November 18, 2007

I know I had announced that I was pregnant again but my page is so weird. I am now 12 weeks pregnant and showing my baby bump. Having lost a child already makes me nervous but I have a lot of faith and I keep praying about. Wishing all the other expecting mothers good luck!!!!!!!!!!

This was my first pregnancy but I had a stillborn on March 26, 2007. I am still waiting to get my daughters autopsy back from pathology. This is the hardest thing that I had to go through. I loved my baby with all my heart. We had a little girl named Lauren Renae. She was is our angel.

July 6, 2007

I got the results back from my pregnancy test and they were negative. To me I had all the symptons of being pregnant that I had with the first. But maybe it was that I wanted it so bad. If I dont come on I will test again in a couple of days. Maybe there will be a different result because I really do feel like I have a little one in me.

July 8, 2007

My AF still has not come. I feel like I am pregnant because my back hurts and I stay hungry. But who knows. I think after I finish my homework that I will head to Walgreens and by another test. It seems like the more you want to be pregnant the less of a chance that you have of getting pregnant. But maybe I am just worried because of the outcome of my first pregnancy.

July 10, 2007

Still there has been no AF. I was due for one on the 6th. I am having backaches, tossing and turning a lot while I sleep, and some stomache cramps. All the same as last time. I dont want to get another pregnancy test yet. I took 4 and 3 came back neg and the other looked positive but the line was so faint the i dont really know. Maybe it was the evaporation line and it came early. I am so confused but I hope to find out soon. Wish me luck !!!!!

July 12, 2007

I still have not come on my AF yet. I am 6 days late and my back has been killing me and I am so tired. I really dont know what to think right now. It may be the fact that I used to but not sure if I still do have cyst on my ovaries. They could be acting up again because I remember mast year that I did not have a period for two months. But wish me luck anyways. I guess I will be playing the waiting game.

July 16, 2007

My AF on the 13th after being a week late. I think that I am going to stop trying now. I just might as well focus on my furthering my education. Even though I will be finished with my bachelors at the end of August. I might as well get my masters before I try to have any children again.

July 29, 2007

I guess we have decided to wait on having a baby. Part of me is really scared about what will happen if I do get pregnant. Losing my daughter Lauren was the hardest thing for me to go through. I know that I am not supposed to think negative but I do know that it could happen again and emotionally I am not ready for that to happen. So good luck to everyone else who is trying ttc.

August 12, 2007

I am wondering must my AF always be late. I was supposed to come on the 10th and there is no sign of it at all. But instead of waisting my money on HPT I am going to wait a week before I test because I hate looking at all those negatives.

September 2, 2007

Well I eventually come on. Now I think that my AF is going to always be a week or longer late. Just to get me worked up. Its such a bummer. But I think we are getting back into trying again.