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Im a mommy to beautiful owen douglas and just found out recently we're expecting a wonderful surprise on september 25, 2008! we'll be busy, but happy & proud parents :)

10 weeks : well im officially ten weeks pregnant! 10 weeks 4 days to be exact. its been going well so far, no morning sickness. unfortunately im MUCH more tired than i was with owen. i have a hard time making it through the day! im getting sick of people commenting on how im "just a little bit pregnant". is there even such thing?!? its discouraging that i dont have support from everyone. having gone through one pregnancy i have to say that the first 12 weeks and the last 3 weeks are the toughest as far as energy levels. i cant WAIT for the first trimester to be over and to get that burst of energy ive been waiting for! it doesnt help that i still have low iron levels from hemorraging after delivery with my son. well, owens at my mother in laws and we're about to sit down and cuddle during a movie. date night! :)

Tuesday March 4 - 11 weeks today! - - Do you ever get the feeling that maybe you cant do it? am i doing a good job with owen, is he satisfied content full?! What could i be doing better?? if i enjoy the few minutes of tranquility of putting him in his high chair with his rice krispies, does that make me a bad person? when theres not enough money at the end of the month to pay all the bills because we're taking advantage of my husband staying home with him on parental leave and his pay is only 55% of what it normally is? when we discuss NOT taking the full year for this second baby because he misses his job and im working towards a big promotion for 2009? i wish money was never an issue. i wish i could live on a farm somewhere and cultivate my own food. raise my own livestock and put food on our own table.... slightly unrealistic in our world. everyone is trying to push us into buying a house especially with the second on the way but i dont want to mess anything up. thats a HUGE decision and i dont want to make the wrong one. HELLO! has anyone heard about the crazy housing disasters down in the states? (i say down because im in canada). people are getting houses and losing them left right and center. i dont want that for my family. i would rather continue renting for another 3-4 years and feel more settled in my position financially (promotion?) and go from there...... i dont like being pressured. i moved out for a reason when i was 16. i deal well under pressure when it comes to school or work but in my personal life - save the draaaama. i hate the stuff. i've been through enough in my life to know how to make a proper decision. now, dont get me wrong. we've made mistakes. like taking out that stupid loan for that stupid junkie car. my life would be so much less stressful if we could pay it off and get a more dependable car. its also not exactly practical. that was 2 yrs ago and westill have another 3 yrs of $200/month payments. sicknening. a $6500 loan thats going to cost us almost $12000 to pay off. also sickening. NEVER again will i buy a car from a "friend". we all learn right? at least i can say the worst decision ive ever made in my life was buying a crappy car. i guess i have a lot to say today, sorry if its like a novel. anyways, i enjoyed my two days off work, my date night with daniel and my time spent with owen :) back to work tomorrow afternoon for another lovely week. i do also have to call the dr tmrw... ive been having heart palpitations more than ever. weird and worriesome. btw, theres a girl i used to work with thats due on march 7th. i wonder if shes in labor or had her baby? she hasnt updated her facebook in a day or two and usually changes her status. hmmm. have you noticed theres babies EVERYwhere? ok, now im just ranting. goodnite.

tata for now ladies

p.s - how the hell do i get the babystrology.com ticker to show on my page?! i copy and pasted and got a bunch of gibberish

Friday March 7 - god my psiactic (sp?) nerve is going wild today. it tends to do that ocassionally it just sucks everytime it does. its always in the exact same spot too! im having a hard time bending down to pick owen up :( oh we brought owen to the dr last night because his eye was red and oozy. turns out he has an eye infection and he gave us some thick-ish drops. naturally, owen hates it. 2 drops in the morning, 2 drops before bed each eye. he screams. he cries. he squirms. but the poor little guy doesnt realize we want to help him. last night it was only his left eye but he woke up this morning with it in both and more goopyness. tonight, its worse than ever. i hope it clears up soon, we're having to clean off his eyes so they dont stick shut lol but i work with the public and definately dont want to have to go to work at any point with a seepy eye because of an infection :S babies are weiiiiiird. lol but i love him! <3 feeling ok lately, still tired but maybe not AS tired. i think ive noticed my hormones a little more with this pregnancy... i dont know yet its strange. but im SO forgetful! im forgetting TONS of little stuff everywhere and its all usually important! my boss saved my butt the other day because i had an interview for the retail management program with my district manager and regional manager and could NOT find the application i had submitted to them!!!! thank god my boss had a version of it on his laptop so i could reprint it :S not exactly responsible tho. its totally unlike me! good thing i work my butt off at work so my boss likes me! :) well anyways, time to go and relax with my boys. i need to take a belly picture soon! im starting to thicken up for sure. 11 weeks 3 days :) i didnt take a belly pic with owen until i was lik 21-22 weeks pregnant and i totally regret it. but after having a baby, it sometimes hard to bare it all for #2 if you know what i mean :S

March 17th - 12 weeks 6 days. omg. my skin is terrible. it was never this bad with owen! its never this bad in general! i feel gross. i work with the public and theres only so much makeup can do... in sales, first impressions are important! im really starting to thicken up now. i say im showing, the hubby made a somewhat insensitive, but typically male comment a few days ago. i was saying oh i think im starting to show. my pants are getting too tight. he replies with well you dont look pregnant yet, you just look chubby. HELLO! wrong thing to say to the woman who is carrying your second child. i brushed it off tho realizing he's never gone through the transformation of pregnancy and therefore, will never understand. im not as tired anymore but i was still pretty sleepy this week as i had to go into work on both of my days off. crappy. thats what i get for trying to get promoted tho. anyways, 13 weeks tmrw, im back to the dr on march 28th for a checkup. i was disappointed at my last one because i had to bring owen with me because the hubby had a job interview for a new position and for some reason he was really cranky (so unlike him) so i couldnt put him down to hear the heartbeat. thats ok tho. i think he was pissy with me because i woke him up from his nap to bring him into the office. poor guy. anyways, the mother in law just showed up, i should head out! happy baby making to all! :)

** I've moved my updates on my pregnancy and mommy life in general to the blog**