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YOU. Redhead Wifey-- Everyone around here simply knows me as Red. :) I married Redhead Husby in May 2007. He's the most wonderful gift from God, and I am daily blessed by my loving & sacrificial husband. There isn't a day that goes by when I don't wonder why the Lord ever gave me such a blessing! I am very thankful.
On July 6, 2007 we found out we were expecting our first baby (that's when we became Redhead Mama and Redhead Dada). We were overjoyed! But a number of weeks later, I miscarried. We named our baby Covenant Hope. This was a very trying experience for us, and we grew closer together and also closer to God through the struggle. Very soon thereafter, we were blessed with another baby! On September 15, 2007 we found out we were expecting "Baby Two"! This was a wonderful pregnancy and resulted in giving birth on May 23, 2008 to the most beautiful boy I've ever held. His name is Gabriel David (aka Redhead Boy), and he is the love of our life. Our true miracle - although we didn't even know it at the time. On March 23, 2009 we found out that God had blessed my womb with "Baby C", due around Thanksgiving. But then on March 30, 2009 our little Redhead Baby was lost in a miscarriage. We named our baby Glory Hesed (Hesed is a Hebrew word describing God's covenantal love and faithfulness). Again we felt crushed beneath a mountain. And yet we know that God is good, and works all things together for the good of those who love Him. We survive trials by His grace alone. On May 25, 2009 we found out that yet again God blessed my womb with a baby! This one, our "Little Babe," was due Feb 2nd, but was miscarried into our hands on June 20th. We named her Promise Anastasis which means "promise of resurrection." We spent the summer of 2009 working with a reproductive endocrinologist, undergoing testing and research. We were able to uncover borderline low progesterone and hypothyroidism -- both of which we are able to address regularly and easily! We are so thankful for that. I also have high FSH and high LH, and although we are currently uncertain what that means for our future, there isn't anything we can do about it. :) On October 14, 2009 we found out that we were expecting our fifth arrow. It was a long sequence of weeks with good results, bad results -- beautiful heartbeats on ultrasounds but ridiculously low hormones. After seven weeks in our family, our Peace Nikonos joined his siblings in heaven. The baby's name means "peace of the One who overcame" or "peace of the Victor." We love and miss this child so much -- the vacancy in our home is painful and devastating. God did not cause my womb to be empty for long! Just 4 1/2 weeks after delivering tiny Peace into my hands, we found out that I was expecting Baby Six! Unfortunately, we found out at 8w3d that the baby had died previously and my body was simply not recognizing it yet. I finally miscarried Mercy Kyrie ("Mercy, O Lord!") at 11w3d, and it was the most physically difficult of my miscarriages. In April, 2010
we found out that we were expecting Baby Seven! We prayed for joy in
each day that I carried this little one here, although the days were
long and trying. But we found out a number of weeks into it that this
sweet baby too joined five older sisters & brothers in heaven. This
is our little Victory Athanasius - "victory
of the immortal." With this baby, I had my first d&e procedure. I was terrified. And although I still prefer to miscarry naturally, this time it was the right decision, and it all went according to plan. Victory's pathology showed that this was (most likely) a perfectly healthy baby girl. In December 2009 we had begun working with a reproductive immunologist who was able to diagnose some immunological problems I have, having hyperactive Natural Killer Cells (NKC) and not having a necessary antigen in my blood called the antipaternal blocking antibodies. So when I get pregnant, my NKC treat my babies like a cancer or bacteria, attacking instead of trying to protect the baby. With these particular medical problems, our babies only have about a 5-8% chance of survival without treatment! (Which proves just how much of a miracle our little boy is!) We have so far treated three pregnancies for this condition (Mercy, Victory, and Hosanna), but have miscarried anyway. In June of 2010 we began working with three other specialists across the United States, uncovering some more facets with the immune problems. Besides the NKC problems & having zero antipaternal blocking antibodies, I also have blood clotting disorders called MTHFR homozygous and PAI-1 heterozygous. We spent the summer of 2010 coming up with medical protocols, in hopes that it will enable my body to nurture and grow healthy babies to live long on the earth. My medical protocols included treatments called LIT (leukocyte immune therapy), monthly iv infusions (of IVIG & iv-intralipids), daily progesterone, daily baby aspirin, daily Levothyroxine, daily Prednisone, daily Metanx, in addition to extra calcium and prenatals and flax seed oil, & daily Lovenox shots. It was quite the cocktail, indeed.
In early October, 2010, we found out that I was expecting our eighth baby who we lovingly named Hosanna Praise (which is a cry of Save, Lord as well as proclamation of God's holiness). We fervently prayed, along with thousands of Christians around the world, on behalf of our baby's life. However, at 7w4d we found on ultrasound that our baby's beautiful heart had stopped beating. I had my second d&c with Hosanna, and we later found out that this precious baby was a perfectly healthy, 100% normal little boy. We grieved the death of our little son, and continue praying to God for faith in Him & His sovereign (though painful) plan.
We then moved forward with our last known biological option, before moving on to the possibilities of surrogacy and adoption (embryo adoption is likely not an option for my body due to the immunological problems, so we would be limited to infant adoption). Our last round of medical protocol for my immunological and blood clotting issues included Levothyroxine, Metanx, baby aspirin, prenatal, calcium, flax seed oil, Lovenox injections, Crinone suppositories, Neupogen injections, and then PIO injections after BFP.We are thankful
to God for modern science and medicine to help us uncover my medical problems and provide new treatments! We glorify Him!
On March 31, 2011 we found out that our little Baby Number Nine was snuggling in ~ it was tenuous and terrifying, but as the days and weeks passed we were continually blessed with good news! My medications and treatments went really well (I have gotten so good at doing multiple injections and swallowing dozens of pills!), and all the bloodwork & ultrasounds kept me on my toes (2-3x a week bloodwork, and weekly ultrasounds ~ through the first & third trimesters). At 19 1/2 weeks we found out that Baby 9 is a little Baby Boy! According to God's incredible mercies, our Asher Timothy arrived early, just before sunrise on Thanksgiving morning, perfectly healthy and beautiful. His name means "blessed to honor God." With blue eyes, red hair, long fingers, and looking so much like his big brother... he stole our hearts and reminded us anew of God's overwhelming mercies and graces. He is our Thanksgiving miracle and an eternal reason for continual rejoicing.
May God give us strength to pursue His will instead of
our own, and to find some little joys in each day as we pursue His wisdom for our
future. While I would never have chosen this tremendous path of grief for myself, I can honestly (from my heart) say that I am thankful for it because of how I have seen God glorified through it; thanks be to God. Seven children in heaven. Two childred in our home. We
still want a large family, and feel called to have our home full of
little redhead kiddos. We know that God has given us this desire, and
that He delights in giving us the desires of our hearts. So we plod
onward by faith, prayerfully seeking the Lord's will & wisdom in all
of this. We do not doubt God's goodness and sovereignty, but we can not pretend to even begin to understand His ways. We seek to follow Him with every fiber of our beings, every day of our lives. May God have mercy upon our family. May He fill our home with laughter and dancing.
Blessings to you, and may you have many olive plants around your table (Psalm 128).
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baby-beiler - Saturday, 4 February week 31! nine weeks or less to go! oh man this is exciting
baby-beiler - Wednesday, 1 February 66 more days!!! woo hoo! i cannot stand it :)
baby-beiler - Friday, 27 January anyone else ever get a kick to the stomach that made you feel like puking? wish Joel would move lol... at least he has moved up and off the spot where he was at last night!
baby-beiler - Wednesday, 25 January hey there girlies! my little joelybean is moving up a storm tonight! This morning i finally had 'the talk' with my hubby. I said listen we have got to get our room remodeled and ready to go! like it has got to happen because he will be here in ten weeks or less lol! so after pay day hopefully we go get the things we need to frame in the closet and get moving. i am just stressing out! for real! I want our room ready for when he gets here. and my kiddos are squished in the nursery now and Bekah is ready and excited to have her own room once we move out :) lol John will be hanging out in the nursery until his room is done... but really i am not stressing about his room just want my room done and bekah and john is seperate rooms so that they sleep better. I mean is that too much to ask? lol
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