoever she was on the phone with, I `m gonna be a grandma! When I told Elvis, well how I broke the news: ofcourse I called him he he he I was like---are you sitting down? I was scared to sound excited- but I was, so I controlled and accted more shocked then happy, which was also true. All I saw: was that It was not the right way to start! Anyways I told him, he was very serious: are you sure? I told him step by step what I just told you guys and he was like: but Its the 26th isnt it too soon to know? I said well Its possitive.......silence....................................... He then says: I guess now we know what the second bedroom will be... that made me smile. he then was like I need to talk with my brother-they are Identical twins and they are really close, soo we hung up and I was a tad relieved, the first step was made, yet I felt soo insecure and worried about the timing. He soon calls back and says `Are you happy? ` I gave an unsure yeEes. And he was like: me too!! I told you you wernt ment to go to Italy, you were ment for me, we are ment for eachother and this is proof! . And soo that is my story, I now live in much greener place (like I`ve always wanted) with a little house surrounded by trees!