Phoebe & Momma (the day of delivery)

Proud Daddy & Phoebe

Our precious littl girl Phoebe 8)

Adam and I have been together for almost 7 wonderful years. He's the love of my life. We will be married 2 years this september. We are so excited about becoming parents.

We will be finding out what the sex is in 4 weeks or so. We can't wait, once we find out that, we will be thinking of names. That's when I can stop calling my baby an "it". :)

Hope everyone is doing well!

August 23, 2007 (27 weeks)

Yesterday I went to my monthly check up and saw the same doctor I saw last time. I had requested to have one of the female doctors and obviously didn't get one. I said something and he got a little offended I think. The reason I think that is because he measured my belly, wrote something down and told me when to come back and pointed to where the lab was for my sugar test and then walked out of the office. He did not ask me how I was feeling, if I had any questions or concerns, he did not tell me how I was measuring....nothing. So I was left a little disturbed from my visit yesterday and don't really know what I did wrong. I am almost 28 weeks and have not met my doctor yet, there is something wrong with this picture. I am though scheduled to meet her next visit in 3 weeks, so on my 31st week I will have met my doctor for the first time. I hope that nothing happens with this one. If it does I don't know what I'm going to do. What is so hard or wrong about wanting a female doctor??? That's all I want. I don't even care at this point if she's nice to me or not....just take care of me and take the time to answer my questions...that's all. Anyway, the nurse weighed me and I have gained 17 lbs so far this pregnancy. Not bad I think. I hope my weight gain stays steady the last 12 weeks of the pregnancy. We will see.

August 1, 2007 (24 Weeks)

So far I have gained 14 lbs. I didn't think that was bad at all until the look my doctor gave me after seeing my weight gain. (Jerk) I don't care though, my belly can get as big as it wants, it's my thighs and butt I would be worried about. I will yet again be seeing my new doctor August 22nd. It is the female doctor at the new place I'm going to now that I had requested for the last visit but I ended up getting one of the ancient dinosaur doctors that has been there for like a hundred years. (No personality) I would rather have a female I could relate with and that has possibly gone through the same pains as we all have to go through rather than having a know-it-all male doctor that minimizes any worry or concern we would have when at the same time could never be in our shoes and worry about the things that we worry about daily. I wouldn't have it any other way than to have a female take care of me and my unborn child especially if I will be treated the way I have been so far. Other than my doc issues, I have been enjoying being pregnant for sure. I love my belly and cannot wait to meet my daughter. I feel her everyday and she reminds me that it's one day closer to being able to actually have her in my arms.

July 2, 2007

Last Thursday we found out that we are having a GIRL! Yay! Now we can actually look at clothes and patterns for the nursery. We are so excited!!! I am back to work from my "vacation" last week and I am more exausted now than when it started. My parents came to visit all week and it was horrible. I had all kinds of expectations that just didn't happen. There was no consideration what so ever for me. Instead of spending the week trying to take some needed relaxation...I spent it cooking and cleaning after my parents. I AM SO TIRED of being around people that just don't give a crap about me!! Not even my own parents...all my dad wanted to do is party and get drunk and my Mom didn't seem the least bit considerate that I needed my rest. Did I get any?? NO! That was NOT what I call a vacation. I need another one...8(

June 21, 2007

I think I may possibly be starting to get a hold of these emotions. And as far as the people I onced called my really good friends...I'm not going to let them bother me anymore. They have been anything but supportive with my pregnancy. It's not that they don't approve, it's that they just don't care. They look at us as different people now...instead of being happy that we are starting to grow up and start our own family, they feel that they lost their drinking buddies. How selfish....No congratulations...No asking how I'm doing...They're not even inviting us over anymore and everytime we invite them, they keep blowing us off because they would rather be doing something else with someone else. Does that sound like a friend to you??? I feel that it would be a mistake by going my seperate way from them, but I feel that I should just live my life and keep an open door just in case they would like to be a part of it. I am tired and quite frankly, I don't have the energy to hold our friendships together anymore....it's needs to be a two way street. I can't always be the one to put effort into a friendship and get nothing in return....I now have my own family to worry about. I need to keep my strength for them.

June 12, 2007

I'm in my 17th week and I am starting to definitely look pregnant. I think the scale at my doctor's office is broken because it says that I have only gained 4 1/2lbs but I look like I have gained 15 or so. I haven't really felt any of the movements like all the other girls are talking about. Little gas bubble feelings here and there but it's always right after I eat so I assume it's just food being pushed around. Feeling a little sad but I believe it's just the hormones stirring my emotions all around. I feel a little frustrated because this is supposed to be a wonderful time and I am surrounded by so much negative energy that I just can't help but to let it consume me. Sad I know, but I believe I am too tired to fight it off any longer....it's harder than it sounds to not let it get me down. I'll be fine though, I just feel a little helpless sometimes. But I turn to GOD and he lifts me back up again and helps for me to be strong....I just wish I could be surrounded by people who care about me other than my wonderful husband.....