I'm pregnant for the eighth time, only have two living children though, and so this time things have been a bit frantic as understandably i'm really nervous that things will go wrong again. I found out i was pregnant at 4 weeks, had my 1st scan at about 5 weeks after suffering a small bleed and thank god everything seemed ok. I then had a second scan at 8 weeks 4 days as a reassurance scan which again seemed fine, and now have a third booked for thursday the 11th which is scary but i'm sure things will be fine....cautiously optomistic now i've hit the 12 week mark, but to be honest i dont think i'll ever relax totally until i have my baby in my arms.

Visit to the consultant at the infertility clinic tomorrow just to check all is progressing well, he helped me through my pregnancy with my son and put me on daily asprin as he discovered i have sticky blood which is what caused the recurrent miscarriages, in my eyes this man is the next best thing to god!!!

08/10/07: WOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! have just been to see the consultant who fitted me in for an ultrasound there and then and OMG it was AMAZING!!! no longer a lil blob... its an actual BABY lol. it was wriggling and turning and "waving" at us, saw its little feet and toes and its little wriggling fingers, WOW!! seee, third time around yet it still doesnt lose its wow-factor. feeling so positive now its unreal, seems like everythings comming together now, no longer feel ill and baby is doing GREAT, what more can i ask for. Right now, i feel like the luckiest girl in the world!!

11/10/07: Just had to share this with you all as its so weird. I have read that strange dreams in pregnancy are totally normal, but this one last night was just bizare! Firstly I dreamt that I had had my baby, i'd had it at home, with no midwife or pain relief as there was no pain, it just kinda came out, and it was only the size of my hand... but it had long ears like a rabbit, and a pointy rabbit face!! How weird is that?! Also further along the dream, I had gone for a scan, and even tho I have been told in my last three scans that there is only one baby, this scan had picked up two heartbeats, I was having twins!! Then, as usual, just when you get to a good bit like that my alarm went off. Makes me wonder if i'm loosing the plot!

Grrrrrrrr, still got til December the third to wait for my next ultrasound and its driving me mental, i cant wait!!!! Desperately want to see him/her again ASAP. Wish they did ultrasound thingys that you can buy like they do dopplers, how cool would that be!

18/10/07 Just had my nuchal screen test and its PERFECT!!!! and guess what?????

22/10/07 Well, here i am, fat and frumpy and totally fed up! Cant wait to meet my lil man now. Got so much to do to prepare for his arrival but just dont have the energy. I make plans to start, but never seem to quite manage it. Just so tired ALL the time, no matter what time i get up, go to bed, or regardless of how much sleep i get.... all i wanna do is SLEEP!!!!!! So much for this second trimester bloom...something tells me its forgotten me, either that or the text books lied!! Lemme see...symptoms as of 14w2d.... STILL exhausted, STILL constipated, STILL spotty, STILL sicky and basically I FEEL LIKE CRAP!!!! but you know what? i wouldnt have it any other way!!

4/11/07 Oh wow, here i am at week 16, never ever did i actually believe i'd get here... looks like Jack will be a part of my family in April after all!! How exciting!!!! Finally swallowed my pride and went to the doctor to get some meds for my morning-noon-night sickness, so far they seeem to be working....

14/11/07 Hey all, 17+3 now (i think!!) Went to the midwife today and im sooo dissapointed :( i didnt get to hear Jacks heart beat which i was really looking forward to as havent heard it before. Midwife did try her hardest but he was moving so much and so fast she just couldnt pin him down long enuff. At least that proves he's happy and healthy and doing ok in there!! midwife also said to me "my god, thats an impressive bump you have there for 17 weeks!" pmsl! The morning sickness tablets had no effect what so ever sadly, so have given up on them now and decided just to suffer in silence, after all, at the very worst, its only another 23 weeks of it........ eugh! Other than that dont really have much to report for the moment, but will update once i get my next scan in 2 weeks, am so excited!!!! Hope you are all well and enjoying your pregnancies.

17/11/07 18 weeks...woohooo!!!

19/11/07 FINALLY managed to upload my scan pics!! yay!!!

25/11/076 well, almost half way now at 19+ wks and desperately neet to vent about the price of babies!!! We decided to start buying some stuff... so yesterday we popped into mothercare to grab Jack some clothes as i really wanted to buy him something BLUE. We managed to agree on a few vests, sleepsuits and an out fit, but also ended up buying his cotbed that we'd agreed on from day one...almost £300 for a flipping cot...ouch!!! Then, get to the till to be told the matress wasnt included so another £85 later we'd actually got the basis of our sons bed (still the bedding to buy...omg). THEN.... i had decided i wanted an electric breast pump, as i had a manual one with the other two and it was soooo much hassle...and it was another £85!!! how bad is that... they bang on about how good for baby breast milk is, then cripple you with ridiculous prices when you try to do the right thing.... GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!! Anyway, vent over now, Jack as far as i know is doing really well, certainly kicking well now anyway, seems to get so much stronger everytime he kicks. Have my 20 week scan on the 3rd and quite looking forward to it, still kinda hoping they'll tell me Jacks actually a lil girl but guess its pretty unlikely! Have totally lost my belly button now tho :( thought this was too early but i dont know...any thoughts on this? No new stretch marks as yet... but maybe i just cant see them thru the millions of old ones i have. Boobs are leaking a bit already which is a bit yucky but hey... i'll survive!! anyway, will update again after next scan, take care all xx

30/11/07 Its FRIDAY!!! 20 weeks tomorrow...scary stuff!!! im so excited about my scan on monday, desperately wanna see my lil guy again and see how much he's grown. wish it was monday already :(feeling really fed up again at the moment but never really know why. i guess im just still all mixed up hormone-wise. still getting morning sickness etc so they cant have settled down just yet i suppose. Will catch u all on monday after my scan... wish me luck! xx

03/12/07 Hello again all, just got back from the scan and all is good. Jack has grown loads and all seems to be as it should be which is a real relief. He worried me a little bit as he was fast asleep so didnt move at all. The sonographer couldnt find certain parts of his heart that she needed to see so sent me off for a walk and told me to eat and drink something really sweet in the hope of sending him into some sort of sugar rush so he'd move. Got back half hour later after following orders and although he was still snoozing he had moved round slightly so she got what she needed thank god. Will post pics as soon as OH scans them for me. Thats all for scans now til the 4D one that we're planning to book and im so excited... i cant wait!! Are they really as good as people say? any comments on it greatfully appreciated.

15/12/07 Nearly christmas, have spent a FORTUNE on stuff for the kids, maybe i'm over-compensating them this year as its their last year as just the two of them... i dunno. Feels so weird to think that next christmas i'll have Jack to buy for too, he'll be 8 months old, crawling, eating the presents, xmas tree lights etc... lol. scary scary scary......

3/2/08 Blimey, hadnt realised how long it had been since i updated my page. so much has happened. we had the 4d scan done which was totally amazing, makes me want to meet him so much!!! He looks just like my little boy Ciaran which is cool, he seems to have the same face shape etc. My lil Jack is growing well, have only put on 7 lbs so far which im pretty chuffed about!! Pretty much set up for him now, just wanna give my house a deep clean from top to bottom then im done!! Yay!! Just 10 weeks til i meet my lil boy, Im so excited!!

4/3/08 Owwwwww things are getting a bit too close for my liking now.... yet still so much to do! Have brought everything which is a relief, but looks as tho im moving house in the next couple of weeks. I must be mad!! Cant wait tho, as finally Jack will get the nursery i was so desperate to decorate lol, have it all planned out in my head and cant wait to get in there and do it! On a bit of a down note, i have to say i'm feeling horrendous a the moment. I feel constantly queasy and totally exhausted. not just exhausted but mentally and physically drained, i just have no energy, or get up and go, just thinking hurts my head. i'm so tired, but at night im awake at least every hour which is murder. My two lil ones have both been down with a really violent sickness bug for the last week so its been and endless round of clearing up vomit etc, with no real sleep guess thats what im comming down with now...oh lucky me! Plus on top of everything baby Jack has dropped so low now things are really uncomfortable, it hurts to sit, stand, walk etc, and when he gets the hccups i can feel them in my bottom...which is just plain weird! shows how low his head is tho! I know having him is a miracle, and i shouldnt really complain but i just want it over with now, its not fun anymore :(

21/3/08 oh my goodness..... 29 days to go!! Theres me wishing time to hurry by, yet now its flying past im thinking "heeeeeeeeeeelp, im not ready yet.....stopppppppp!!!!!!" Seems i want it both ways lol, "hurry up Jack," and also, "hang on Jack, not yet!" Moving house in 4 days...... yikes!! Another thing im soooo not ready for yet, seems all i do is pack, but the more i pack, the more needs packing. I dont understand where its all coming from! Ok, how am i feeling at the mo: hmmmm, actually not too bad, i ache if i do to much, more so in my left hip so i guess thats where he's laying or something. My face has broken out yet again and i have oily teenage skin which is yucky but i can live with it for now...! I have some serious braxton hicks going on almost all the time and to be honest they actually get painful and regular at times, so i almost convince myself its "the real thing". Sadly it never is! I'd say my main downfall at the moment is my hormones, i feel im right back at the first trimeter, an emotional wreck. I'm either totally hyped up, crying like a baby or ripping my OH apart for no reason. Still, its only for another 4 weeks max!! Woohooooo!! (hopefully less, but not in the next 4 days lol) so i guess to wrap things up for the end of week 35.... have a great week ladies, (and dont move house.... its not worth the hassle!!!) catch up with you soon xxx

10/04/08 Thought id best write something as chances are it may be my last entry with things getting so close... help me, im scared!!!! lol!!! Well, moved house, and sooooo glad i did, was well worth all the hassle as i love the new place and new midwife is great. Still no sign of Jack yet which is so annoying, but i knew he wouldnt bother to be early, none of my kids ever are. Im so ready to meet this lil man now tho, im swollen and sore and achey and irritable, i cant sleep and i hate the world, only Jacks arrival will change that so if you're reading this please.....send me some labour dust!! anyway, huge congrats to those who now have ur babies with you, and labour dust to those that dont yet. the end is in sight ladies, just be sure to stay in touch! xx

11/06/08 Well hello again ladies, thought id update as its been ages since i was on. My lil Jack is now 7 weeks old and so totally wonderful!!! Have honestly never met a more placid and easy going baby, and we're now talking about/planning the next one!!! So much for Jack being my last :) so will sill be on here for at least another few months, only you'll find me in the ttc part!! Hope all my pregnancy buddies are well and their babies are thriving. would love to catch up x

Before I was a Mum

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mum - I had never been puked on.

Pooped on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mum

I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.

Or give injections.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mum

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her
down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop
the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mum.

Before I was a Mum -

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important
and happy.

Before I was a Mum -

I had never got up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to
make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the
wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mum.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mum.

LABOUR PREDICTION:

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