April 29, '08- Well I had my Dr Appointment today. He told me he was glad they didn't send me home on Friday (as they thought it was a cyst at that point) because the possibility was high that I would have bled internally all weekend at home and not made it through the weekend. My Dr also told me that I would probably be the only patient he ever has in his career with a heterotopic pregnancy. He says I was the first and will probably be the last, it is so uncommon. So I am really bored now as I am still very sore and have pretty much stayed in bed. I am probably asleep about 16 hours a day. And I haven't taken any pain meds since yesterday afternoon. My husband has been taking care of everything. Dinners, groceries, laundry, and getting DD to and from school. Plus he works. Its a good thing his job is only 10 minutes from where we live, and he gets to drive around while he is working so he can come by when he needs to, or I need him to, LOL.

April 26, '08- I am going to try to make this short as I am still in pain. On Wednesday night I could not go to sleep due to an uncomfortable pain in my lower abdomen on the left side. By 1am Thursday morning I was overwhelmed by the pain. I called the on-call number for my OB. The nurse who called me back said that since I miscarried two weeks ago it was probably something else. She asked me if I still had my appendix and I said yes. She told me I needed to go to the emergency room asap. I wake up my husband and he helped me get dressed. At this point I had taken 2 percosets and could not even get a little break from the pain. It was a 10 for sure. DH then got 7yo dd dressed and we were off. I had to get in the backseat on my hands and knees due to the pain. As soon as we got to the hospital they saw me struggling to get out of the car and got me a wheelchair. I had been crying the whole ride there. After we got in and the nurse was asking me questions she said that if it were my appendix it shouldn't hurt as much I said it did. Also, I could only sit in the wheelchair on my knees with my head over the back. If I sat down, the pain was excruciating. They hooked me up to IV's with morphine.

So by 515am they had me drink 2 containers of a white chalky slightly orange flavor concoction so that I could have a CT scan. I had started drinking the 2nd container when I threw up. Luckily it was in one of those bags they can measure, so I had to drink an extra half container of the stuff. Yuck. At that point my husband had already left to get my daughter dressed and off to school. He stopped by work and came back to me in time to find out what was going on. The CT scan could only see a mass where my left fallopian tube and ovary were. They said it had to be blood. They said that it was because of either a cyst or I had an ectopic pregnancy. Again, I explained that I just miscarried. They spoke with my OB and asked me to go see him on Friday at 2. I said I didn't have anyone to get my daughter from the bus at 3pm. Could I go on Monday? They said fine but why didn't I go to the hospital he delivers at when I was hurt. I said I was told it probably didn't have anything to do with the pregnancy and I just wanted to get to the closest emergency room because I was in so much pain. (DUH). So they take me off the morphine IV and said that when I felt better and wasn't light-headed I could go home for the weekend then see my OB on monday. Problem was that 2 hours later I was still light-headed. They said I shouldn't be light-headed and told me they highly recommend I have a laparoscopy. So I said yes. I was so scared. They told me if it was a cyst that they would suction out the blood and take out the cyst, but if it was an ectopic pregnancy they would have to operate and possibly take out my left tube and ovary. I was ready to cry but kept my brave face.

So they came and got me at 3pm, to get prepped for my operation at 4pm. The next thing I really remember is being wheeled back to my room around 6:30. They told me it was an ectopic but that they only had to take off a small amount of my tube and didn't have to touch my ovary. They said I would still release my eggs normally out of both sides but that I should wait and not try to get pregnant anytime soon.

I found out my condition, a pregnancy in both the uterus and an ectopic pregnancy at the same time is called a heterotopic pregnancy. The odds of this happening to me is 1 in 30,000. The odds of it happening to someone taking fertility drugs is 1 in 10,000 to 15,000. The odds of it happening to someone with IVF is 1 in 4,000. I think I will be buying a lottery ticket this week.

I am OK now but my husband says he no longer wants to have children because he fears it will cost me my life if we try again. He was really freaked out through the whole thing. I have an OB appointment tomorrow at 10:45 am. By the way, my HCG at the hospital Thursday morning was 785 so it was definitely dropping. I think that is why we all really thought it was a cyst that had burst. Thanks for reading my book, I tried to make it short but I did skip a lot of details to keep it from getting any longer.

April 19, '08- I thought all of my profile disappeared earlier, but it is back. So here is the update. At my Dr. last week on Monday, my HCG is still at 3200, which is a little high. My Dr told me to come in again this Monday for another blood draw to check my HCG. I was hoping to try and get PG right away but I guess that probably won't be happening anytime soon. Does anyone know if you can ovulate while your HCG is still dropping, or do you have to wait until it is under 5? I have heard it both ways so I am looking for someone who knows personally. I will also post this on the TTC forum. Its just that I am 35 and already have a 15 yo and a 7 yo. Today my 7 yo asked if people still get older in Heaven. I asked her why and she said that she wanted to know if the baby would still be a baby when we get to Heaven. So Sad.

April 15, '08- I went to the Dr yesterday for my U/S and there was nothing in my uterus, not even the sac that was there last week. The Dr said that I probably passed everything when I was bleeding. I don't understand how that could happen without me knowing because I was looking in the toilet every time I went for clots or tissue or anything and never saw anything at all. So now I have moved myself to the TTC category. I am still bleeding but now that I am not taking the progesterone I should start my normal period anytime now. I look forward to keeping in touch with all of you in your pregnancies as well as your efforts to conceive. Does anyone know if I am supposed to start a new page or do I keep this one?

April 12, '08- I am still bleeding once or twice a day, but passing no clots or tissue. I have been taking Prometrium 100 mg capsules twice a day since last Monday night. I have not taken any Mylanta since Thursday morning bcause I was feeling so much better but it all caught up to me tonight (Saturday). I had to take 2 Tylenol 3's for the pain. I got them from the emergency room Dr a week and a half ago on a Wednesday night and this is the first time taking them. My husband had to run to the store to get me another bottle of Mylanta. We went to Moes for dinner, where they make these fantastically huge burritos to order. I wasn't even thinking about how much gas that could cause until it hit me just an hour or so after eating. I learned my lesson there. Anyway I am praying for baby dust and baby glue for everyone here. And hoping again to hear a heartbeat on Monday at the Dr's office U/S.

April 10, '08- I heard from my Dr today. He said (from blood taken on Monday April 7) my HCG only went up to 4200, not the 7000 the Dr wanted to see. And my progesterone went down to 6 from 10. I still have an appointment with the Dr on Monday but it is not looking very good right now.


April 7, '08- I had my Dr. appointment today and they saw a sac that measured 6 weeks (no baby, no fetal pole), but the Dr said that due to my history of having too much amniotic fluid compared to my HCG scores it could be measuring big and I may be a week off in the pregnancy. If that is the case then they wouldn't be able to see a baby yet. So I will have another U/S next week. My Dr also told us no sex so that if I bleed again he will be able to rule that out as a cause. So until the Dr sees a baby and a heartbeat my husband and I will be celibate. DH is hating life now, LOL, but he understands. They took more blood today to test me for various things including HCG again. They are hoping to see them around 7ooo this time.
Forgot to mention that my Progesterone was only 10 and they want it to be at least 15. So I am now on Progesterone pills also. And I just realized that a side effect of them is sleepiness and I am feeling it.

April 2-3, '08- BIG SCARE TONIGHT. I have been having these cramps and pains, figuring they were either gas or from scar tissue from previous C-Sections so figured I would wait til my first OB appointment to ask about it. Until around 7:30 pm tonight when I felt wetness in my undies. I went to the bathroom and saw blood on my undies and blood going into the toilet. I had to wipe at least 5 times to get it all. My husband took me to the ER. We spent almost 6 hours there and when we left we still don't know anymore than when we got there. Also, I didn't bleed anymore, just the one gush. They couldn't see anything in my uterus, but as I am overweight and only 5 weeks that may have been why. The Dr told me that I may or may not have miscarried and to call my OB in the morning to see if I could move my appointment up from Monday to at least Friday. The ER Dr also said that they could not locate an ectopic pregnancy either but my HCG is 2130. My HCG was only 48 at the Drs on March 21st and they said that I was only 1 week pregnant, that I may have ovulated later in the month than average. So right now I am going to be optimistic and think that there was a reason for the blood (late implantation bleeding, blood vessel?), and the pains I explained above. So if my fetus is only 2 weeks and 5 days (or less) then I have no reason to worry. So I need some prayers coming my way if you ladies can fit them in. I will keep you posted.

April 2, '08- So I have been feeling so much better now, but still getting pains in my tummy. Someone mentioned the scar tissue. That may be it but I can't eat ice cream anymore either. The coldness makes me really cramp and have shooting pains. So I just can't eat it. I guess its healthier that way anyway. I have two cravings now also. Fresh strawberries and frosted mini wheats! Yum. Although I could really go for some chocolate chip cookies right now. And I have some cookie dough in the fridge now! I have to go now! ;D

March 30, '08- So I have been doing OK. Still the only time that I had M/S was one night that I took my multi and it made me throw up. So my husband went and bought me childrens chewables and I try to take 2 of those a day. Half of the gender tests I have done say boy and the other half say girl. If I look at the chinese one, it says that both my girls should have been boys and that this one should be a girl! So maybe I am one of those people who does the opposite every time! Anyone else do any of these tests? Are these things 50/50 or what?!

March27, '08- OK, this morning I had the worst shooting pains/cramps. I had to lay down for a few hours. I am not that far along, but maybe it is my insides starting to change. Anyway I am feeling better tonight so I will talk to y'all later!


This is my Daughter Girl Lilith's age!





March 26, '08- OK I think I know what my craving is going to be- WATER! Can you believe it? I just cannot get enough of it. I am drinking 16.9 oz bottle every hour, I think. I know, I know, bottled water, but I don't like the taste of tap water. I don't like the taste of bottled spring water either. I can taste it. Aquafina water is specially purified over and over again. I think that is why I like it. It has no taste. Am I advertising? I promise I don't work there or have stock in the company, LOL! I am really liking fruit right now too. Strawberies, cranberry sauce, watermelon sounds really good too. But not bananas. I couldn't eat bananas my first pregnancy either. My husband is finally coming to reality. He is finally realizing we are having a baby. He was in denial at first and wouldn't trust the pee test. So I had to go to the Doctor. Luckily they were able to fit me in on Friday at 11am. Then I got the blood test and the pee test done. When the blood test results came back on Monday, my husband was finally convinced. He didn't think he could have children as both his sacs were twisted and they had put pins in him when he was 12 years old. He is 38 years old now and this will be his first child. We have only been having unprotected sex for three months after I had my IUD taken out. I didn't think I would need it anymore, ya know.