Hello all soon to be mamas. My name is Tanya and this is my first baby! I'm excited at times and sad at others. I'm sure that's common in pregnancy but I think my situation makes it worst at times. I'm in my second year of law school and it is soo hard to stay focused these days knowing that I'm preggo. Also,knowing that I'll have to go through this alone makes it a tad bit harder...but as I always say, so goes life.

May 16, 2008

I'm bad at updating...prob cuz there isn't much going on in the life of pregnant Tanya. Baby girl still moves around a lot at night. She loves to poke her body out leaving me with a huge bump on my side that I can't help but rub. Then she'll kick me and I swear she'll be kicking me in the bladder. Road trips have become harder for me...I always love to jump in my car and go places which I do alot when I have nothing to do...but now, I have to pull over every second to go potty. I still don't talk to her father which makes life a heck of a lot easier. Everyone is pissed at me cuz I'm giving her his last name. But my philosophy is 1) why should I try and forget that he exists....he's her father and if she wants to change it if he doesn't come around, then I'll gladly do that for her...but that needs to be her choice, not mine and 2) Giving her my last name wouldn't be any better...I attach no significance to mine cuz it comes from my father...who wasn't around. I kept it cuz it flows well so I see no better reason for naming her after me. Anyways, who knows...her father has 4 months to grow the heck up and God knows I hope he does for Kelli's sake. Yes, I HAVE A NAME. Kelli. I love it. It's short, cute, and doesn't end in "A" like my name. I still have that I'm going to be a mommy shock from time to time and my mood swings can be crazy from time to time. The other day I cried because I spilled strawberry soda in the kitchen. It fuzzed all over the counter when I opened the bottle...It must have got shaken up while I brought it home. poor me. Anyways, other than that, I've been all smiles. I hope Kelli has been too. Ohhhh, and one wierd thing is that I started to suck my thumb. I have nooooo clue why cuz I didn't before. It may be because she's prob doing it. Can we really be that connected? that would be sooo coool. Ok, until next time

May 1, 2008

I'm really bad at updating...prolly cuz I'm soo lazy :( I went to the doc this morning...it was cool cuz I didn't have to get half naked, yeayyy. She just measured my belly and said that my uterus was where it needed to be, right at the belly button. or maybe a little below it. Then we listened to her heartbeat and the whole time I could feel her wiggling around. Oh, and I weighed a nice 130pnds...which is a big weight gain for me. The doc actually said I may want to watch what I eat cuz I've been gaining like 5 pounds every month...which means I may give birth to a big baby if I don't slow down...so no more junk food. Ha, yea right. I got two cookies with my name on it that I'm about to chow down on. Hmmm...other than that, everything is pretty good. I get heartburn and headaches from time to time. And my butt hurts at times...but all is well. Oh, one night I felt a lump in my belly...like a small lump in my side, I got up to turn on the light so I could see what it was and it went away. I called my mom and she was like ummm, "it was just ur baby pokin his body out"...stop freekin out...cuz I was. Then I had to remind her that my baby is a girl, not a boy and she def was like whatever, lol.

April 6, 2008

pregnancy is mad boring at this point...well except when I feel my lil' angel move. I started feeling him/her move when I was 15 weeks. Everyone was like are you sure, it's so early...and then I had to question myself cuz it was only 2 taps. but since then, everday at some point during the day...usually when I'm in class, I feel the pokes and all that. I get all excited...then they go away and I'm like aww, come back and play with me. What's crazy is that I still don't look pregnant...which is prob one reason why i get so bored with it. I don't look pregnant so when my baby is chillin', I don't feel pregnant. I think I just started getting a baby bump for real like yesterday...but it's prob just bloating and will be gone by the morning...that has happened to me before so only time will tell. Looking forward to my first ultrasound on the 15th...I sure hope my baby cooperates so I can know the sex. I have my own idea of what I'm having but it would be so cool just to see how my baby looks and know for sure...so I can tell people what colors to keep in mind when shopping. awww, my baby just kicked me. probably reminding me that I have work to be doing. I swear I have a lil' speedy in there. Last night I got poked twice on one side and 2 seconds later, it was on the other side. Either my baby is really big or is really fast and moves from one side to the next quickly. oh well...'til I have something cool to say...I'm out

March 19, 2008

I went to a new docs office today. Liked them soo much better. I got to hear the heartbeat again and this time it didn't sound like gas but a steady wooshy worley sound. I get an ultrasound in 4 weeks and I'm sure they can identify the sex by then. Other than that, no morning sickness lately. Still always tired and the indegestion sucks. Still haven't spoken to the papa yet and I don't plan on talking to him until our baby gets here. I find myself sooo at peace knowing that he's out of my life and luckily, I've remained positive for the last several weeks. Now I must focus on school but its soo hard knowing that there is a mini me or mini him inside of me. oh well. Also, I'm still not showing yet...which I think is the wierdest thing but I will get that miraculous bump in due time.

February 26, 2008

I finally had my first official doctor's visit...and after crying because I couldn't find my car keys and making it worse my so called "friend" who lives down the street didn't want to give me a ride...But the keys were finally found, under the futon and I made it to the doc 30 min late. I would have cried some more if I had to reschedule...and I heard the heartbeat!!! I was like ahhh, my fetus is doing fine and she said I was good size for how far along I was. Now I can breath a bit until my next appointment on March 25th. Until then, I'll try and stay focused on these books.

February 17,2008

I am addicted to this site now!!! There are days, like today, that I can't stop thinking about the fact that I have a baby inside me. Regardless, I don't feel or look pregnant...except I threw up twice yesterday...I thought all my pregnancy symptoms were gone...guess I was wrong. Although I didn't have many symptoms in the first place except for quisiness and fatigue. Well...some background info about me. Found out I was pregnant as soon as my 4th semester of law school started...but for some reason I kinda had a feeling I was pregnant before then. My baby's father is...well since I don't like to say anything negative about anyone, I won't say much about him. He has been a negative influence in my life for the last 4 years but I have no one to blame for that but myself. Regardless of the situation between me and him, I am overjoyed about the birth of my baby. Blessings sometimes emerge from hurt I see. So Life Goes...

Pregnancy Survey

About You
Name?: Tanya
Age?: 24
Height?: 5'4"
Pre-pregnancy weight?: 115 maybe more, maybe less

About The Father
Name?: Dante
Age?: 22
Height?: 6'0 maybe more, maybe less
Are you still together?: nope...don't need to be either

About Your Pregnancy

Is this your first pregnancy?: yes
When did you find out you were pregnant?: january 8th
Was it planned?: nope
What was your first reaction?: i laughed...i couldn't believe it and took 5 pregnancy test
Who was with you when you found out?: i was alone
Who was the first person you told?: Sally, Nisha, Dante, Denise, Sammy
How did your parents react?: mom was surprised and was like oh well
How far along are you?: not far enough
What was your first symptom?: nausea
What is your due date?: September 12, 2008
Do you know the sex of the baby?: nope
If so, what is it?: i don't know
Have you picked out names?: yes i did
If so, what are they?: if it's a girl - Kimberly. if it's a boy - Keaton
How much weight have you gained?: lost some
Do you have stretch marks?: nope...coco butter
Have you felt the baby move?: nope
Have you heard the heartbeat?: YES!!!! but it sounded like gas to me

About the birth

Will you keep the baby?: of course
Home or hospital birth?: hospital
Natural or medicated birth?: meds please
Who will be in the delivery room with you?: probably just the docs and nurses
Will you breastfeed?: i will try
Do you think you'll need a c-section?: no
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?: i have no clue
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?: you are sooo beautiful
Would you let someone videotape the birth?: no thanks
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?: excited about the birth...scared about how my life will change afterwards

Cravings so far:: None!!!
Things that make you sick:: garlic!!! and i used to love it; lasagna
Boy or girl:: not a clue
Baby's name:: girl - Kimberly, boy - Keaton ---the girl's name may change...but Keaton stays
Advice for other pregnant women:: I have none...I'm still trying to figure this thing out myself.
Baby Daddy:: Dante
His reaction:: said it wasn't possible bc he pulled out (i was like are u an idiot)...then he was like whatever, he'll just have to deal with it...then he became an A**hole.
Greatest memory so far:: peeing on a dollar store pregnancy test just to prove to my friend that they worked...i had to take two test...ooops
Biggest fear:: at this moment, after days of crying about soo many fears, i have no more...aleast for now...i trust in God
Advantages of being pregnant:: true friends really being there whether its to talk, take my pully bag upstairs, make me laugh by locking their keys in the car on our mission, or bringing me foods...like i said, trust in God...he will put the right people in your life.
Weird dreams:: I had some this morning...don't really remember about what
Breast changes:: first I had none, now i have SOME!!!!
Waist changes:: i had these brown pants that i love to wear when its cold...it was cold yesterday and I tried to put em on, and they wouldnt button...i also popped my top button on my favorite pair of jeans :(...so i guess it has gotten bigger
Things you quit for baby:: alcohol, late nights, garlic (not by choice), allergy medicine
Most uncomfortable time:: first trimester morning sickness and now indigestion...and my stuffy nose at night!!!
Worst part of being pregnant:: The emotions, the fatigue, the morning sickness
Best place for maternity clothes:: I def don't need them yet...I'm as skinny as ever
Taking parenting classes:: I will over summer.
Pregnancy necessities:: my bed
Grandparents reaction:: My mother is like whatever now. she's not excited nor is she mad...she's a big blah. My biological father...if anyone knows where he's at, you tell him. lol.
Where will you deliver:: my kiddie will be a North Carolina baby
When:: September 12
Will you breastfeed:: yupper...all day, everyday...im gonna make my baby a fatty
Will you use cloth diaper: naw, all plastic
Books you're reading: hmm, well now that I am feeling better, I can read about...the federal income tax system, employment law, business association, and whatever case books I need too...i got exams coming up soon.