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It has now been about 3 months since the loss of our first baby through a missed miscarriage and D&C on May 8. I was almost 11 weeks along at the time, and we had seen the heartbeat at 8 weeks and were so close to the second trimester point that we were very hopeful things were going well. I did have a lot of worries and concerns about m/c during the whole pregnancy but I will never know how much of that was intuition and how much was just my personality.

I am charting and we are TTC again. I chart and use opks and do whatever I can to learn more about my cycles so I can feel like I am doing something to help us get pregnant again. I hate feeling like it is so completely out of my control! I know there are never any guarantees and the only thing I can be sure of is that someday, somehow, I will be a mother.

My fingers and toes are crossed and I wish and pray every night that we will have a successful pregnancy next time. I also wish every one of the lovely ladies out there who are expecting or TTC the best of luck!!

I have found so much kindness and support on the pages of the TTC-after-a-loss forum and that has truly helped to carry me through the past few months and to look forward to the future. Every time I see a new BFP I am more and more confident that it will happen for us someday too.

I will never again underestimate the power of relating and sharing with others who have gone through the same thing. I thank every one of the women who has reached out to me, or reached out at all and shared your stories, you truly are heroes, and I hope someday we can all share our joyful birth stories here as well!!