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Lucas Elijah Atkinson

Born On February 15th At 3:55am Weighing 6lb's 4oz. Labour: 23 hours

BIRTH STORY

I woke up around 6am with a sort of heavy feeling in my back, which i didnt really think much of. I had made it to valentines day (DD) and still no baby! I was scared he never wanted to come out lol. At 8am i told my mother in law i thought i might be in labour, but i didn't really believe it, i had the conractions but didnt really want to get hopeful just yet. Around 11am they were alot more there so i decided to time them and, at that point, was getting them every 6-8 minutes. I then got in the bath because apparantly it's meant to help...and it sure did! After an hour of loving the bath because it eased the pain so much i called my partner to come home. I was determined then to stick it out at home as long as possible to avoid waiting at hospital. However at about 3pm i was getting contractions every 3 minutes and lasting 1 minute, and the pain got too much.

After being checked over i was only 1cm dilated but Lucas's head was descending without giving my cervix a chance to open fast enough! This made the pain and pressure unbearable and i couldn't get in any uncomfortable position at all. I literally begged for pain relief but my midwife told me we had to ideally wait untill i was dilated further, and perhaps try getting out for a walk. We made it a few floors down to the canteen before it got so bad i was on the floor claiming that i most definitly couldnt and didnt want to give birth after all LOL We made our way back to the baby unit and tried just about everything to ease the pain...birthing ball , bath, squating nthing worked. The midwife checked me over at 6pm and i was still only dilated 3cm, but screaming with every contraction and begging for something inbetween lol. At that point they decided to move me to labour and delivery where i was given half a dose of pethidine. It didnt do a whole lot...just kind of relaxed me inbtween contractions and made me talk about lots of random stuff. At 11pm i was checked again and babies head had completely dropped and i was 5cm dilated. I started using gas and air then, which i hated. the pain was horrible and i wasn't starting to breathe it in quick enough to take the edge of contractions. i remember thnking at that point, this is the worst experience of my life. At 2am we went for a walk but pretty quickly went back to the suite, i couldn't take anymore and asked for the epidural i desperately tried to avoid. Even though i really was decided against it, i had been in labour 20 hours without my mucus plug or my waters breaking and still no real urge to push. I felt desperate and exhausted and like I'd let everyone down. After it was put in i actually slept! They really are amazing! Then, at 3am babies heartrate started to drop so the midwife broke my waters, which were not clear and baby was in trouble. She checked my cervix and i was dilated 10cm and it was time to push. I could still feel the contractions slightly and tried to push but didnt get very far, i was basically too tired and high of all the drugs, it was frustrating for everyone, but i remember just trying to sleep and getting pissed at everyone telling me to push lol Eventually after avoiding an emergency c-section, Lucas was sucked out with a ventouse at 3:55am. He scored an apgar score of 8 and then 9 and was absoloutly gorgeous! I had a 2nd degree cut but it healed well and we were allowed home 2 days later.

Birth Prediction.....

Get your bags packed early just in case you need them. Make sure your partner has a phone available when he's away because this baby just might come early. We predict your baby will come 2-3 weeks early. Your baby will most likely be born in the morning. Justmommies predicts that your baby will weigh approximately 6.3 pounds and that your labor will be about 12 hours long.

What she senses for you
The day you deliver, outside will be cloudy. Your baby will arrive in the early evening.

After a labor lasting approximately 16 hours, your child, a boy, will be born. Your baby will weigh about 8 pounds, 4 ounces, and will be 19 inches long. This child will have blue eyes and a lot of hair.

But there is more. I sense that you feel somewhat alone. Have faith; you are not alone.

About Me....

Hey Ladies congrats on all your babies! This pregnancy has been really up and down for me (as you can read in my blog!) Facing my first pregnancy as a single mummy and not knowing what the future holds has been weird and sometimes sad but now I'm just enjoying being with bump and everything that comes with it, the whole experience is amazing and wonderful even if im still getting my head around being a mummy in the future!

You have a 45% chance of having a boy.
And you have a 54% chance of having a girl.

Pregnancy Survey
How far along are you::	25 Weeks....26 tomorrow
Cravings so far::	Ummm I prefer certain things but no cravings. I want one! lol
Things that make you sick::	Nothing, very very lucky with all that
Boy or girl::	Boy
Babys name::	Lucas
Advice for other pregnant women::	ummmm Sit back, relax and love it :)
Baby Daddy::	He has a name but he isnt worth it lol
His reaction::	He left
Greatest memory so far::	Lying back at my 12 week scan thinking, 'oh nothing will be there' and suddenly seeing my gorgeous boy and feeling true love for the first time
Biggest fear::	being a rubbish mum, not actually having a home when he's born, labour, not being able to breastfeed ummm i could go on!
Strange symptoms::	losing my belly button haha
Advantages of being pregnant::	The whole thing, i love it!
Weird dreams::	sooo many, one when i gave birth to a green bug and accidentally lost it was particularly odd
Emotional outbursts::	I'm one big over the top bubble
Breast changes::	I have them for the first time, and milk...As my midwife said: "nobody tells you you'll wake up one day with a very odd substance coming out of them" :)
Waist changes::	I have no waist
Things you quit for baby::	Smoking, alcohol, coffee, partying...anything not good for us.
Most uncomfortable time::	When i eat too much and there just isn't room to sit comfortably
Worst part of being pregnant::	watching the weight scales creep up lol
Best place for maternity clothes::	EBay
Taking parenting classes::	I've booked them
Pregnancy necessities::	chocolate
Grandparents reaction::	very happy
Aunts? Uncles?::	again happy
Godparents::	my 2 bestfriends
Where will you deliver::	In hospital
When::	14th febuary
Will you breastfeed::	hopefully
Will you use cloth diapers::	I've thought about it
Books you're reading::	Jo Frost's confident baby care
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I decided to start this blog as i find it absoloutly fascinating to read back how i once felt, and also showing how far little one and I have come.

June 2007 - 6 weeks

So today is Monday, I found out i was expecting on Thursday of last week and well, what a huge bundle of stress these last few days have been. I never realised something so little could cause such an ordeal.
Whether that be the utterly useless father-to-be, endless 'advice' (I'm sorry but no you telling me im wrong is not helping!) or for that matter my obviously clueless man doctor.
So far there has been a lot of debate on whether i should have an abortion, i have never felt so let down by one person in my life. I dont recall him objecting to the sex at the time anyway! I'm just so glad that i have been overcome with the strongest feeling ever to fight for this little one. No matter what happens i will do my best. I will be so happy when this whole thing dies down a little and i can enjoy being pregnant, because so far i love how i feel about the whole thing, it seems to just put me in the most amazing mood. Also my breasts seem to be on a growth spurt at the moment which is fantastic seeing as i wasn't exactly 'blessed' before!

I figure i will keep writing my blog just as a personal reminder along the way of how far me and the little fellow have come. It'll be an interesting journey!

June - 7 weeks

Okay so here i am blogging again, and last time i promised myself it would only be used to note the good times through having this baby. However i feel a little crappy so i figure i'll get it out here.

So after 'daddies' fantastically timed 'its me or the baby' question, i finally had an answer for him last night. It was weird because deep down i always knew what i wanted i just desperately didn't want to lose him, and therefore avoided even being honest with myself. It's amazing how much you can lie to yourself and actually believe it.
I was just so glad that no matter how i felt i never could have gone through with letting the little un' go.
Only now I'm faced with quite a weird mix of emotions, which i know are probably due to hormones but still are as equally hard to deal with. On the one hand I have a strong feeling of pride in myself for ever getting to this point and not ever letting him tell me what to do. On the other I have the grieving for my lost relationship which almost makes me feel like a complete idiot seeing as by rights, i should hate that pathetic little man, but i don't. What is that about?!
We were never going anywhere anyway and thinking about it our relationship was a nightmare, but god i miss him. And everything he does to make me feel worse works a treat. I just wish he could be more of a man and love this baby like i do.

All i can say is, bump i can't wait to hold you in my arms and prove to this world we can do this together.

July 2007 - 10 weeks

So finally I feel like I've made some good progress in getting over my ex. Decorating the nursery definately gave me something to concentrate on, and was like a physical step in moving forward... and even if i do say so myself, the room looks so cute! Apart from that I have been diagnosed with a mild case of pre-natal depression which apparantly is caused by hormone surges, definately not helping at all. It's even an achievement if i can get out of bed at the moment :(
On the plus side I havent had to deal with the usual pregnancy issues like sickness...but everything smells bad! LOL
I have my first u/s in a couple of weeks so im very excited about that and hopefully the depression with subside by the 2nd trimester so fingers crossed!

August 2007 - 12 weeks

YAY :D I went for my 12 week baby scan today and it was the most amazing thing i have ever seen.The scan for Down's syndrome took a little longer than usual because the little one was moving around so much and wouldn't get in the right position, but bless it was so cute watching baby swim about in there!
Its so weird when you first see it pop onto the screen, but i have seriously fallen in love and just like everyone promised, it makes all the crap getting to this point worth while!
Anyway the great news is everything is just perfect and the little one is still due Febuary 14th!
I actually never realised anything could make me so happy...now all i have to do is get this stupid permanant grin off my face..lol :D There are pics so feel free to take a look at my little beauty!

August - 13 weeks

Wow I just love being pregnant!! Finally the depression seems to have lifted and I'm completely just loving every minute of it all. I feel so lucky not to have to deal with many of the usual pregnancy symptoms although my skin is being a nightmare, i have worse spots than when i was a teenager! Just hoping that'll pass asap, the other day i was told by my mum that i could be having a girl seeing as the pregnancy is making me less attractive..thanks mum! LOL Something to do with baby girl taking my looks or something...odd. I always felt sure little one would be a boy though, and i'm so excited to find out in October. I hired a fetal doppler to monitor babies heart beat which is really amazing, it definately puts your mind at rest and it even sounds like little one is moving around in there, although i'm not sure what ill do when i have to return it! I've met a new partner aswell too who, i have known a long time and he already knew about bump and was very excited about little one. I'm not sure how it'll all work out seeing as he isnt the biological father but its all hopeful so far, so fingers crossed!

August - 14 weeks

I think I may have felt little one move!! Everbody tells me it's a little too early, but i guess I'll know for sure when I feel it more. It was definately not a normal thing ive felt before, i was just sitting watching tv and coughed and then straight after felt what i would describe as bubbles popping below my belly button. Does this sound about right? Another thing my bump is definately there! I'ts now impossible to wear my jeans with the button done up so for now i bought a belly band which is great because it means i can keep my pre pregnancy clothes a little longer. I'm so proud to be finally showing my pregnancy though.

August - 15 weeks

Things are just perfect, and although it's early days my new partner says he would love to be a big part of babies life when little ones born, which made me cry! Now when people ask, he tells them that he's going to be a daddy which is so cute! Looking back to when i first conceived, i never knew my life could change so much for the better in just a few weeks. We've been talking about baby names, which i hoped he wouldn't really mind either way so i could pick my favourite but he is even pickier than me! The names for a boy have changed so much, i really liked, Noah, Isaac or Jacob but he didn't. Then finally I thought of Luca which he thought was okay, but we settled for Lucas in the end, which i adore! Horray finally..lol

September - 16 weeks

I'm feeling so tired this week! It's been a weird one full of emotions purely because i was due to see my midwife on monday, who i haven't seen now since my booking appointment at 7 weeks, however, when i called for an appointment i was told she's all booked now for three weeks. Grrr I'm not sure what testing i should be having done or whatever but it's just that little bit if reassurance that i would like to know my babies okay. Especially since I've been feeling exhausted and getting really out of breathe easily and look pale. Someone suggested i could be anemic so i thought I'd go to the doctor's anyway, which put my mind at rest. He told me i have a very high blood count so the chances of anemia are slim but i need to completely rest while my body is trying to keep up with making little one. On the plus side none of this will affect my daring so i've felt ten times happier. Although when he felt my tummy he says that my uterus hasnt come above my pelvis yet so expect to really pop sometime in the coming week...i already feel huge!!

So anyways having been signed off from work i am fully making the most of not being able to do anything although it is starting to get a little boring...day time tv isnt so great and there is only so much Jeremy Kyle i can stand :D

Baby is a lot more active now though...but i only seem to feel it quite late around 11-12pm. Has this happened to anyone else? let me know...thanks! Anyways heres to week 17 may it be alot less tiresome! I hope your all feeling great.

October 21 weeks -

Okay i seem to have lost ALOT of my blog in the mess up of vip pages, but ho hum nothing could bother me today because I Have my 21 Week U/S Tomorrow!!! ...........yipppeeeeee Lol
It's been a long time coming and taken forever to get here but I'm so happppyyy. I always thought i have a little man in there but hey we shall see!...Watch this space lol

Birth Story.....

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jes - Friday, 23 May
my son was born feb 18th and also has yet to roll, haha my husband has also tried showing him...im not to worried though some babies take their time :)

3rdtimer - Thursday, 15 May
Hi, saw your comment about how to get your bub back into a sleep routine. Great to hear that you've got over depression and are aware of what could push you back downhill. I've had it on and off too and I now can realise when I'm headed downhill in time to stop it taking over. Anyway, lack of sleep certainly doesn't help as I'm sure you're well aware! But great to know you're loving your baby, wow, there's nothing more delicious, is there. I really believe in the 'controlled comforting' thing. Like you said yourself, your baby already learnt to comfort himself to sleep and that's really important for both of you. You might like to try this: lay your baby down to sleep (swaddle if he's used to it), sweetly tell him to have a good sleep and walk away. If he cries, wait five minutes and go back in to comfort him but don't pick him up. Just give him a quick pat and some nice words and walk away again. Then make the next break longer (if he's still crying). Let him go for about ten minutes and never pick him up (unless you need to quickly re-swaddle him or something). The next time, fifteen minutes. And so on, longer each time. If he's tired, fed and has a clean nappy he should fall asleep within about 45 minutes if not before. Do the same each time you put him down for a sleep. (I promise he'll still be pleased to see you when he wakes up!) It really only takes a couple of days, if that, for them to get the hang of it. And then, when he wakes a little in the night (like we all do), he won't need you to be there to put him back to sleep again. I swear by a book called 'Silent Nights' by Brian Symon who's a doctor here in Australia. It taught me a lot about getting my own kids to sleep well. But I think there are a few books that say the same sorts of things. Anyway I hope this might help a bit. Good luck and keep enjoying your precious little one. Oh and take care of yourself - happy mum, happy baby :)

Izziebo - Thursday, 15 May
Hehe thanks i think hes trying more niow but its not really good enough still im sure ill manage iv dragged myself this far im on for the final push now lol

how are you:D?

aww no i wannaa boy baby not a girl lol xxxxxxx

Debra - Friday, 11 April
i read your question in the breast feeding forum. It doesn't sound like a strike- but low gas pain. My son started to have more low gas pain around 6-8 weeks. WOuld wiggle and pull off the breast then try to go back on. I found it helpful to burp during feeding- specifically in a position over my knees. I had him lying tummy down over my knees while i patted his back. THis puts pressure on the tummy and helps the gas to escape. Do his cries sound like "EAIRE" ? This is a sound babies make when they have low gas pain (from Dunstan's baby language). "EH" is upper gas pain. Also around this time, my son started to have more explosive bowel movements. I hope this helps!

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