The love of my life and I are expecting our first child together, but we have previous children from prior marriage. Our pregnancy was a huge suprise, and I feel like a true miracle. We are so very excited about it, and I cannot stop thinking of the little one growing inside of me. We have had 2 sonagrams so far, 1 at 7.5 weeks, and 1 at 9.2 weeks, and I am going for my third next week, I will be 11 weeks 5 days, and I cant wait! If it were up to me, I would have a sonagram everyday just to check on the little one hehe. I remember how wonderful it was to hear that little hearbeat for the first time-so amazing.

I have had alot of m/s almost like motion sickness, since about 4 weeks on, and every other symptom in the book. They say some women have no symptoms, some have little, and some have them all, well I am in the "all" category! I feel it is well worth it, and like my midwife said, it just show that your hormones are doing what they are supposed to. I have started(don't want to speak to soon) to feel better, and have more energy on some days, and i am hopeful that this will improve over the next few weeks. I am already showing, and broke down and bought maternity clothes yesterday. The tops will wait for a bit, but the pregnancy pants......oh my what a wonderful invention! Soooo comfortable. I am hoping for a baby girl, my love is hoping for a boy. We will both be happy with a healthy and happy baby first and foremost of course. I can't wait for our next sonagram...........

Ok so I am 11.2 weeks and I feel like I have been hit by the hormone bus. I am soooooooo irritable and cranky today! I think it just makes it so much worse, to be so tired, and sick feeling and have to drag myself to work, when I just want to stay in bed and sleep off the nausea. Everyday irritations have become epic in proportion to me today( I know I am overreacting-I just can't help myself!) I have come to the conclusion that it is what it is, and people just need to stay away from me till I'm feeling just a liiittle bit better. I try and keep a happy face, but it's just downright impossible sometimes!

On a much happier note, I am feeling the baby move now. I know some people might say it is to early, but I have expierience with this, and know the difference between normal belly feelings, and that familiar fluttering. I have no doubt it's baby and that makes me smile no matter how cranky I am ;-). Our sonagram is in three days..... I can't wait!

March 10th 2008.

We had our 3 month sonogram, and the baby was kicking and waving his/her arms, is was the cutest! The heartbeat was 167 bpm(a girl?) and the baby measured exactly to the day of my lmp. The doctor told us everything was completely normal, and the risk of miscarriage was less than 1% now. I feel like I can finally breathe and enjoy being pregnant more now instead of worrying so much. Siiighhhhh I'm in love.....

March 13th 2008

I am having the worst headaches, and they are not letting up at all. I have had one every single day since I don't even remember like 2 weeks ago? I suffered migraines before being pregnant, and was hoping they would ease up with all the hormone changes since I can't take the medications, but no such luck. My OB went to prescribe Fioricet to me today and I told him don't bother I already have a bottle from before I was pregnant , I just didn't know I could take any! I am leary on taking them though, as I have read that there have not been to many studies done, the ones that are documented indicated a rise in fetal brain tumors!.....I just don't feel right taking something with a barbituate and that much caffeine in it while pregnant. I don't know what to do, I can't even think straight anymore my head hurts so bad......

March 16th 2008

12 weeks 4 days, and I feel great! I woke up yesterday and my headache was gone, I was not nauseas, and I actually had energy! I really hope this lasts.........

March 19th 2008

13 weeks today, and I am on bedrest till next week.....I started to have tightness in my abdomen(felt like braxton-hicks) yesterday afternoon. After I called the Doctor's office, and spoke to the nurse, she told me to get off my feet, and drink lots of fluids(I had been doing that all day anyhow) but I went home, and lied down, and drank tons of water, and they still didn't go away, so I went to the E.R. and they ran a litre of fluids and electrolytes through the I.V. and had me lie on my left side for better circulation. The Doctor told me I was not dialated my cervix was hard and closed like it was supposed to be and my uterus felt like it was supposed to. My blood and urine came back normal with no problems. He told me to follow up with my O.B. the next morning and to stay off my feet. So, I called the Doctor's today, and they told me I needed to come in immediatly which of course freaked me out all over again, so I went there right away. They seemed a bit suprised to hear the E.R. Doctor did not even check for the baby's heartbeat, so that is the first thing they did, and it was fast and strong.......what a sigh of relief! Actually, they heard it, and then it stopped, he had to move the doppler around to hear it again, and he said the baby had moved away from it and thats why it had stopped , which made me smile to know the baby is moving all around in there. Everything came back normal again, and could not look better. So I am to rest, no work til next Monday, and if anything changes to go in right away. Now all I have to do is calm my nerves...easier said than done, but I keep telling myself being stressed is bad for the baby, so I need to relax.

March 20th,2008

I needed this rest that is for sure, now that I have slowed down, I realize how much I needed to do it! It is hard working full time, being very sick and tired all the time and still running a household, and being a good lover, mother, daughter, housekeeper etc..... and trying to explain to the people around you that you need a break. It is sad that people don't seem to want to listen until it comes from a Doctor. My man is the greatest in the world, and I think very highly of him, but it is frustrating to me that he just sometimes does not understand at all where I am coming from.( how can he, men dont have babies!) I won't mention the comment my male boss made last week, about things being mind over matter, when I mentioned in passing about not feeling well. All I can think some times is I would love to see a man go through just the first three months of pregnancy-never mind the following 6 months, labor, and then breastfeeding.Then try to tell him, oh it's just mind over matter just think you'll feel better and you will! hehehehe....that would be great. I definetly believe in a positive attitude, and that it does influence how you feel physically and mentally, but I am sorry, morning sicknes is morning sickness and it is no fun! Believe me, if I could make it stop at will I would have. Any how, my morning sickness is sooooo much better now, and the nausea is almost gone, it comes briefly throughout the day, but it is short lived now, and definetly more bearable. I can actually eat veggies without turning green now lol. I am still tired, but I expect that to continue throughout...the biggest complaint I have right now is headaches. I think the worse about it is, I am the type of person, where if I don't stop a headache/migraine with taking something, it does not go away.. it gets worse, and lasts days if not weeks. The tylenol does seem to be holding them off a bit, and well I'll just have to hope they let up a bit. The strange dreams are subsiding a little bit now, but I still have them. My belly is growing, and I can feel the baby move every day now, which is soooo exciting to me! I can't stop thinking about our lil sweetpea :)

March 20th,2008

Ok, so as I griped earlier about my man not understanding me and my misery, he comes home with a dozen pink roses for me, to make me feel better. A few minutes earlier his Mom called to see if I was ok, because he told her I was feeling down. I really like his Mom(lucky for me) she is a very sweet and caring lady. Now I am a blubbering mess, I am so lucky to have him! He is the sweetest guy in the world.....

March 21st,2008

13.2 days today, and I must say I feel fabulous! I haven't felt like this in a long time, I finally made it out of bed, and have had a great day. I ordered a gender prediction test online yesterday(I couldn't help myself I have been on bedrest with my laptop)-which can be dangerous, take the credit cards away! Anyhow, it will probably come next week, and I can't wait to see what is says. All of the old wives tales tests are saying it is a girl, the chinese age predictor thing, the ring on a string etc. I have gone back and forth with what I think it is(I think girl right now) but we won't know for sure til the big day! Our next sonogram is at 20 weeks, and hopefully they can tell us something then. I have been daydreaming of both lol.I did have a dream a couple of weeks ago, about having a baby boy(it was one of the strange ones). I took him out of my belly to play, and then put him back because he wasn't ready lol. As strange as it was, it was definetly a boy! I will be thrilled with a son or daughter for sure.

March 25th, 2008

14 weeks tommorrow, and feeling sooooo much better! I have so much more energy now it's unreal, I actually worked til 9pm tonight, catching up on things. I still get waves of nausea but they pass....and the headaches as less frequent. yippeeeeee hope it lasts. One thing I have noticed is that my chest is growing and growing and growing lol.( guess I can't complain about that) My baby bump is getter bigger and bigger as well, it's great. Mostly everyone knows now so it is easier on me I think...at least people can be a little bit more understanding if I don't feel well. I think about the baby all day, like what the baby will look like, who's features the baby will have....if the spicy dinner I ate bothers the baby lol....a little overboard, but I'm allowed :) Im in love.....

March 27th, 2008

The intelligender test told me we are having a boy!!!!! :))

April 05th,2008.

I definetly have a baby bump going on, and I can feel the baby move at least a few times a day. I got a new car I love it! it was our first purchase taking our little one into account.....as far as room, and safety features etc....very cool :) One more month and we go for the gender sonogram......I can't wait! My next regular appointment is Monday, and I am anxious to go and hear the baby's heartbeat again. Its been a few weeks and as much as I worry, It will be a great relief to know everything is ok.

April 09th,2008

Heard the baby's heartbeat yesterday again, it was in the 150's which makes me soo happy :). I was a little irritated that the midwife seemed to want to get out of there so fast, she was like here's the heartbeat ok buh bye..I was like ummm I have a few questions before you go...? Oh well what can ya do....I have been very irritated by everything lately so I am probably just being overly sensitive. I feel bad for everyone around me(luckily for him my boyfriend is out of town for the week). I am just so moody and I can't help it....one minute I am soo happy about things, the next minute the smallest thing is driving me crazy! I stopped trying to figure out what my problem is at the moment, I just try and be nice, and smile through it......(easier said than done). I am very excited about feeling the baby so much now, he likes to hang out on my right side I know strange....but when I wake up in the morning I can feel the baby bump on my right lower side lol. When the midwife was checking for the heartbeat with the doppler she found him in the same spot lol. I think he just likes that side better-he found a comfy nook lol. I can't wait to find out what the baby's gender is during our next sonogram, I want to be able to pick a name and start addressing him or her that way. It is weird but some days I feel like its a boy other days I feel like it could be a girl. Usually my instincts are right on, but I think I am too close to trust my judgement on that, so we will have to wait and see!

April 10th, 2008

I came across this on a pregnancy website it made me chuckle and feel like a trooper:) I especially love the less likely to vomit part hahahaha-hey if I can't joke about it.....I had to post it......aahhhh the joys........

The fourth month is the month that many women start to "feel pregnant." If you experienced any physical symptoms during your first trimester of pregnancy, they will likely decrease or go away. Physically, you may still be fatigued, feel constipated, have indigestion, heartburn, flatulence, or bloating, and experience occasional headaches and dizziness, but you will not need to urinate as frequently, you will feel less nauseated and be less likely to vomit, and your breasts will not feel as tender but will continue to grow. Out with the old, and in with the new:

New symptoms that you may experience include:

• nasal congestion and occasional nosebleeds
• ear stuffiness
• bleeding gums
• increase in your appetite
• mild swelling in your ankles, feet, hands, and face
• varicose veins in your legs and/or hemorrhoids
• a slight whitish vaginal discharge (leukorrhea)
• clumsiness

• Emotional Symptoms

  Your emotions are likely to still swing back and forth between joy, apprehension, irritability, etc. It is common to feel frustrated and self-conscious about your body when they don't fit into your regular clothes but are still too small for maternity clothes. You may also feel like your head is a kite--it is normal to be forgetful, drop things, and have trouble concentrating.

• April 13th, 2008. Ok so I just wrote a whole blog and it didnt save, it totally erased itself grrrrrr. So I am just going to say, that today I feel that it is a girl. we will see........

• April 24th,2008 My belly is definetly getting bigger, and I feel the baby move all the time now. Ill wake up sometimes and there is more of a lump on one side of my belly usually the right side lol. It's like baby gets balled up on one side. So I have had trouble sleeping, sinus problems, and have been way grouchy-I have sooo much to be greatful for, and i am, but I just can't help being in such a mood sometimes. I think it has to do with all of the changes going on all at once. It can be overwhelming, even if they are all good changes. I want so much to be able to take it easy when I need to, and trying to work 40 hrs a week is killing me. That was hard to admit but I finally am and it's true. I am a perfectionist and it is very hard not being able to keep up with everything- I realize baby is most important right now so with that in mind, I want to be able to rest when I need to-for the baby's sake, and alot of times I can't(even though I am missing more work than I should already). In the end it is all worth it, and I would do it all over again, but it is very hard for me to slow down! We go for our gender sonogram May 12th, I can't wait!! I see alot of ladies finding out already, and we were tempted to just go and buy one, but we are going to wait. My Doctor likes to do it between 20 and 22 weeks. I will be 21 weeks when we go. We will be doing the 4d one around 7 months or so-for fun only. All I can say is I really can't wait to see what our little one looks like now, to know if everything is ok, and to know if we are going to have a son or daughter!

• May 10th,2008 Well, I am already halfway through week 20 already....I can't believe it. We find out in two days what the baby will be(hopefully). I just cannot wait to see him/her again. It will be a great day after mother's day present hehe. Of course being who I am, I am still worried, and just want to hear the Doctor say everything is normal. I am getter bigger by the day it seems, and the baby is growing up past my belly button now. I feel movement all the time now, and stronger by the day. I feel movement on both sides of my abdomen at the same time, like both hands and feet are going at the same time. It seems the baby sleeps at night, I have not been woken up yet by kicks(only having to pee 5 times a night). Its so funny now when I lie on my side, and roll over, I have to do it slowly so I dont cramp up, and I can feel the baby sliding over to the other side of my belly, and then the little flutters, like I woke him/her up. ( I can't wait til I can say him or her- it is annoying saying him/her lol). So far for names, our favorites are Caiden Joseph for a boy, or Emily (not sure on the middle) for a girl. We are not set on them yet, and have been waiting for the ultrasound to decide on any names, and nursery themes etc..I did come across an adorable baby zen nursery theme, but Mike doesn't like it....so back to the drawing board. After Monday we can start deciding I cant wait I cant wait I cant wait.......

• May 12th 2008 20 weeks 6 days....It's a boy!!!

• May 15th 2008 today is our anniversary-:) we are keeping it low key as family is coming into town for the week tonight. There is so much to do!! Now that we know it is a boy, I feel like OMG we HAVE to find a name and get alllll the baby stuff now. (I think I am nesting just a wee bit) Is there any way to stop being sooo neurotic or is it normal to be like this now? I get so uptight about the littelest things right now and I think it is because I want everything to be settled and ready for when baby comes.....no rushing around to get things together.....so I am off to go baby shopping ;)