My boyfriend and I have been together for over 9 years and we decided three years ago to start adding to our family. We never knew how hard that journey would be.

I am happy that I have found this site and have gotten such great support and advice on here. I hope one day to share the great news that we indeed welcomed a new member to our family. Until then we have faith.

We finally can say for sure that we are going to have a baby Feb. 22nd 2011! We couldn't be happier and are so excited to finally be expanding our family.

September 29, 2010 we found out we are expecting a baby boy : )

Baby #1
When I was 16 I became pregnant. It was not a planned pregnancy but rather stupidity on both our behalves. At the time I didn't know what I was going to do. About a week after finding out I began bleeding and ended up having a miscarriage. It was very hard on me because I didn't know what to expect and it was all very overwhelming. I guess the plan was not for me to become a mother just yet. After that experience I was the most cautious sexually active person there could be.

Baby #2
Fast forward many years. Boyfriend and I decided after about 6 years together to start ttc. There was no real tracking or anything just trying without trying. After about a year of trying I became pregnant. We were thrilled beyond words. When we found out I was about 4 weeks. We went to our first appointment and set the date for our first ultrasound we were so excited to be able to see something! I had bad morning sickness and at about 9 weeks it started to taper off, I thought since I was so close to 12 weeks I was just getting lucky. At the u/s we didn't know what to expect. We saw the baby and the tech told me I was a week behind my date we thought, I was 9 weeks 6 days and the baby measured 8 weeks 6 days. The tech didn't say much else after that, we were told we had to talk to the doctor and I thought it was to get pictures or something. After hearing my doc was coming in from her day off I knew it couldn't be good. She came in and said she was sorry to tell us that the baby didn't have a heartbeat and at that point it should. We were devastated to say the least. That was September 26, 2008. After going through that we were eager to try again, and were given the go ahead a month later.

Baby #3
7 months after our last loss and still no luck with pregnancy. I had been tracking and everything and was becoming very irritated. I stopped doing it all and took a break from ttc. On April 13th I got a BFP. We were excited but that excitement didn't last long. About two weeks after I took the test I began spotting. I went in for an ultrasound and was told it was more than likely a miscarriage again. I was crushed. My doctor wanted to check my levels though just to be sure and after getting the blood work back there was good news, my levels had doubled like they should have. Hope was restored. I went in for another ultrasound and at that time I was about 7 weeks. After the tech looked he said he still wasn't seeing what he wanted and that my sac was growing but there was no fetal pole or heartbeat. My doctor confirmed it was another miscarriage. This time I was more angry than upset. I felt like I had been dragged back and forth for nothing. But still we were determined to have a family so we waited for another period and the go ahead to try again.

Baby #4
While waiting for my AF after the previous loss I had been going in every two weeks to give my blood to track my hcg levels to be sure they got down to zero so we could try again. On May 28th my hcg level had risen, my doctor suspected another pregnancy. I was shocked and about fell out of my chair at work. After realizing what she said I freaked out. Was it too early? I hadn't even got one cycle! I took a test and it indeed was positive. This again was short lived joy. I had given blood again two days later to be sure my levels continued to rise. They did but not doubling like they should, I had to go in again after the weekend to check one more time. They were still rising but had only risen a very small amount. My doctor wasn't sure what was going on so I had an ultrasound and it showed inflammation in my ovary and my doctor feared an ectopic pregnancy. I was told I could wait and see but that ectopic pregnancies can turn dangerous fast, or I can get something to end the pregnancy. Knowing that all these were bad signs I took the shot of Methotrexate and waited for my numbers to drop and the pregnancy to end. We now sit here 4 losses later and not sure what to do. I have requested testing and so we will be getting a family genetic work up and testing progesterone and antibodies. We want a family more than ever and know that some things in life are harder than others for us building a family is it. We still have hope that in the end we will end up with a baby.

Update August 2009: We have taken the tests and we are both "normal" I have had one AF and we have been given the go ahead to try again. We are unsure what the future holds but we have restored hope knowing nothing is wrong genetically between us. Hopefully soon we will get our baby!

Baby # 5

On June 12th 2010 we found out that we are expecting again and we are thrilled. We know that these next few months are touchy so we are doing everything we can to stay positive and hope to make it to 9 months! I am on progesterone supplements and so far feeling good!