Hello all! My name is Rhianna and I live in Colorado. I have a wonderful husband and we have been married since Ocotber of 2002. Together we have a three year old son named Graigory. I am a SAHM and I go to school full-time online with the University of Phoenix. I have been diagnosed with PCOS and had a M/C in Ocotober of '06 and in March of '08. My husband and I are waiting on the TTC thing until October or so. I am just not ready to try again yet.

March 26th 2008

Well, I went in for an u/s becuase I had some very light brown spotting and it worried me. I had a feeling that everything was going to be just fine but I also had my doubts. I went in for the u/s and the tech was looking at the baby; I did not see a bouning and waving 10 week old baby. I also did not see a heartbeat. I knew that the u/s tech couldn't tell my husband and I anything but I knew it was not good. Our baby was only measuring 9 weeks and I was 10 wks 4 days. I was crushed...we saw the heartbeat at 6 wks and again at 8 wks both times with a great heartbeat. I just do no understand this; this is my second m/c and it is really devastating. I opted for a D&C on Thursday just becuase I knew I couldn't handle having the m/c at home. I know that God is in charge and it is His will but I do have to wonder and all I can say is WHY??????

March 27th 2008

Today was my D&C and everything went well. Physically I am good....emotionally, that is a different story. I am going to have our baby tested for genetic defects and my doctor wants to do some more testing on my husband and I to see why this was our second m/c. I go to the doctor for a follow-up on the 7th of April. Things are dark and I feel like I have had all the wind knocked out of me. I know that time will heal my wounds but that doesn't make me feel any better now. I feel for all of you ladies that have struggled to conceive to only end up having a m/c. Please feel free to post any questions or if you just want to vent your anger and pain on my page. This is tough and I love having the support of other ladies in my same situation. God bless you all.