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My name is Allie. I am currently due October 14th, 2008 with our second child. I am married to Joshua and we have a son that was born September 3rd, 2006. He is everything and nothing that I expected. I was told at a young age that I have PCOS... yet I have gotten pregnant twice with no medical help... either they are truely miracles, or I was misdiagnosed :) Josh and I were married July 31st, 2007. We are both really young but we kind of really like that about where we are in our lifes. It hasn't been easy but we are making the most of everything that we have been blessed with.

April 16th, 2008

Yesterday was my first day in the second trimester! Woohoo! I could have sworn that I felt some fluttering. When I was pregnant with Joey, I wasn't sure I felt him move until I was atleast 27 weeks... I just didn't know... I'm hoping I can pick it up sooner this time :) I don't have a doctor appointment until the 29th, but then I'm set to go in and have an early guclose test because I was bored line with Joey and then they said we would schedule the ultrasound for around 18 weeks :) so Hopefully they can get me in that quickly! I can't wait to find out what we're having... I'm hoping for a little girl, but I know we'll be blessed period. Out of all the things going on in our life, I just feel so right about this pregnancy. I honestly feel, reguardless of the money issues and insecurities of life, I feel that this is so right. :)

April 21st, 2008

Well, I haven't been feeling great lately... weither it's stress or emotions or physical alliments, I just do not feel great. I am really tired today, actually slept a lot this weekend too. I'm just really bumbed out... ugh

April 29th, 2008

I had my monthly appointment today. I had an hour glucose test, I just passed with 134... (It was suppose to be under 140) I guess at my appointment next month they are going to do another hour test just to keep an eye on it. Everything else looks good, but my urine test from my first visit showed up with a little infection (bladder) so they want to make sure everything is ok on that front because apparently bladder infections can cause real complications... The lady I met with this week really encouraged me with the VBAC, so that's good. I am worried that since I have set my self up for not wanting a c-section, if in the end I have to have one, I think I might be a little depressed. With Joey I missed those first couple hours, I didn't even get to hold him until I was out of the recovery room... I didn't feel like I missed out, but this time, I really feel if I don't get that time I'll be really upset... So wish me luck!

The babies heart beat was 136, so there isn't really any hints to the sex because it is right in the middle... so there is a chance it could still be a girl... haha... even though I'm having a strong hunch it's a boy... except for missing out on all the cute dresses... I think it would be wonderful to have two healthy boys... brothers... awww :) but still hoping for a little girl to put in a little dress :)

May 28th, 2008

Well It's been awhile since I wrote an update. Let's see... On the 14th we had an ultrasound (@ 18 weeks) When she asked if we wanted to know the sex, I said..." Depends on what it is... " haha... But I gave in and then she said it was a girl! Woo Hoo... but even know that I can look at the picture and see those three lines... I'm still thinking... OMG at my next appointment (7/7/08) they are going to tell me it's a boy... haha... I just know it... ;) I did pretty good about going out and spending a ton of money... I think I actually spent less than $50 total so far... and we've gotten about 6 dresses, 10 onies, and a hair thing... haha. I told my family we didn't find out... and then we went to the store bought the two cutiest dresses I could find and a gift bag and some tissue paper... wrapped them up and then called each person (my mom, my aunt, and my grandma) and told them that we were shopping and found something we just had to get for them... haha it was cute to watch them open it... haha... I could tell my aunt was thinking... I can't fit into this... and then it clicked... haha. So that was fun. We found a really nice consignment shop here in new bern, that's why we were able to get so much for so little... a couple of the dresses I bought we never even worn, still had tags that listed them for $30.00, they only cause $6.00! and I also got a brand new package of onies for less than $6.00.... and you know at the store... they are at least $10! Right now we're really holding back from buying a lot... we live in a really small property, so we really have to wait until we get everything a big more organized before we start to really buy things... but not to mention with the increased cost of living, we're going to be lucky if we can get everything that was originally on my wish list... I don't have a lot of friends here and my family is pretty strapped for finainces as well so I'm not expecting to have a baby shower or anything like that... We were planning on saving our stimulus money for buying everything we need for the baby and Joey... but last week we had to get new tires and an alignment and our computer reset... so if much more things like that happen, we won't have much money to spare... but I'm sure that by the time the baby comes we'll have everything that we NEED.

Today I had my 20 week appointment. Heart rate was 148 bpm. I was up 7 lbs but I think that was because we ate steak last night and from when I was on a diet I know that beef sticks in my system a few days and that usually makes a couple lbs difference... Today when I had to pee in the cup... haha... I so didn't have to go so I had to sit there for like 5 minutes willing my body to do it... haha... I eventually turned on the water and guess what! that worked! haha!

So over all things are pretty well... I am a bit bi polar on the mind set. Sometimes I'm so excited and just can't wait for our family to grow, and then other times I'm so worried that we wont be able to do this... we can't afford it... but I just put my trust in God, and I know that everything will and does happen for a reason.

July 16th, 2008

Well... let us see where we are...

27 weeks 1 day... yesterday she was making some really big moves, and I could feel her from the outside :) I feel her really low yet when I stand up I feel like I'm carrying her really high... but I suppose that's just my organs... lol. Next week I have another one hour glucose test, and then I was told that we were going to get "everything" else in order for my transfer to PITT... Since I am gratefully opting to NOT go to Craven. I'm getting worried though. I keep thinking... about what if My water breaks before I have contractions like it did last time? What if Labor starts and we don't leave soon enough and we get stuck on the interstate? (It's a 45 minute drive to Greenville)? What if we go and then I'm not ready to have the baby and I have to drive back... waste so much gas... What if my mom is not there? What if my mom is there but I don't want her to be in the room? What if I can't have my baby vaginally...? What if it's too painful? I so want those first few moments of when the baby comes out and you can hold her straight to you... be the first to hold her... I want that... but what if I can't have it, like I didn't get with Joey? What if it's too much work? What if I can't handle two young children? idk idk idk....

Josh got a full Pell grant for college, so he's going to start in the fall. I really pray that he can do really well and succeed with this...

I also got a full Pell grant. I'm gonna go ahead with Medical Assisting... This first semester though, I would like to have online classes being that I am due in the middle of October, the middle of the semester. I just hope I can manage that, with two babies, and working, because we're going to need to be working...

I feel like we're potentionally at this big cross road again... well it's coming up... It's just so scary to think about all the different scenerios that could happen... but I know that with God by our side we'll make it through whatever is ahead.