Symptoms are hot flashes...hot all the time, can't get comfortable. Feels like summer, and it's winter. Insomnia, vivid dreams when I do sleep, major heartburn. Have anxiety? And have been cleaning a lot and cranky about getting my other boys to help. Had 2 sharp pains in the left ovary area when I was turning. Hope I don't have the cyst like I did with Joshua.

I will turn 39 on October 22. Maybe this little one will be born on my Birthday!

February 21, 2012

For you ladies out there who are struggling with quitting smoking, please message me either publically or privately and lets support each other! I will quit...just not doing the cold turkey thing very successfully at the moment. I know I just found out 2 days ago...but...Have a coffee addiction that has been much easier to conquer. Brew 1/2 caff 1/2 decaf. And drink out of little cups. I have to sit still on the computer or be still. If I get up, do chores, etc... then I am used to popping out for a smoke between folding laundry and feeding my 1 year old, or between taking out the trash and sweeping, (you get the idea)...it's the ritual that is killing me, because that is what I do all day long...it's killing me even more than the nicotine fits (for now). So, I am sitting and eating, and sitting and eating, etc... then obsessing about cigarettes. Then feeling guilty and hating myself for being stupid. Then I get up out of my chair, walk around aimlessly because I don't know what to do...I usually think about that when I am outside smoking...so I go to the refrigerator....but, if I eat I want to smoke...GRRRR. And my little man has had less of my attention today...So more guilt. Then, I go smoke, and act normal for a while, and then I repeat the above routine. Why can't I just put it away like I did with my 1st two boys? Oh, and that is another thing. I didn't quit with Josh. DOB 11/9/10. I have such guilt for that. I WANT to very much for this little one.

March 19, 2012

I have been able to quit smoking for 2 weeks now. This means that I quit during week 5, instead of week 7 which is GREAT~ I am so amazed still...and the cravings are going away.

I have already gained 6 pounds :( but, this is probably because of quitting too...so, I'm okay with it!

I found out super early about the pregnancy because my LP was either the 11th (I thought) or the 25th (was only ever brown spotting- 4 days tho).

First appointment confirmed that I was 2 weeks behind what I thought, so now I am due 10/30 instead of 10/17.

This journey is interesting already!

May 17, 2012

I had extreme nausea from 14-15 weeks, debilitating even. I still never actually threw up, but was in a constant state of nausea even to the point where it woke me up. All I wanted to do was lay down, or eat stuff that I shouldn't. I have been craving fruity stuff, and fresh pineapple. I was laughing because the ladies on the board were talking about fresh pineapple too. Salad is awesome with lots of tomato, a little onion, cheese, and strawberries, green grapes, and dried cranberries sprinkled on. Sometimes I use bacon bits and croutons or sunflower seeds too. Tossed with a little mayo it's excellent. Cherry Bourdeaux ice cream is the bomb!

Joshua, my 18 month old, has discovered my belly button. This is very cute at home, and he always lifts my shirt up & his shirt to point out belly button. He also does raspberries into my fat belly if I am sitting on the couch when he lifts my shirt. He thinks it's hilarious. Kids do really bizarre but cute things, don't they!? However, when I have friends or family here to visit it can be quite a surprise when he comes up and grabs the elastic waistband on my pants and gives it a yank down...including underwear. OMG! No one saw anything, but momma sure is taking more notice of what he is doing....

My weight gain of 13 pounds is still better than with my last pregnancy, and in fact I am not worried about it because on this very website under week 18 it says that I would be within the normal range! This is mamma logic and I will go with it. But, honestly I think my body just gains weight all by itself when I am pregnant. With my 3 pregnancies I gained 74, 58, and 80 pounds. The middle one with 58 pounds I was literally NOT eating. I don't know how people only gain the 25 pounds recommended. I really feel that there are some women like myself that can not achieve this goal. I have healthy babies, so that's all that matters. I hate it when people make comments about the gaining of the weight...but, at the same time it's more incentive to lose it later. I am hoping to beat the 58 pound mark (under it that is)...because I also started those pregnancies at 140, 135, and 128~ compared to 186...sigh.

My blood pressure is 110/62, low like when I was thin. Giving up smoking brought it back down, I bet.

Looking forward to the U/S, because I want to start buying GIRL CLOTHES!!!! Another boy will of course be loved....but, I SO want a girl please.... The boys are going to all be there in the U/S when we find out, should be fun. Probably go out for lunch afterwards.

Anyway, that's what is new with me. Hope you all are well, and good luck to those TTC!