I wasn't going to update my page until I got a BFP, but it's taking so long. Here's my story in a nutshell. My husband and I have been together for 6 years, and married since April. I have had two miscarriages :( which has been difficult,but I have come to terms with it. Now I am constantly fighting my obsession with getting pregnant, all the while trying to conceive. This website and the wonderful people here have been my support group, and I'm here all the time. If you want to know about my mood swings, etc, read my blogs. If you want to talk, leave a message because I love hearing from everyone. Friday June 13, 2008 Jer 29:11 (NIV) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."So I woke up this morning, and I felt God. I don't mean to say I felt good, I mean I felt God. I felt his presence and I felt him reminding me who I am in him. I have obsessed and worried about being a mother, when the reality is that God knows the desires of my heart. People have always said to me that I get everything I want, and I always tell them its because I always pray that God will make my desires the things that He wants for me. I ask him that my will be the things that He wants for me. So I believe that I want this so badly because He wants me to have it. When you start praying God's will that's when mountains move. Before my husband became my husband, I started praying for him, calling him my husband by faith. Now I pray for my child, not that I will have one, but I pray for God's blessing and anointing over my child. God said in Jeremiah 1:15 I knew you before I formed you in your mother's womb. God already knows my child, so I have already committed to praying faithfully for my child, setting a Christian example and giving my child back to the Lord, knowing that it is a blessing from Him. I trust God, and I'm not going to worry because I will get pregnant and have a healthy pregnancy as soon as it is the perfect time. He knows my end from the beginning, so I trust that it hasn't happened just because it wasn't the right time. If you're reading my page, be blessed and just know that God is in control.