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I have always wanted to be a mom and now that it is actually happening I am almost scared. I keep wondering if God picked the right time for me to get pregnant. But then I read in the bible that God has an appointed time for everything and I know He knows what He is doing. Ian and I have been married for a little over a year. Our second anniversary will be on September 24. I wonder everyday if everything with the baby is okay. Its so hard for me because I can't really control what is happening, I mean I can to a point then I have to let go and trust God. If I get nothing else out this pregnancy I will have more patience and a deeper trust in God. He has never not taken care of me so I don't know why I spend so much time questioning things. I can't wait till the baby gets here so I can finally once and for all hold my own baby. I look forward to the many days ahead. I know its not easy but I know with God's help we can do this.

2007-04-03

I can't believe that I am going on 17 weeks. I never thought I would be here. I am praying God will help me with everything. I am frustrated at this time only because it seems that everything that could go wrong is. I have my next appointment on the 9th. I am so excited about this appointment because my husband gets to go with me. He is also taking a vacation day so he can go to the ultrasound with me. I miss him so much when he is at work. I don't work at this time I stay home with our dog and I miss being with him. I wish he could be here more but I know that he will be here when I need him the most. I love him so much and miss him just as much. The baby already knows him and really responds to him. When I can't get the baby to move all he has to do is put his hand on my belly and the baby moves. I can't believe just how much I love him. We have picked out a name for a boy Isreal Michael, the girls names we keep going around on. I like Iana Mikayla, and Shekinah Glory. Do you have any ideas?? I would love to hear them. Thank you.

Also does anyone else worry more now than before the baby started moving. Because the baby doesn't seem to move around unless Ian makes the baby move.

2007-04-10

I went to my appointment yesterday and everything is okay. My husband was able to go with me and he actually heard the baby for the first time. He thought it was funny, he said the baby sounded like it was talking to us. The baby was moving all over and my mid-wife was having a hard time keeping the dopplar on the baby. I love being pregnant and I love when my husband is able to be apart of it. It is really hard because he can't take time off work, well he can but we only get 5 vacation days and he wants to save those for when the baby gets here. He is so excited about the baby and tells me all the time that I look beautiful pregnant. He said yesterday that the mid-wife said I am still underweight. This time I gained 5 pounds. That is a ton for me. I am having a hard time with gaining weight. Even though I am losing inches. I haven't gained any fat just baby and that is fine. I know that I have to be careful to eat. Well so far thats all I have to update.

2007-04-17

This week has been very stressful and it is just starting. On sunday a good family friend passed away. I have really been stressing over whether or not we are going to be able to make it financially. My husband reassures me that we are fine I guess I tend to make things worse than they really are. I am scared of my upcoming ultra-sound, I don't know what to expect. I am scared of what the doctor will find. I have been reading on-line about 3D and 4D ultra-sounds and the many miss wrong calls made by the tech. I don't want to know if there is something wrong because I will then spend the next however long worrying over something that may not be true. I have really been praying asking God to give me His peace. I really wish I had a girl friend I could talk to that would know and understand what I am going through. Ian tells me that everything will be fine. He prays with me and deals with my reactions to not being able to control everything. I really could use some encouraging and your prayers. I have been praying and I know that my church is behind me praying. I know this baby is a gift from God and everything that happens is Gods plan for this childs life. I go on thursday for my first ultra-sound and I am very excited but I can really use the prayers of everyone. Thank you for all your support and encouragement.

2007-04-20

Well yesterday turned out to be a great day. I worried so much about nothing. The baby is absolutely fine, he most certainly wanted us to see what he was. I was so excited to see him moving around on the screen. He wouldn't let us see his hands little punk. He would hide them behind his head, everytime they got ready to take a hand shot he would fist them up so we couldn't see them. I can't believe how awesome it is to see my baby on the screen. He is a healthy 9ounces and 61/2 inches long. We got a really neat shot of him kicking...his daddy says that he is going to be a ninja or a soccer player. For no love of money could we get him to move so they could get better shots. I walked around...they had me lay on my left side, but he was comfortable and was not moving. It was funny because about half way through he fell asleep. The doctor did say that he has a two vessel cord instead of a three. He said that he's not really worried because the baby looks great. He said that our baby is super healthy and looks perfect. It was so reassuring that everything is good. I have to go back at 32 weeks for a follow up ultra-sound to make sure the baby is still growing like he is suppose to. That is a problem that can occure, the babys growing can slow down because of the two vessel cord. But Im not worried at all we have enough people praying and believeing that everything is going to be perfect with the baby. I am holding on to the promises that God has given me. I know that this pregnancy is ordianed by God because He gave me the name for the baby way before my husband and I met. The cool thing is that we have had it confirmed four times now and the intials are the same as my husbands. I really like that because Ian didn't want a junior but our son will still bear his initals and middle name. Well I could keep going on and on because I am so excited. Things couldn't have went better. Thank you all so much for all your support and prayers. They have really helped. I am so glad I came across this website it has been such a great help and encouragement. Ian is such a proud daddy although he doesn't show his excitement like I do he is very very happy. It is so cool to watch him look at the baby and smile. I think he went through the pictures tons of times. I still think it is a shock to him. But none the less he can't wait for our baby to get here.

30 April 2007

It's hard to believe I am now at the halfway mark. I think about not being pregnant anymore and I get sad. Not that I'm not excited about Israels soon coming arrival. I have so much to do before he gets here. I absolutely love being pregnant, even though I have been in a bit of pain. I was sick all last week. I have problems with my stomach and with the added pressure from the growing uterus and baby it made it start hurting again. I think my Mid-Wifes office knows my number by heart. But despite being uncomfortable I love this whole experience and I would never trade it for anything in the world. God has been so good to us. I have been blessed beyond any of my wildest dreams. Ian is an awesome husband I can't imagine not having him by me helping me through everything that comes. He would rub my back and get me whatever I thought would make me feel better. Most of the time he could get Israel to move or stop moving so I would be able to rest again. Well, other than being 20 weeks not much else has changed other than the weather. It is finally beautiful out, oh how I love spring once it gets here. Once again I can't believe just how lucky I am to be where I am, doing what I am doing, and living the dream I never thought would come true. For everyone that is apart of this awesome group God bless and Congratulations.

01 May 2007

Last night I had a hard time sleeping because Israel decided to lay in my back and I couldn't get comfortable. While I was laying there unable to sleep I started praying. While I was praying I got this awesome sense of peace. I know now that everything is gonna be fine with Israel taht God has promised us our son and now we are seeing that come to be. I pray over him constantly everytime I feel him move I stop and pray that he will be healthy and strong. I sometimes wish I had a girlfriend that was close that I could talk to about all the new things that are happening. I may not have a girlfriend but I do have my mom and husband and in my book that is way better because I know they won't hurt me ( at least on purpose). We close on our house after a year of games with the whole thing. I keep praying for my husbands sake that his family will get on board and be excited about their soon coming grandson. All I can do is pray because I can't change them but I know God can. I can't thank God enough for all He has done and all He is gonna do. I keep praying Jeremiah 29:11, because I know God is in control.

3 May 2007

Oh my gosh, I am in so much pain. I threw my back out yesterday actually Israel helped in that. He like to push on the right side and with me working around the house and him pushing my back went out. I have a weak spot in my back and he found it. My mom is taking me to the chiro's so I can move without pain. My poor husband had a hard time last night because I was in so much pain. He would rub it which would help until he stopped. The he had me sleep on his arm and that helped enough I was actually able to get some sleep. I am just waiting for my mom and brother to get here so I can once again walk. I am so blessed to have stummbled upon this site. I feel like everyone on here is a friend. I don't get to share everything with a friend so you guys are it. I pray that everyone is blessed and has a great pregnancy and delivery.

Although daddy says he is going to be a ninja. He just love when he kicks, yeah so fun except when he wallups me in the kidney. He actually threw my back out now I have to deal with muscle spasms. OUCH. But I wouldn't trade any of this for a moment of relief.

04 May 2007

Today I have been in a bit of pain I called my doctor and she said that I need to keep doing what I have been doing. My stomach is making it hard to eat but I know that its because of the back. I guess its my punishment for washing all my floors(my whole house is hardwood flooring) and washing all the woodwork. But I can't stand my house to be messy. My mom is upset that I did all that I did. She is so great and said for now on she will be doing the stuff so I don't hurt me or Israel. I have been lazy only because it hurts to much to move. I am suppose to get a massage on tuesday(can't wait). I will be able to get a massage as long as my appointment doesn't take to long. Well I guess thats all for now.

06 May 2007

Today I ended up in the Maternity triage unit, because the pain was so intense I could no longer function. It kept getting worse and would wake me up at night making it very difficult to sleep or even think. Well, it became way to much to handle and after waking up three times in excruciating pain my husband took me in. I could barely walk when we first got there. They hooked me up to a monitor and thankfully the pain wasn't premature labor. They did a urine test which showed I had a UTI and there was blood in the urine. They then had me go for a ultra-sound of my kidney's. They said that they could say I did or didn't have stones. But they did give me pain killers and macrobid. It is nice for the pain to go away, I can finally move and rest. My back hurts so bad when the pain killer wears off. Tomorrow I will be set up with a Urologist to check everything out. It will be so nice when the pain goes away. They told me that I can do what I want just to stop if it feels like to much. The baby is fine his heart is heart beat was where it should be. That and he wouldn't stay still the machine had a hard time keeping track of his heart beat because he kept moving. He was funny when they hooked me up to the machine he was kicking it like get this thing off me. Ian is so awesome he did everything he could to try and help me get through the pain. He was definitely my rock I don't think I could do it with out him with me. Well anyways I just wanted to give everyone an update. Here I thought it was a pulled muscle and it looks like a kidney stone. Thank you so much for all your prayers keep them up because you can never get to much. You are all in our prayers.

10 May 2007

On tuesday I went to my doctors and the doctor said I need to go into the hospital if I can't manage the pain. After a week of no sleep and no pain relief I have decided to go back in today. Ian is taking me in when he gets home from work. I am learning to deal with the pain but its still unbearable at times. I have a hard time walking, I waddle because it hurts to walk. I am trying to deal with it because I know that this isn't fair to Israel. I know this can't be good for him. So I am going in so that nothing happens to him. Keep me in your prayers and thank you for all for your encouragement.

11 May 2007

Yesterday I went to the hospital, because I was sick of being in pain and not sleeping. They gave me a different pain med to help me get some sleep. I was able to sleep for the first time in a week. Today I went to the Urologist and he said that I have to tough it out because there is nothing he can do to make me feel better. So, if nothing else I will have a better start on labor. I mean I have been doubled over in pain for a week and they tell me that labor will not be worse than that. Not that I really wanted to experience that until I was actually in labor. Well the pain is getting better or maybe I am finally used to it so it don't affect me like it was. Once again I have to send out kudos to my husband because he is being such an awesome strength and support. We are still praying that the baby will grow and not have any complications. They keep saying downs is a possibility, however the doctor said that he isn't worried because everything looked great on the baby. So we keep praying that God will keep him safe and grow him and there will be no complications or birth defects. I am praying for everyone and your babies.

7 June 2007

Well went for my check up and everything seems to be going well. My midwife was happy because I gained weight.I know its all baby but not used to seeing the scale creep up. I have to go this next week or so and have blood work done,and get my rogam shot.His heartrate was 156 this time.My blood pressure keeps going down but my midwife says its because I am so active. I go for a bike ride almost every chance I get.Everything looks good with the pregnancy. I have been busy in his room.I am going to be painting and can't wait to get it finished.A friend gave me all the clothes her son out grew and I have tons of clothes for him now. He will be a very well dressed little boy.He still moves constantly.I absolutely love pregnant, it is the greatest thing I have ever experienced.I can't wait to do it again I don't want limit God on how many babies he blesses us with.Well I hope everything is going well for everyone.I pray that God blesses you and keeps you and your little one safe.

21 June 2007

I have had an interesting week thus far. I spent all day saturday at my cousins open house wow it was a long hot day. I had bought Ian a card and gift for his fathers to be day. I bought him ribs to cook out on sunday, as well as a bag of cherries his favorite. I pick on him because I got a bag of donuts, he was suppose to get that also but I love him to much to not get him so much more. BTW I asked for the donuts but I still pick on him. He bought me a dozen red roses they are so beautiful. Monday I had to get all the blood work done. I drank the stuff for the glucose test. Got drawn and then went to my doctors office to get my rogam shot. I can't believe that I am so close to the end, I love being pregnant it is the greatest. Well for now....

7 July 2007

Wow, I am 30 weeks and feeling great. I went to my appointment and everything is going awesome. The midwife said that all my blood work came back fine and Israel is growing just the way he is suppose too. I feel so great I can't believe it. Israel is in the right position at this point doesn't mean he can't flip, which he is really good at. He has bruised me from the inside out but no big deal. Things are going so well I am getting so excited, we have our first baby class today. I have my next appointment on the 18th and the next week on the 26th I have my next ultrasound. I can't wait to see him again. I feel him all the time but I can't wait to see him. Not to much happening here but I guess thats a not a bad thing. God bless everyone.

17 July 2007

I have been working on my registry trying to eliminate things so I don't have too much for people to buy. I am worried people won't buy me the stuff I am registered for. Just because when I got married my moms family was like the only ones who gave us anything we registered for. I was so worried I wouldn't get the stuff that I purchased most of the stuff a year ago before we decided we would try for a baby. We have purchased the whole nursery other than a rocking chair. I get so frustrated with people who are like well shat are we suppose to buy you if you already have that stuff. Im like buy me whats on my registry, duh. I am worried people will buy me stuff from the dollar store and I will be stuck with stuff I don't need or want. How hard is it to purchase something off the registry?? I have like 95 items total, no clothes because I have been blessed with them already but I know I will get more always do. I just hope that I screwed again like I did for the wedding. Speaking of weddings I am so upset I have been married going on two years and we still don't have our pics. Come to find out the guy was a fraud. I am still holding on to hope that he will finish the job and at least give me my pics and video. I thinkI have spent more days crying over that than anything else. Anywho sorry needed to vent. God bless and good luck.

19 July 2007

Yesterday was my latest appointment, everything looks great. I lost weight, not like I am trying I know it is normal to gain weight. I thought I was eating like a pig, guess he is eating like a pig. He is growing like he is suppose to be growing which is great , being they were worried about it to start. He has a two vessel cord which the doc said will make him smaller but it looks like he is right on track right now. He is head down and ready to go. Not that I am ready for him yet. I can't wait for next week I get to have another ultra-sound. They want to be sure he is growing like he is suppose too. Not that I am worried. I am going to be working on the nursery today. Talk to you all later, may God bless you and your baby

20 July 2007

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