22 weeks

Went to see the midwife today for a routine check up and everytjing is absoloutely fine, Alice's heartbeat was 143bmp and it quite tricky to get at first as she was playing with her placenta and moving round to much, as the M/W said she's a naughty little baby. I have a 2 hour long physio session in 2 weeks for my SPD and Ive been told to take it easy for the next week or two so they can see the full blown affects of it.

Mothers Day was lovely I received 2 cards one off my lovely dog and one of Alice which was in child like handwriting and it was lovely I felt totally made up.

My tummy at 22 weeks---- still using the palmers and bio oil.

23 weeks

Im absoloutely nakered at the moment, My back hurts my bum hurts my hips hurt and I can't sleep for love nor money, Im cranky emotional depressed and feel like a bag of spuds.lol. Alice is turning flips inside me at night Rich goes to my tummy and talks to her and puts his lips on my belly to give her kisses and she kicks him whilst he's talking and singing. newt MW appointment next week so Im going to book my antenatal classes and book my tour of the maternity wing at the hospital. Hope ur all doing well Take Care and leave me a note to let me know how ur all getting on.

13th March 2008

Well I've got my 2hr long physio appointment today and Im absoloutely bricking it, Im glad my mother in law is coming with me though as she's a therapist and gives bowens treatment and things like that so shes a really handy person to have with me, I dont have a mum so thats why my own isn't coming just in case anyone was wondering. I'll put a blog on after the appointment to let u know how it went, Wish me luck.

Well Im back from physio and Im absoloutely devestated, I might as well be a vegetable, I have a severe case of SPD and have been giving the stupidist support belt, but Im not aloud to do anything and i mean anything I have to have total rest, I have to walk a certain way sleep a certain way sit down a certain way and in all this time im in pur agony. I keep asking myself is this pregnancy all it's cracked up to be and really worth it, then to top it all off Rich had a really shitty day at work and I mean to the point he was going to quit and said some nasty stuff at the spare of the moment which kicked me off in tears just before my appointment then when he came home i was totally gutted about not being able to do anything for myself and cos i got mad and smashed a glass Im the one out of order even though he shouted at me 1st. Now his kids are here and their all playing happy familys whilst im sat here typeing this on here, I cant stop crying and wish i could dissapear off the face of the world.

Anyway ur probably sick of me going on ciya later hope u lot have a better pregnancy than me.

Week 24

Well I have had the worst weekend ever, I know alot of ppl use pregnancy as an excuse to be mad all the time but aren't we aloud to have hormones? I mean Iv had the worse news ever about my SPD on Friday and it's asif it's not aloud to affect me, like Im suppose to fine with the idea of total bed rest when I spend every day cooking cleaning washing and cleaning up after kids.Iv been totally independant since I was 12 having to look after my disabled dad. How am I suppose to enjoy being pregnant when all I can do is stay in bed????

I also feel like Im a bit of an outkast at the moment I don't feel like my family is going to be ok when Alice gets here, Is Rich gona be a doteing dad to Alice but when his kid's are here it's all about them and Alice won't exist? Does that mean he loves them more than what he will ever love Alice? I want to be apart of a family I don't want to be a single mum but just cos u have a stepfamily doesn't mean u have to be unhappy does it? Because I won't be, I wont be made to feel second best and I wont have my child being treated different to other kids which I resent more and more with every passing day, Im even at the point now where I dont care at all how nasty that makes me sound, there not my kids so why should I care? I keep telling myself I love them but I don't I know I dont. I just wish this pregnancy could be easier and I weren't so depressed.

My tummy at 25 weeks

25 weeks

I feel a bit better this week, after talking with Rich over the last few days my mind has been put at rest a little, he's told me that me and Alice are his main priority and when I dont feel comfortable around his other children thats fine, he said if I dont want them to be involved in things they don't have to be he will sort it all out and I shouldn't be worrying. My SPD has been sort of ok over easter not really been that bad still managed to do odd jobs here and there so not really worried anymore over that. My tummy is getting rather large now and my belly button pops out so Alice is doing well.

26 weeks

Well I ofically feel really really pregnant this week and as for Alice well she moves all the time and does not like being poked or touch if u do touch her she kicks u off straight away, I could literally eat anything I could quite happily eat 7 breakfasts and not stop after that. pictures above are of my rapidly growing tummy which has got that big now i cant see my feet when i walk and shaving has just become impossible.

Congrats to all u other mummy's take it easy xxx

27 weeks

Well It's been a bit eventful this past week, I was getting cramping pains in my lower tummy and in my lower back which felt like baby contractions but didn't want to risk leaving it so I rang my midwife who told me to go to the labour ward and get checked out, so they strapped me up and left me for a bit and the monitor showed a bit of tightening but nothing to worry about as baby was fine and well and moving all over the place trying to kick the monitors off (glad she was having fun) then i had to have a internal and due to my SPD it was the most painful thing in the world and burst into a hissy of tears, anyway to cut a long story short I was there 4 hours and it was a water infection that was causing me so much pain so they let me go home for the weekend and sent me on my way with some antibiotics.

My belly button has finally popped right out and Im feeling rather bloated now and have got to that point where you dont think ur baby can grow anymore cause there aint any room left. lol.

28 Weeks

Well im starting my third trimester in a horrible way, I've had my dog since I was 7 he was a Japanese Spitz and i got him when he was 6 weeks old and i spoilt him rotten he was my little prince and was more like my child than my dog. On Friday 11.04.2008 I had to have him put down... he wasnt ill but he had developed a tumor that i knew nothing about and on thursday he just looked really ill so he went to the vets and stayed over night where they told me the following morning he had internal bleeding and they could do an op for £1200 but because of his age and because he was in shock he probably wouldn't survive. So they rang and said I can come down to the surgery and say goodbye but i said i wanted him to come home first, so i brought him home and within an hour he was his same old self barking and following me everywhere and begging for tit bits and i really tought they had diagnosed him wrong anyway at 9.30pm he went into shock again and I couldnt watch him suffer anymore so i spent half hour saying goodbye and told him how much i loved him and we took him to go asleep, he looked into my eyes all the way through.

I miss him so much it feel's like ive lost my right hand side my home doesn't feel right without him and i cant get over him going. i just want to see his sparkly eyes and his wagging tale one more time and just to hold him again. I will never forget him.

So just for Woolfie RIP 11.04.2008 Love you always Mummy. xxx

Theres pics of him in my photos. xx