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 | Age: 25 Country: Province/region: City: Partner: God Blessed me with a Wonderful Husband, Drew Children: Pregnant: Not anymore Occupation: Part time Elementary Music Teacher and Proud House Wife |
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We are SO incredibly blessed with another chance and are pregnant again. Please visit our new site at
www.i-am-pregnant.com/vip/sweetbee1
I know God has one of my boys in each of His hands.
But I miss them Sooooo much...isn't looking like it will get any easier though.
I know God has one of my boys in each of His hands.
But I miss them Sooooo much...isn't looking like it will get any easier though.
Journey ended June 16, 2007 at 23.5 weeks.
Drew and I currently live in Rapid City, but are originally from Colorado. Drews a Lieutenant in the Air Force and is gonna be going to Pilot training in a few months so its gonna be a busy year!!!!!! We miss our family, especially during this time but are really looking forward to the months ahead. We move to Oklahoma in June and will be glad to settle down for a while before picking up and moving again!!!
I hope to update this page often! Puttin up a picture every few weeks for fun on our progress hehe and any other fun pictures from along the way!
Pray for us and for a healthy babies!!!!
God Bless!
P.S. We feel they are boys...so we'll see!!! :)
Your 1st trimester: January 04, 2007 to April 04, 2007. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: April 05, 2007 to July 18, 2007. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: July 19, 2007 to October 11, 2007. (28 - 40 weeks)
UPDATES AND TIMELINE!!!
6/26/07
As I had wrote before we had been diagnosed with TTTS but it turns out that that most likely wasn't a part of how we lost our boys. Becuase of the the extra fluid I was huge and I have a hard time believe that all that extra weight added to the stress. Doc said I had probably been in labor at least 1-2 days...I had no idea...But he said my Placenta was about 75% detached from the wall of the uterus. He didn't think TTTS had anything to do with it and that there would have been nothing to change what had happened. My water broke Saturday morning... I had laid down because my back had been killing me all night and still wasn't getting better. I was just laying on my side, hubby was making a sandwhich, and it just happened. We had no idea what to do, it was like a bathtub faucet had been turned on full, Drew said he was horrified because I had been so big and I was tiny within seconds losing all that fluid...Drew called 911 and within 3-5 minutes the base firefighters were there to put me on oxygen, about 5 minutes later ambulance got there, rushed me upstairs. Drew had called my doctor and he was already there. They tore off my bottoms, doc put the ultrasound on my tummy and after about 5 seconds looks at Drew and firmly yes, "Ok, bottom baby has no heartbeat, top babies is very slow. If we don't do a C-section right now they are both going to die." I just heard drew say, "ok..yes" and then I was rushed into an operating room. The doc kept yelling for the anesthisiologist but they kept saying shes on her way, next thing i know i feltpricks and burns and then all the nurses held me down and he went to try and save the one boy without waiting another second. It was the most awful thing I have ever gone through in my life. After he had gotten both boys out I saw a nurse (anesthisiologist) run in and thats the last thing I remembered. I lost them both.. Landon, the first born, was still born, and Cade lived for about 5 minutes but he was just too little. They were perfect though... we got to spend quite a bit of time with them in the hospital. Its so hard. Thanks for your prayers. I don't know if its wrong/weird/uncomfortable to put a picture of them on this site, but I think these 2 are beautiful. And I want to show my baby boys. They will always be a part of our hearts. Thanks for all of your support.
6/20/07
6/26/07
As I had wrote before we had been diagnosed with TTTS but it turns out that that most likely wasn't a part of how we lost our boys. Becuase of the the extra fluid I was huge and I have a hard time believe that all that extra weight added to the stress. Doc said I had probably been in labor at least 1-2 days...I had no idea...But he said my Placenta was about 75% detached from the wall of the uterus. He didn't think TTTS had anything to do with it and that there would have been nothing to change what had happened. My water broke Saturday morning... I had laid down because my back had been killing me all night and still wasn't getting better. I was just laying on my side, hubby was making a sandwhich, and it just happened. We had no idea what to do, it was like a bathtub faucet had been turned on full, Drew said he was horrified because I had been so big and I was tiny within seconds losing all that fluid...Drew called 911 and within 3-5 minutes the base firefighters were there to put me on oxygen, about 5 minutes later ambulance got there, rushed me upstairs. Drew had called my doctor and he was already there. They tore off my bottoms, doc put the ultrasound on my tummy and after about 5 seconds looks at Drew and firmly yes, "Ok, bottom baby has no heartbeat, top babies is very slow. If we don't do a C-section right now they are both going to die." I just heard drew say, "ok..yes" and then I was rushed into an operating room. The doc kept yelling for the anesthisiologist but they kept saying shes on her way, next thing i know i feltpricks and burns and then all the nurses held me down and he went to try and save the one boy without waiting another second. It was the most awful thing I have ever gone through in my life. After he had gotten both boys out I saw a nurse (anesthisiologist) run in and thats the last thing I remembered. I lost them both.. Landon, the first born, was still born, and Cade lived for about 5 minutes but he was just too little. They were perfect though... we got to spend quite a bit of time with them in the hospital. Its so hard. Thanks for your prayers. I don't know if its wrong/weird/uncomfortable to put a picture of them on this site, but I think these 2 are beautiful. And I want to show my baby boys. They will always be a part of our hearts. Thanks for all of your support.
6/20/07
We did lose our babies Saturday the 16th. I will write more later on what all went on, but please pray for us... this is so hard..
6/14/07
I have never felt more miserable... it hurts when I stand, when I sit and when I lay down. This is seriously...insane. I'm only 23 weeks. WHAT? I went to the doctor in the City again yesterday and was told that the TTTS is progressing some and by next week I should be prepared for some plan of action whether it be the fetoscopic laser surgery in Seattle, WA, or the amnioreduction which just buys time. The doc kinda made it sound like since I am still under 26 weeks I should take advantage of the surgery and I talked to my insurance and they say it would be covered. So we are just praying now for Gods guidance. Next Wednesday is my next appointment and he'll let me know how things are looking. So next update should have alot more info!
6/7/07
Well we are situated in Oklahoma now.Got insurance all worked out and a doctor.Doctor checked me out and agreed i needed to be sent to a perinatologist because of the fluid issues and got me into Oklahoma City the next day, which was today.My poor baby B is so squished up in the top with so very little fluid.Baby A is having a hay day rolling around in his HUGE play space with way to much fluid.They have pretty much diagnosed twin to twin transfusion and it looks like appointments every week from now on.I am extremely nervous, but we know everything is in God's hands.He has been knitting both these little boys together in my womb since day 1 and this is no shock to Him.He knows what he is doing.I just get so nervous about the whole hour and 45 minute drive thing.Its not just a hop skip and a jump to the doctor so that makes me nervous.They said Enid, (where we live) the hospitals aren't capable of delivering before 34 weeks which they have told me is probable.Which is scary to think of... they say after 26 weeks the viability of life goes way up, so at least at 22 weeks is somewhat close to that....a few more weeks and if I deliver they have more chance of survival. So right now, its PRAYER!!!They may drain some fluid through amniocentisis as/if the fluid gets worse, and honestly....i could go for a liter of fluid out of this belly.Its HUGE and I can't BREATHE!!! lol
5/26/07
I had an appointment last Tuesday! It was our big ultrasound appointment. It was soo awesome. They even went to 3D/4D for a while for a few pictures. They took all the measurements of both babies, everything was where it is supposed to be! Growing great. The only thing is that they are concerned because baby B has more fluid then baby A. I have been referred to a perinatologist. But first i gotta get down to oklahoma and on our new insurance down there with the air force. They want me to get checked out no longer then 2 weeks from my last appointment and I don't even get there till next wednesday. They are worried it could be the beginnings of twin to twin transfusion, but we are hoping for the best and that its just nothing but a little extra fluid. The reassurring thing is that they both are growing and at the right rates. So please pray for us. And for me to stay optimistic lol I am VERY much a pessimist. But the fun thing is WE ARE HAVING 2 BOYS!!!!!!!! And its looking more and more like they are gonna be identical. Wouldn't that be awesome?
If you want to see my ultrasound pictures you can click on this link or just watch the little slide show if it works :)
http://calbaptist.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2004262&l=26548&id=139000138
5/08/07
SOOOOOO this morning after I woke up I felt this little random lump up towards my chest....not in the low hard parts of the belly :) I touched it and it would move away... then come back... then move :) IT WAS SOOO AMAZING!! It was whichever little one is up top! I was just in amazement! Sat there for like 15 minutes playin with them :) THEN I was up here writing on this page and i took a deep breath in and felt little kicks in my low belly!! The 2nd little guy must have been wanting me to know they were there too!! HOW AMAZING! Almost to much for me in one day haha
4/24/07
This month has been so much better then last month!! Sickness has eased, now just learning what to eat and how to deal with heartburn! haha! I am now actually feeling more pregnant. I feel like I am looking it! I haven't been able to see my husband for 3 weeks since he has been at a flight screening program so I can't WAIT for him to see the change!! Not sure if I have officially felt the babies yet, for sure no big kicks, but I'm still just about 16 weeks. But I have felt little tickles...little butterflies..and then pressure like they are pushing each other down or somethin :) Its been fun!! My next appointment is on Thursday!
3/27/07
So this past week was the WORST!! I have never been so sick with EVERYTHING lol I couldn't even keep water down! I ALWAYS felt full...never wanted to eat. BUT Yesterday the light started shining again!! Yay!!! Felt great again the past 2 days and full of energy! YAY!!!
3/20/07
Today was our first appointment!! YAY! We have been waiting a long time for it! And with my spotting 2 weeks ago I had been so anxious to hear the heartbeat. And hear the heartbeats we did, BOTH OF THEM!!!!!! WE ARE HAVING TWINS!! We are still kinda in shock :) More names to think of now!!!! They were in seperate sacks, which is good, less complications. We coudln't believe we were looking at our 2 babies!! Kicking their little feeties and everything!!!!
Baby 1, Baby 2, then both little babies!
!
3/7/07
Today I had some bleeding and am very scared. I didn't know how I would react to a miscarriage until today. I was a mess for about 2-3 hours. I know its in God's hands, and I give it all to Him, but its breaking me. I only had the bleeding the one time, and it hasn't gotten heavier or happened again, and no cramping. So I'm resting alot and praying alot so we'll see. I love this baby already and I haven't even felt him move or seen his heartbeat!! I am almost 10 weeks and just 2 days ago decided it would be ok to tell people. If something happens I have alot of people to explain too. Please pray for me!
2/28/07
I've been battling slight queezyness but nothing to bad till today. Today was the first time I had to run to the bathroom to throw up. Yuck. I had thought being almost 9 weeks I had lucked out from that but guess not!!!!
2/15/07
Well my referral from the air force docs went through so I was able to call a doctor to get my first appointment. I was thinking next week...BUT NO!!! My doctor prefers to wait to see her patients till 10-12 weeks!! So the earliest I could get an appointment would have been the 10th-25 of march. And since I'm gonna be in Oklahoma for some of that, my appointment is March 20th. OVER A MONTH TO WAIT!! Ahhhh!!!! I can do it though.... lol PRAY FOR PATIENCE hehe
2/10/07 BLOOD TEST IS POSITIVE!!!!!! ITS REALLY OFFICIAL NOW!!!!!!
02/09/07
Took a blood test at the clinic today!! VERY VERY Anxious to get the results :) Although...we feel pretty positive hehe We haven't told the family yet, wanted to wait till after at least the blood tests. Then as far as everyone else, we are thinking to wait 3 months just to be safe.
02/08/07
Our first VERY positive test!! The week before we tried one but the line was so faint I thought it was negative! This one showed up within 10 seconds!!! Haha Drews face cracks me up in that picture. Hes so goofy!
The Belly's progress from start to finish!!!
5 wks-2/09/07 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~11 wks - 3/23/07
15 wks 4/19/07 ~~~~~~~~~~ 17 wks 5/3/07
19 Wks 5/17/07~~~~~~~~~~~~20 Wks Front 5/24/07
This month has been so much better then last month!! Sickness has eased, now just learning what to eat and how to deal with heartburn! haha! I am now actually feeling more pregnant. I feel like I am looking it! I haven't been able to see my husband for 3 weeks since he has been at a flight screening program so I can't WAIT for him to see the change!! Not sure if I have officially felt the babies yet, for sure no big kicks, but I'm still just about 16 weeks. But I have felt little tickles...little butterflies..and then pressure like they are pushing each other down or somethin :) Its been fun!! My next appointment is on Thursday!
3/27/07
So this past week was the WORST!! I have never been so sick with EVERYTHING lol I couldn't even keep water down! I ALWAYS felt full...never wanted to eat. BUT Yesterday the light started shining again!! Yay!!! Felt great again the past 2 days and full of energy! YAY!!!
3/20/07
Today was our first appointment!! YAY! We have been waiting a long time for it! And with my spotting 2 weeks ago I had been so anxious to hear the heartbeat. And hear the heartbeats we did, BOTH OF THEM!!!!!! WE ARE HAVING TWINS!! We are still kinda in shock :) More names to think of now!!!! They were in seperate sacks, which is good, less complications. We coudln't believe we were looking at our 2 babies!! Kicking their little feeties and everything!!!!
Baby 1, Baby 2, then both little babies!
!3/7/07
Today I had some bleeding and am very scared. I didn't know how I would react to a miscarriage until today. I was a mess for about 2-3 hours. I know its in God's hands, and I give it all to Him, but its breaking me. I only had the bleeding the one time, and it hasn't gotten heavier or happened again, and no cramping. So I'm resting alot and praying alot so we'll see. I love this baby already and I haven't even felt him move or seen his heartbeat!! I am almost 10 weeks and just 2 days ago decided it would be ok to tell people. If something happens I have alot of people to explain too. Please pray for me!
2/28/07
I've been battling slight queezyness but nothing to bad till today. Today was the first time I had to run to the bathroom to throw up. Yuck. I had thought being almost 9 weeks I had lucked out from that but guess not!!!!
2/15/07
Well my referral from the air force docs went through so I was able to call a doctor to get my first appointment. I was thinking next week...BUT NO!!! My doctor prefers to wait to see her patients till 10-12 weeks!! So the earliest I could get an appointment would have been the 10th-25 of march. And since I'm gonna be in Oklahoma for some of that, my appointment is March 20th. OVER A MONTH TO WAIT!! Ahhhh!!!! I can do it though.... lol PRAY FOR PATIENCE hehe
2/10/07 BLOOD TEST IS POSITIVE!!!!!! ITS REALLY OFFICIAL NOW!!!!!!
02/09/07
Took a blood test at the clinic today!! VERY VERY Anxious to get the results :) Although...we feel pretty positive hehe We haven't told the family yet, wanted to wait till after at least the blood tests. Then as far as everyone else, we are thinking to wait 3 months just to be safe.
02/08/07
Our first VERY positive test!! The week before we tried one but the line was so faint I thought it was negative! This one showed up within 10 seconds!!! Haha Drews face cracks me up in that picture. Hes so goofy!
The Belly's progress from start to finish!!!
5 wks-2/09/07 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~11 wks - 3/23/07
15 wks 4/19/07 ~~~~~~~~~~ 17 wks 5/3/07
19 Wks 5/17/07~~~~~~~~~~~~20 Wks Front 5/24/07
21 Wks 5/31/07~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~23 Wks 6/14/07
My Love and I!
Married June 17, 2006 And loving life since!!
The Twins' Bedding!! Times 2 of course!!! hehe
Yes...I love bumblebees!!
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jenniferlynn5366 - Wednesday, 6 August
Your story is sooo sad!! I am so sorry that you lost your babies due to TTTS!! its a horrible disease that claims these babies lives. I was diagnosed at a stage 2 and had surgery at 18 weeks. I am now 23 weeks and doing well....If you dont mind me asking?? How much did your babies weigh and how far along where you?? Again I am so sorry for your loss
mommy to boys - Monday, 16 June
I hope you can find comfort on the anniversary, I know how hard it is...I just pased my Luc's 2 year anniversary, it is a hard thing, I am right where I was with this pregnancy when I lost my son. But being pregnant again on this aniversary is a blessing, as is yours and I know our babies will be fine and will have a safe arrival. You are in my thoughts today.
damaurigirl07 - Thursday, 13 Mar
God bless you, your husband and your 2 baby boys. I know how hard it is to a lose a baby. I lost my daughter at 30 weeks in August and I just wanted to die. Have faith and God because he is almighty and believe me, he will bring you through this.
Echapps - Tuesday, 11 Mar
God Bless you and your husband. Thank you for sharing your story. I will keep you in my prayers. I have had 2 m/c with no answers why. I am also a special areas teacher...I teach elementary p.e!
andante - Friday, 15 Feb
Your boys are about the same size as my baby girl. I lost her just before Christmas at 18 weeks. I wish you the best of luck TTC. By the way, I am also a music teacher :)
Renee11201 - Friday, 15 Feb
your story is very touching and I pray for you all.. your babies are beautiful and Im glad I could see pictures of them.. I wish you luck! take care!
Joy-S - Wednesday, 13 Feb
Your babies are so beautiful! They're in heaven playing with mine! I'm sorry for your loss! You are in my thoughts and prayers! Best wishes!!
niseybear - Wednesday, 30 Jan
Wow...what a story...and what a strong woman you are. Be blessed and believe your time will come!
samzie - Saturday, 19 Jan
god bless u all xxxxxxxx
stacyandmichaelsbaby - Friday, 18 Jan
I am so sorry for your loss. I miscarried one of my twins with this pregnancy. It was very upsetting for me but I am actually grateful that I have one healthy baby still on the way and I know it was easier to lose him/her earlier than later. Anyway, I don't talk about it much because I think it makes people uncomfortable. I have 2 other sets of twin boys who are teenagers now and my oldest is a single birth who also lost his twin in the early weeks. My twins have all been fraternal so apparently I double ovulate. God Bless you as you try again....
Halloween*Bean - Friday, 18 Jan
I just read this and I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. The pictures are beautiful. I'm sending you good energy!
kylie - Sunday, 13 Jan
hi there. just reading your page and words cant express my feelings for you. it must be heartbreaking for you both and you must both be very stong people. the photo's are nice. reading through your story i really dont know how your coping because i think i would of just broke down. it really brought a tear to my eye reading and seeing the picture and i dont even know you. i feel so sorry for you. keep your heads up and respect to you both. take care.
starr23 - Tuesday, 8 Jan
I am so so sorry and will keep you and your husband and beautiful angels in my prayers. I know there are no words that can gently express what I want to say, but with all my heart I wish for you both a wonderful blessing, not to make you forget but to help you heal. I hope you and your husband are doing well, I hope this has bought you closer and bonded you closer. Hugs.. Lizzy
dance_flower - Thursday, 27 Dec
I hope you and your husband had a good Christmas. I continue to think of you and pray that you will get your healthy little bean/s soon.
jewlo - Friday, 21 Dec
So sorry to hear what happened. There are no words for it but keep your head up. Your right they are beautiful boys. Heart goes out to the both of you. liz82 - Wednesday, 19 Dec
may you have a blessed christmas
Beautiful_Bump - Sunday, 16 Dec
Aww hunni i havnt been as much since losing Ella back in april at 24+3 but i remeber your story of being pregnant i had no idea you lost ur special boys i send huge butterfly kisses to each of them and ive told Ella to play safe with them im so sorry for yoour loss if u need to talk im always around on my msn, u prob think im sum crazy woman but i know your apain. djtezzap@aol.com is my email and my msn im also i member of a fantastic sit for angel mummys like us. Hope to hear from all my love to all Emma xxx
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