~13 weeks~
10-02-07 Finally its October! I'm 13 weeks along. Still bleeding and still no clue why. I would have settled on it being a normal thing if it would have stopped by now. I have to go Thursday to figure all of my insurance stuff out. Hopefully I still get to see my doctor Friday. I really need to keep all of my appointments. Otherwise I fear I will loose my mind completely! Getting ready to order a pizza! YAY! Hehe

~14 weeks~
10-11-07 Well I cant believe I have been pregnant for 101 days! Thats what my little timer thinger tells me hehe. Time is starting to go faster which I am kind of happy about because I just want to have that belly and feel the baby moving around. I got my doppler today which I am so happy about. After some searching I found the baby's heartbeat which just melted my heart like it does every time. I go back to the doctor the 19th. Seems like a long time from now! See what she wants to do with me and the never ending bleeding hehe. Maybe I will be lucky and just have to get more ultra sounds :P Thats the only good part that has come out of this! Get to see the baby lots!

~14 weeks~
10-14-07 I am the moodiest person in the world anymore! It is terrible! One minute I'm just fine, then I get mad, then I start crying, then I'm just fine again! Most of the time though its just mad... very very very mad! I cant believe how crazy pregnant is. My nose has been stuffed up for weeks now, I cant go #2 without drinking a whole bottle of apple juice which I'm sure cant be good for baby considering how much sugar is in it. My doctor gave me some prenatal vitamins with a stool softener in them but they are the size of my thumb! Gas pains are not too much fun either lol. I just had to complain a little bit. My boyfriend is getting sick of hearing about it I think hehe.

~15 weeks~
10-17-07 I thought the ligament pains were done with for now! Havnt felt them in about a week I think. Before it was always on the left side too.. Now its moved to my right side...Scared me at first then I remembered what it was going on down there. Listened to baby's heartbeat again and sounds strong as ever so I know everything is just fine. Thinking maybe a hot shower will help until I can get to the store to get myself some tylenol! That usually helps me out a lot. Especially when I have to go to work in a little bit and stand on my feet for 8 hours. I wish I could just stay at home right about now and lay on the couch and sleep and watch tv hehe. I'm sure a lot of expecting moms do right now! Gonna see later on today if I can get my appointment switched from tomorrow to Friday. They told me my appointment was on Friday and I looked at the date on the calendar and its actually for tomorrow. Definatly not a good thing seeing how me and the hubby both have to work the same time as my appointment. But I'm gonna go take that shower.. hope it helps loads!!!

~16 weeks~
10-27-07 Sooo we finally tied the knot! I can now say that Im officially married. So weird! hehe! But Im really happy so thats all that matters. Ive been gaining a lot of weight at my last appointment last week I was at 11 pounds... Im sure its 50 by now! Ive got a appetite like no other hehe. The doctor told me to stay home for two weeks and so far its doing me a lot of good. I havnt had any really big bleeding episodes in awhile and the blood has almost stopped all together! I'm so happy! And my belly is really starting to grow! I cant wait to find out when I can get my next ultra sound! I get to find out if I am having a little boy or a little girl. I dont care either way I'm just so happy to be having a baby anymore.

~16 weeks~
10-29-07 I finally stopped bleeding!!!!!!! I am so freaking happy!!!! I thought it would never stop, but it did! I go to the doctor Friday and I can't wait to see what he has to say. Hopefully that I can start going back to work because I can't afford to stay home much longer! And I can start walking now because all I have been doing is laying on the couch getting fat. Though I probably wont be able to do it for very long because winter is coming quick. Oh well I'm still happy as can be! That little bean in there just needs to keep growing!

~17 weeks~

11-02-07 Had another appointment today with the doctor. This one I liked a lot she was friendly but she hurt my belly pushing on it. I'm such a baby. She told me I gained 11 pounds so far which she said was good.. i thought it was 16 though! Said now I should be gaining a pound a week! Listened to the heartbeat and check where my uterus was. Everything looks really good she said and I can finally go back to work and do all my normal stuff again. Got a letter from the medicare place once I got home and they denied my application because I didnt get my paperwork in to the office on time because everytime I would go there I would bleed through my pants and have to rush home and lay down. Couldnt call because my cell phone was busted thanks to my dear husband. I have to go re-apply for that. Hopefully this time I can stress to them how important it is that I need them to hurry my case along. Last time it was 2 weeks before I even got my short term card. Which I'm sure isnt going to pay for my appointment today and once again I am going to have to deal with that again. Why cant anything with this pregnancy just work. Its so tiring and frustrating! Well hopefully I can get down there today before 7 to fill out all of my paperwork once again. Oi!

~18 weeks~

11-06-07 So two weeks exactly until my ultra sound! I cant wait! Me and Heath are VERY excited to find out if its a boy or a girl. We both think its a boy. At first I wasnt too sure but now I'm almost positive! Boys are trouble and this one has given me nothing but :P I was hping they would do one sooner but no such luck. They just thought it would be best to do when when I have to come back for my regular appointment at 20 weeks exact. Jerks! I want my dad to be the first person to know besides me and Heath. It would mean a lot to me and I think it would make him feel a little bit more invovled seeing as how I kind of shut him out of my life the last few years. Thats a mess though! Anyhow I am EXAHAUSTED! Off to bed!

~20 Weeks!~

11-20-07 I cant believe I'm halfway through! They said after this week we are supposed to start growing really quickly! I cant wait! Today is the big day for my ultra sound and I cant stop smiling!!!! I'm on cloud nine and cant relax at all! I am so excited! 2 more hours till we leave! I was worried about the insurance thing and them not letting me get it done but I called the office this morning to confirm my appointment and they didnt say a word about it. If they do say anything at the doctors office today I'm just gonna tell them I talked to my case worker and she said that they could just charge it to that card even though its 2 days expired and I am getting my new one in the mail any day now. Hopefully I can still get it done. This morning I woke up just depressed because I didnt think it was gonna happen. But now after I called the office I am just SO happy! They have my number there on file so they would have called me! Muhahaha! I might just might pull this off! Thank you God!

~Week 22~

12-10-07 I think maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning! I'm in such a bad mood! Yesterday night my husband our roomates and his mom and sister went bowling because his mom told me that the company we used tow ork for was having a Christmas party and they wanted to do a kind of baby shower thing for me too and do something special for me. So I got so excited because I've been thinking I wasnt going to even get a baby shower. We get there and I see a bunch of presents and I get all excited and everyone is whispering around me. Well I go over to my old manager and to start the night off she says wow you look fat. :| Instant bad mood. Then not even one of the presents were mine. No one barley talked to me all night. It was just a Christmas party they had nothing at all planned out for me. I was soooo disappointed. His mom shouldnt have even said anything to me! It was supposed to be a surprise according to her anyway. Every time I talk to his mom she talks about coming in the delivery room. Yeah, NO thats for me and my husband. I just want to move away from her! We had to leave my mom and its not fair that his mom has anything to do with this at all. To make my mood even better I woke up and once again the sink is full with dishes and the house is a mess. My roomates arent doing much. I mean the one has a full time job but his girlfriend just sits around the house all day! I hurt my foot so I'm having a hard time walking and when people start getting home they all want me to have dinner cooked. I cant wait to live with just me and my husband! Ive got to callt he medicaid place now because they sent me a letter saying for some stupid reason that they need a signature from my employer to show I'm working there. guess pay stubs arent enough anymore!

~25 Weeks~

12-31-07 New Years Eve! Woohoo! Next year we will have our little Edward with us. I cant wait. Although Im still trying to accept the name Edward hehe. When we have our little girl...I get to name her..So our baby Edward sometime will have his sister Emma. Hey both E's! Hehe! Christmas day we were playign a board game and my feet swelled up so big I thought I would die! Never thought they would go back to normal. Edward has been kicking me every day all day. I love it and its a constant reminder of the love me and Heath have for eachother and how much love we will have to give our little baby. I cant wait (but at the same time I can! Labor YIKES!) I just hope he enters this world with a sense of love. He is the most loved little boy in the world already! :D

~27 Weeks~

1-09-08 Went and got my glucose test on Monday. I wanted to kill the nurse. She tried going for blood the first time and my vein rolled so after digging it around in my arm she had to do it again. Kind of nervous about the results I know they are going to come back bad :( I had to go up to the maternity ward while I was there too ( they did it at the hospital) The only good part about any of it was that I got to see the birthing room. It was so neat! They actually keep the baby in the room with you! I thought for sure they took them out and put them in a nursery. You stay in the same room the entire time unless you need a c-section. Im so scared but so excited! I cant wait to hold my little Eddie!

~28 Weeks~

1-17-08 Today I went and bought Eddie's bedding!!! It baby Loony Tunes! It is so cute! I got the 4 piece crib set, mobile, recieving blankets, extra soft blanket, and some other fun stuff... I'm so excited. It all feels more real now! I cant wait to finish getting the rest of his things! I keep trying to buy outfits and onesies and stuff... I still need a lot but Im glad I have all teh crib stuff done with.. now I just need a car seat and stroller but I found a really great set of them for $200 today when I was getting the bedding! Just need to get my W2 forms from my last job and then I am ready to buy more baby stuff! My husband is going to think I'm nuts hehe. But thats all for now! :D

~29 Weeks~

1-22-08 It happened! My boob was leaking last night! I dont know why but this feels like such a huge thing to me. I was worried it would never happen and I wouldnt be able to give my little baby all the nutriants a mother is supposed to give her new born... I feel much better now and really am starting to feel like a mom! :)

~36 Weeks~

3-14-08 Been awhile since I have wrote so figured now would be a good time. Me and Heath went for a tour of the hospital birth room yesterday. I thought it was a lot of fun getting to see everything! I cant wait to get this baby out. The only bad thing is I am starting to worry about having a c-section rather than doing it naturally. My little guy doesnt want to stay head down he keeps laying side to side. I really hope that isnt the case though and that I am wrong or he turns around. Ive been doing what I read to do to get him to flip like lunges and stuff. I just dont want to have to take more time off work with that and dont want to go through all that pain. Plus I dont think I could handle being awake for it either :( So I am hoping and praying that he gets his butt where it needs to be quick haha. But I will probably go to 41 weeks soooo he still has a little time left.. not much though!

~37 Weeks~

3-20-08 Well I went to the Dr a couple of days ago and Ive got two huge bumps on my tummy Ive been trying to figure out if they were his feet or his butt or what. Well after some grabbing of my belly the Dr had no idea either so they got me in for a quick ultra sound. I wish I could have been in there a little longer was so nice to see my baby again, but they found out that it was his head and shoulder! Thats right he is facing the wrong way. So much like his father hes going to be difficult for me haha. They are giving him until April 1st to turn around before scheduling me for a c-section. I'm hoping maybe when I go to the Dr again on the 25th they will just tell me if I can get one sometime then haha. Last time I was seeing the midwife so maybe the actual OB will say something different. I just want to be comfortable again and I cant wait to see my son. Its all starting to kind of sink in that in a couple weeks here hes really gonna be here and I am really going to be responsible for him. Kind of scary but I think we wont mess him up tooooo bad! :P I am just really hoping now his birthday isnt going to be April 1st!!! Poor little guy!

~38 Weeks~

3-25-08 Went to the Dr today and he scheduled my baby's c-section! I am terrified and excited at the same time. Cant wait to get this back pain to go away haha! Was kind of hoping he would turn his little butt around but knew at the same time it wasnt going to happen. Have my last Dr appointment on the 31st along with a sonogram in the morning. Have to go get my bloodwork done for my pre-opp. Followed by my baby's birthday April 2nd scheduled for 9 AM. I have to be there two hours early though and cant eat or drink anything after midnight the day before so that kind of sucks! I just really hope its not scary and my husband does okay in the room. Wish I could stop thinking about it and stressing but kinda hard to do! Maybe if I do enough reading about it, it will calm my nerves some :P