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redrobin
	Age: 28 Country: CA Province/region: Ontario City: Toronto Partner: Aaron Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Please select Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation: recruiter
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Ok, so I have been a member for over a week now and haven't written anything here yet so I thought it was about time. I am now 16 weeks pregnant and was too afraid to get excited about the pregnancy until now, as I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks this past August. My husband and I have been married for 2 and a half years now and are very excited about the addition to our family.

We relocated from Montreal this past summer for my husbands job and I am still getting settled into a new house and new job. It has been a challenging 6 months, with moving, finding a new home and job, going through one m/c and then a second pregnancy. I only hope to find some stability here in our new home, which is closer to both of our families. What is really exciting about the timing of our second pregnancy is that my older sister will be giving birth to her fourth just a few months before me!

I am so excited to have gotten this far in my pregnancy and can't wait for each week to pass and be closer to our new baby. We have an scan at the end of the month to find out the sex of our baby and I can't wait!

Wednesday, 9 Jan

Well, I just came back from my first prenatal yoga class. I have not done any exercise since I was 8 weeks and had a bit of spotting. I got too freaked out and have been taking it easy since. Yoga is a little slower pace than what I `m used to, but at least it `s something. Before I got pregnant I was at the gym at least 5 days a week and was a big runner. Now I `m lucky if I go for a walk around the block. Anyway, this week is my intro back into fitness and I may go back to the gym and try walking on the treadmill instead:)

Sunday, 13 Jan

Wow, 17 weeks already! At times it feels like I `ve been waiting forever to get to this point and others it seems like it is just flying by. I feel huge already and lazy!!! You name it for symptoms and I have had it...morning sickness, insomnia, nosebleeds, lightheadedness, constipation and headaches! Lately, it is the headaches and insomnia that have been plaguing me. My husband is starting to get so excited too, and he has already decided what kind of theme he wants for the nursery. The only thing that I am unhappy about at this point is my job. I had trouble finding work when my husband and I relocated and I `ve ended up working for my dad `s home business as a recruiter. I can `t believe that I have like 4 more months before I can quit working! It `s not fair! I `m sure it will go by more quickly than I expect, but I really just want to enjoy this pregnancy and have some time to myself before the baby comes. My husband is worried about finances and was the one who encouraged me to take the job in the first place. I just feel very unmotivated to put in so much effort to start over (again!) when I know that it is really just for a short while.

Thursday, 24 Jan

Tomorrow is the big day--ultrasound day! I can `t wait....

Friday, 25 Jan

Ok, so today was the big day! We finally had our first ultrasound and found out that we `re having a baby boy! My husband said, `I knew it! ` and started gloating before we even left the clinic. I am so excited, I had a dream a few weeks ago that it was a boy and it came true! The technician kept telling me what difficult baby I had, because he kept moving while she was trying to get the images that she needed. She was super nice though, and she has just gone back to work full time herself from mat leave. My sister is having a boy as well, 3 months before me so we are hoping that they can be friends.

Thursday, 31 Jan

Ok, so every time I update this thing it puts my message a day ahead of when I actually wrote it...weird. Anyway, I went to the doctor this morning. He confirmed that it is definately a boy and that he is a good size for this stage in the pregnancy. In fact he is actually on the big side. He did mention, however, that the radiologist left a comment saying that they could only see two chambers of the umbilical cord and there should be three. He told me not to worry about it though, because the baby is not under weight and it was probably that they just couldn `t get a good image during the ultrasound. I finally got some maternity clothes in the mail as well that I had ordered from a site on line and will get to pick the package up tomorrow! Still checking the days off the calendar waiting for this little guy to get here, and I took the afternoon off of work today to watch the baby story at home and daydream.

Monday, 4 Feb

So grumpy today. I am really moody and I can `t seem to get control of it which is very frustrating. My husband keeps making comments about how grumpy I `ve been, which just makes me feel worse! I know that if I got some more excercise it would probably help, but I feel so lazy as well. Also, my mother in law has been at our place for 3 weeks now, which is pretty stressful as well. I really think that maybe I just need a little sunshine (a break from all of this snow) to make me feel better. I can `t wait for spring! I have a meeting tonight with our financial advisor at the bank to find our how realistic it will be for me to open up this business that I have been looking into. Wish me luck...I want this SO bad! I just can `t stand the thought of 4 more months in my current job. I know that 4 months, in the big picture, is not a long time, but right now it feels like forever!!!!!!

Monday, 11 Feb

Well, yesterday we took my younger sister to the airport. She `s leaving for Australia for the year to go to teachers college. I am so excited for her, but sad because she won `t be here for the birth. I am starting to feel huge! I know that I `m not even that big yet, but I certainly don `t feel sexy anymore. My mother in law was away for the weekend, so it was nice to have some alone time with my husbad (something which hasn `t happened a lot lately). She be back tonight, but I hope that she flies out this week. It `s not that I don `t like her, but that she has been here for a month now, and she has a lot of problems of her own, which I in turn get stressed out about as well. Aaron is almost finished the floor in the nursery and then we can set up the furniture!!!!! Over all I am feeling pretty happy, although I wish I could just stop working now!

Thursday, 21 Feb

Last day in week 22, Yeah!!! This week went by so slowly! I wish I could just sleep until it was time for the baby to come, or at least if it was a little warmer out it might boost my spirits a bit. I really can `t stand being at work anymore, I feel like it is pointless and really just a waste of time. My husband is so concerned about the money that he won `t let me quit and won `t even listen to my concerns about how I feel being there everyday. I have been looking into opening a business once the baby is about 6 months old and in order to do that we need to start planning now and apply for the financing. My husband just doesn `t to want to encourage me and says that we should wait until the baby is born and see how I feel. All that I know is that if money is so tight that I can `t stop working now, than why do we need to wait and see about opening a business later on. I will not be going back to where I am working now and this is something that we had discussed before we relocated (again) for his job. All that I want, is to feel like I am making some kind of contribution and to be able to do that by doing something meaningful. I have a degree in fine art but have never been able to indulge this passion as money has always been a concern. I don `t want a lot, really just a simple life where I can be content with my family and have a little something of my own. It just makes me so depressed to think about all of this right now....why can `t this snow just melt already?????????

Sunday, 24 Feb

Just a quick update. My husband got to feel the baby for the first time on Friday night. It was just one good kick, but it was something. I `m also going to try to post our nursery photos...it looks awesome!!!

Thursday, 6 Mar

So today is my last day at 24 weeks and then tomorrow it is on to 25!!! I am so glad that things are moving along quickly now! Tonight we have our tour of the maternity ward and registration at the hospital, which I am so excited about. The little guy has been pretty quite this week which was making me kind of nervous, but then today at luch he gave me one great big kick which made me feel a lot better. I have still been a bit grumpy, which I feel bad about, but I feel like I can `t control it. It `s hard for my husband to be understanding and sometimes I feel like I `m no fun anymore! Only a few more days of work and then it is off to Florida for a couple weeks which will be awesome. I can `t wait to get a bit of sunshine...it just won `t stop snowing here and it feels like winter is never going to end! I really started back on a good excercise routine this week and even went to the gym on Monday. I got a few strange looks from the ladies but whatever. I felt great after, although I am still paranoid about overdoing it and hurting the baby. I was a little shocked to see that my armband which holds my mp3 player doesn `t fit around my arm anymore, which just makes me all the more motivated to keep up with a fitness routine now. I `ve been doing a video at home and then had my last yoga class on Tuesday night. I think I will try to do 3 days a week at the gym and a couple of times a week at home with the video. Anyway, it makes me feel like not such a lazy lump. Other than that I `ve been feeling good, except for some back pain. It `s the worst when I wake up from sleeping. Anyway, I will have more to write after the hospital visit...

Sunday, 9 Mar

So we went to do the registration at the hospital on Thursday night. It freaked me out a little. Up until now I had not been nervous about the actual labour. Touring the hospital and talking with the nurse made it seem so much more real, as closer than I thought! I wanted to try to do this naturally, but now I `m getting scared. I `ve decided that I won `t really know until the time comes and I will just have to listen to my body. It has been snowing for two days now and we have pretty much been snowed in all weekend. Seems to finally be letting up now and hopefully we will get out this afternoon to take the dog for a walk.I `ve also been a little concerned that perhaps no one will think to throw me a baby shower. It `s not that it `s important, but it is by first and it would be nice. All of my friends (or at least most of them) live in the city and I just keep replaying that episode of sex in the city in my head. Anyway, I know that I should just let things happen, but I guess I `m feeling a little lonely and isolated since we moved here and I `m worried that now that we are starting a family we will never see any of our friends from the city again!

Sunday, 23 Mar

So I am finally in week 27! I can `t believe that in 13 weeks (give or take) my little guy will be here! I have spent the last week and a half in Florida with my dad and am awaiting my mom and my husband to come and meet us tomorrow afternoon for another week. I couldn `t handle another week in the cold and can `t stand my job (funny enough I work for my dad), so I decided to come out here a week earlier than my husband. What a mistake! My father doesn `t even remember that I am pregnant half the time, and couldn `t care less. He spends most of his time fishing and leaves me here in this dirty condo waiting for him to return. I have read 3 books in the week that we have been here, which really just proves how much time I have had to myself. A couple days after we got here I overheard a conversation that he was having on his cell phone. He was sitting on the balcony with the patio door shut and I was inside on the couch reading, so I `m sure that he thought that I couldn `t hear what he was saying. I just caught bits, but enough. He was asking a woman how her son was and he also asked `does he know about us `. He told her that one day he would meet her son and tell him that he loved his mother. As the conversation went on he also said something about kissing her nose and body! I didn `t know what to say or do so I remained quiet the rest of the night and the following day, and called my sister in Canada to talk to her. She caught my dad 7 years ago the exact same way, except that she heard him through the baby monitor. She went to my mom about it and it resulting in them splitting up for a year and then eventually getting back together. I couldn `t sleep because I couldn `t stop thinking about it and I didn `t know what to do. A few nights later I decided to bring it up while we were out for dinner. I told him that I needed to talk to him, that I knew that he was seeing someone else and that I didn `t care, but I was just worried about what would happen to my mom. My mother has been through so much. She is such a kind and gentle person and she would do anything for him. She had already gone through this once with him and she eventually took him back. Three years ago she suffered a brain aneurism which almost killed her and as a result is slightly different than she was before. My dad uses this as an excuse and says that he can `t talk to her anymore. He tells me not to worry, that he `s not going anywhere and that it `s not what I think. He just needs someone to talk to. We didn `t talk the rest of dinner, the way home and barely the following day. My aunt and uncle decided to drop in on us the following day, which broke the ice (thank god). Since they left my dad acts like nothing happened. I don `t know what to do...my mom will be here tomorrow, with my husband and I `m not sure if I can look at her and not tell her everything. I know that if anything happens, my dad will blame me and I will feel tremendously guilty. I just can `t handle all this pressure while being pregnant! To top it off when we get home in a weeks time my dad expects me to go back to work for him! I just can `t do it. I called my husband this morning to tell him that I decided that we are moving to Bali, far away from all of our family! If only we could really do that! I `m not sure what I `m going to do, but one thing is for sure I cannot go back to work for him at the end of this week!

Week 30:
My most recent update is under the blog section. I'm still trying to get used to the new format on this site. This week has flown by! My sister had her baby 2 days ago. He was 8 pounds 11 ounces and came very fast! She called me around 8:45 to let me know they were on their way to the hospital and he was born just after 11am. I can't believe how precious he is! It makes this all seem so much more real and I can't believe that we only have 10 weeks to go! We don't really have anything yet except for the crib and I'm starting to freak out. Everyone keeps telling me to calm down and that I'll get things at my shower but I haven't even been told when that is yet!
We had our second parenting class this week--the focus being all about breast feeding. I definately want to breast feed, I'm just afraid that it won't be enough food for our little guy....
Also, met with the obstetrician for the first time this week. She wants me to go for a a fetal echo cardiogram because of the 2 vessel umbilical cord. For some reason I'm not too worried---I hope my instincts are correct. I am booked to drive down to the city to have it done next week. At least my glucose test came back good so that good.
I'm also going to try to post photos of our 3-D ultrasound that we had last weekend--just have to try to figure out how to change the format. I can't believe that we are at 30 weeks already!

Week 30 update:

So I had my fetal echo yesterday and everything looked great! I'am so relieved! On to 31 weeks tomorrow....I can't believe that we only have 9 more weeks to go! Still haven't agreed on a name....but we did do our registry at babies are us, so that is one less thing to worry about. Also had my inlaws take us out last weekend to pick out a travel system (car seat and stroller combo) and a swing. My little sister in law, who is 14 years old, also picked me out an adorable diaper bag. The tag on the back says "eat your veggies", which is funny because I'm vegetarian. Had our last parenting class on Tuesday as well, the focus this week was mainly on post partum depression and the transition from couple hood to parent hood. Nothing planned for this weekend, but it is supposed to be beautiful out so will probably spend some time outside with our dog.

Sunday April 27th: 32 weeks

Week 32! I cannot believe that I am actually this far along. I am in extreme nesting mode, and I am distressed because my shower is not until the end of next month (3 weeks before I'm due). Everyone keeps telling me not to buy stuff because I will get a lot of it at the shower, but I just want to be prepared! What if he comes early? I've also been reading Ina May's Guide to Childbirth which is a truly inspiring book if anyone is interested in having a natural childbirth. I kind of wish that I had chosen to go with a midwife after reading this, but I think that everything is going to be great anyhow. I think that a lot of the birthing process has to do with your attitude towards it, and I want to go into this trusting my body and believing that this is a natural process. We start our birthing classes tomorrow night at the hospital, and I'm excited to see what kind of info we'll get. I hope that it is a positive experience....I need that to build up the the big day! Nothing new at the doctors or ob's office. The baby is still head down and I feel his kicks in my ribs! I am just so excited to meet him!!!!!!!

May 2nd: 33 weeks

I went to the doctor today---I have gained 7 pounds just since I was there a couple of weeks ago! I don't get it....I've been at the gym everyday since then and still I just keep gaining. It's been a total of 40 pounds so far! My god, this baby better weigh at least 10 pounds when he's born!

I think that we have finally decided on a name, but I want to keep it under wraps until he's born. I've also been doing a lot of reading this past week and I've decided that I want to go as natural as possible during my labour and delivery. My body is built to do this, and it is better for me and for the baby. I just hope I have the courage and strength to go through with it. I only hope that Aaron will support me in this and encourage me when I need it! I had a little melt down last night because I feel like sometimes he forgets what I am going through, and I'm afraid that he won't be as supportive as I'd like during the labour. I now wish that we had taken some further birthing classes to practice relaxation techniques together and so that he would have more information on the actual labour. He says that he doesn't want to see me go through pain...but I don't think that he knows how important this is for me to be able to trust me body to do this without medical intervention. (Unless it is absolutely necessary, of course). Anyway, this is what has been occupying my mind this past week (obsessively even). Getting closer everyday---and I can't forget that for a minute!

May 19th: 35 weeks pregnant

Have spent the past couple of weeks trying to take care of our poor dog. He had a bad infection in his tail that started the beginning of April and after much drama (including a several vet visits) we had to have his tail amputated! That really took my mind of the baby for a little while, and put a lot of stress on us financially. I still haven't heard back about my maternity benefits yet and it has been over a month! Hopefully I will hear something this week, because we need the money.

My friend Laura threw me a "BBQ/check out Jen's belly" party on Saturday night. It was a surprise, but I knew something as up, so I borrowed a snuggly from my sister and made Aaron wear it all night with a 5lb bag of potatoes in it. It was nice to see all of my friends, but it was also sad because I realize that none of them are in this phase of their lives yet and I really don't have any friends who can understand or relate to what I am going through. I kinda felt like none of them where even really that excited to be there. Again, maybe it's just me and my pregnant hormones, but I was grumpy all day yesterday just thinking about it. My sister is throwing me a proper baby shower next weekend and I don't think that any of my friends are even going to come :( There are times during this pregnancy that I have felt very alone, and this is one of the reasons. I am going to be 28 years old just after the baby is born (which I don't think is young to have a first child) and yet all of my friends live in the city and are living very different lives from me. It makes me sad that we no longer live in the city and are an hour from everything. I think my husband is right when he tells me that I would most likely feel the same way if we did live in the city, but that I wouldn't have any family near by as support so it might even compound those feelings. I guess it's just weird to think that I have moved on to a new part of live and that a big part of who I was before I can never go back to. Most of the time I'm ok with that, but sometimes I get freaked out.

Yesterday we also went and got a closet organizer and set up the baby's closet, so that I have somewhere to put his clothes. We also went to Costco and got diapers and wipes...again because I'm not sure how many people will be at my shower and I'm worried about not having the essentials. The closet looks great and I am so proud of my hubby for doing it all on his own! It saved us some stress and money by doing it ourselves and not having to hire someone to come and do it for us. This week looks pretty busy...today is a holiday (Victoria Day) and then there are vet appointments, doctors appointments and the shower this weekend! It should just fly by.....our baby will be coming so soon now!

May 31, 2008--37 weeks pregnant

Wow 20 days left to go until my due date! Time seems to be flying by and I can't believe that this could really happen any day now. We have everything ready now, nursery is all set, baby's clothes are washed and bags are packed....now we wait! I had this feeling before that the baby would come before his due date, but now I'm not so sure. I'm not impatient--he'll come when he's ready to come. I do think that he is going to be a big boy though. At my appointment this week with the OB she said that he had grown since last week. I asked her if he felt big to her.....she just paused and then told me that he would not be a 7 pounder (I already knew that!).

Last Sunday my sister threw me a baby shower. Just waiting to get some picture's back from her to post. It was really nice. No friends from the city there, but plenty of other ladies including some of my husbands cousins with their little ones. It was really a nice day. We got lot's of nice gifts and it was nice to get advice from all the women. The cake that we had was made by the same woman who made Aaron and I's wedding cake and was so cute. It had a little elephant on the top and was delicious. My sister also had lot's of games planned--nothing too embarrassing and cute little prizes and favors for all the guests. I couldn't have asked for anything better, she really is an amazing sister.

So now it's just waiting for our little guy to decide when the time it right. Aaron is getting impatient and goes and looks at all the stuff in the nursery like 5 times a day! It's very cute! I hope to go down to the city this week to visit some friends and spend the day.

June 10, 2008--38 weeks and 5 days pregnant

Not much new this week , although I have been experiencing some cramping and an upset tummy lately. Trying to keep busy until the baby comes to make the waiting easier, though sometimes I am so tired! I went to the doctor today and she said everything looks good. I opted not to get checked yet, because it doesn't really mean anything anyways. Wether I am dilated or not this baby is going to come when he's ready to come! Felt pretty crampy all day today and I'm hoping that this is a sign that he wants to come sooner rather than later. What I really want more than anything is just a healthy baby (and hopefully a not too difficult labour!).

Friday June 13th, 2008.--39 weeks pregnant

Ok so I am officially 39 weeks pregnant today! 7 more days until my due date. No more signs that this baby wants to come any time soon, so I have pretty much settled in for the long haul. Aaron gave his notice at work last Friday in order to accept a position with another company and they escorted him out the very same day. He now has 4 weeks vacation and we are both inpatient for the baby to come so that he can spend as much time as possible with him before he has to go back to work. As the impending labour gets nearer, I am getting less confident in my stregth and courage to have this baby naturally. I really want to go natural, but I feel like when the time comes I may not be strong enough. One of the biggest fears that I have is that I will go so late that I will have to be induced. I don't want any pictocin or any other drugs that bring on contractions that my body may not be able to handle. Part of me wants the baby to come soon so that I don't have to worry about being late, and part of me is soooooo nervous! I just hope I can pull through when the time comes and that we have a healthy baby. Anyway, that's all for now...

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LAURASUE - Thursday, 26 June
Aww many congrats hun - i guess it did mean we were getting close :) How great is it to have the labour over with and hav our gorgeous little babies here with us?! Hope all is going well huni xx

LAURASUE - Thursday, 19 June
Hi Hun, just read your post in wk 39 - that is exactly what I'm having - been losing my plug 4 the last couple of days & last night got pretty much no sleep coz of the pains coming quite often so I got up but then they subsided so I tried 2 go back 2bed 2get some sleep and they started again - every time i lie down!! No idea y tho! How ru feeling now? Do u think this mite mean we r getting close - i really hope so! xx

peanutontheway - Wednesday, 4 June
I have been feeling really sick at night too, like I'm gonna vomit. I wake myself up because I'm retching in my sleep sometimes. When i feel like this I've also noticed that I have to go #2 alot. Like 6 times in one day! The last couple of days I also have only been eating crackers cause that's the only thing the sounds like it will stay down. Maybe this means we're close?! Good Luck!

gabbagirl - Sunday, 25 May
How is everything going with your 2 vessel cord. I have the same thing. The baby is in great health but she is not putiing on eonugh wait. So I have to go to the hospital every Wednesday for a sono and every friday to my dr. to get hooked up to a heart monitor up until my due date. If I dont hae her before than I am being induced on June 18th. Let me know how you are feeling and have a great day at your baby shower

denee85 - Sunday, 4 May
Yes! I DID use the jacuzzi during my first labor and When I got in I was 4 CM dilated..When I got out and hour later I was 8 CM dilated!!!!! It was the best part of my labor and really helped me relax SO much!
They gave me privacy to be in the tub with just my husband and my mom waited in my delivery room right outside the bathroom...It was AMAZING!! I just hope my water doesn't break before I get a chance to get in the tub!!

denee85 - Saturday, 3 May
I'm taking childbirth classes (again!! I took them with #1 also) and although I doubt I'll use alot of the breathing (you just kinda do what you do and try to just BREATHE!!) it'll boost my confidence and remind me that it's a natural process and my body is mean to do this!!!!
I went ALL natural with baby #1 until right up at the end I asked for Demerol (which for me by the way didn't do anything and made me feel sick) and my nurse was putting in my IV when I started pushing..So I labored naturally and had meds in when I pushed...I hope to use the tub (our hospital has jacuzzi tubs!!) if my water hasn't broken..Otherwise I want to take a hot shower and stay upright..I want to walk and sway and just breathe....I refuse an epidural because I'm scared of them and I already know the demerol does nothing for me,so natural is pretty much my only choice for a vaginal birth...It's just about keeping faith in yourself and your body :)

pixiekate - Saturday, 3 May
i'm getting a doula, though i'm having a hard time picking the right one....

maimai22 - Friday, 2 May
I think i've gained about 40 pounds already too - but i think we're gonna be okay - i know lots of women (including my mother) who gained 50 pounds in their pregnancy and are back to their normal size or smaller. my mom said she lost 25 pounds when she gave birth to me because most of it was water weight. my advice is not to think too much about it - if you are healthy and active you will lose the weight later (even though it's hard to imagine) and just enjoy being pregnant - this is our chance to 'let ourselves go' and love our bodies just the way they are - i'm sure that is best for us and our babies. i'm sure you are beautiful and your baby will be too! have a great day!!

christilynn - Friday, 2 May

i wanna see that back tat! CUTE belly!

peanutontheway - Monday, 28 April
I know how you feel. My baby shower is not until May 24th and I'm due June 22nd. I want to buy stuff so bad for my little one but am afraid that there won't be anything left for the people going to my shower. I also don't know how I will make it through the shower I already feel huge and exhausted all the time! Good luck with your baby shower!

vamomtobe - Monday, 28 April
Hi! I read your post in 32 weeks... I have the same worries. My shower is Memorial Day weekend and I'm due on June 22... I feel like we are cutting it close. All I want to do is go out and buy stuff in case she comes early! Good luck to you and congrats!

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