July 23 - went to the dr today... I have gained 21 lbs this pregnancy so far. The heartbeat sounds great, measuring just fine, head is down still, no issues. Had the strep test done today and a super quick ultrasound. Why the dr thought I would want a penis shot over a head shot has me wondering... men! The dr will check to see if I am dialating at all at my August 13 appointment. Seems so far away. I could have him by then. Hopefully not, but possible. My youngest was born at 37 weeks. Went shopping tonight and got his little brother a gift - yes, he has a bother due 10 days after he is due. Took the girls to Coldstone for an icecream treat after the apponitment. It was a good day... I love being pregnant!

July 19 - Why can't people keep their comments to themselves? Guess this chick has been dead on numerous times about the sex of peoples babies and when they will be born... She said you are having a boy huh? Yup. I bet you will have in 10 days! WTF - I mean WTH? 10 days!?!?! My mom will be in Arizona, the baby's dad will be away at military training and I will only be 36 weeks! Serious? So now I feel like crazy girl has cursed me and I need to be cleaning and packing and organizing instead of going to bbq parties and hiking. AHG!!!!!! I have not had BH's since 2nd trimester that I have noticed... He is still very active. Holy moly.... Again, why do people not keep their comments to themselves?????

June 14 - This is too funny................. I am rubbing my tummy and talking to the baby "Baby Kasen, where are youuuuuu??? Where did you goooooo?" And my oldest daughter answers me with "Well, he couldn't have far!!!!! LOLLLLLL!!!!!!

June 8 - going on 29 weeks! I am loving being pregnant! My baby boy is getting so big and I have gained a ton of weight. 19 pounds already, ugh. We had our hospital tour for siblings yesterday. I am not wanting to be done with the pregnant part yet, but when I saw the tiny footprints hanging on the birth room doors I have to admit I got excited... I do not think Taylor will be with me when the baby is born and that makes me sad. I don't really feel that I need him there, but I would think that he would do all that he could to be there the day his son drew his first breath. But, I will just continue to pray about it and trust that God has a plan. I would really like to get some of that nesting energy! I have so much organizing to do and things to get done, but am lacking the energy. I really hope I get it done!

Is anyone else huge this far along? I am pretty short waisted so it is crazy that he is so high on me. He already takes up my whole belly. His little head is down so the hiccups feel kinds funny now. But I love it when he crosses his little feet (at least that is what I think he is doing) and tickles me. There are definately days when he is more active that others. I am ALWAYS rubbing my belly. I just love being pregnant with my baby boy!!!!

May 19 - I am already getting sad when I think about only being pregnant for 14 more weeks... This is probably my last baby and I love being pregnant. I don't want to share my baby boy yet (kinda kidding). Got super sunburned this weekend and even used spf 15! Guess my pregnant skin is more sensitive.

Have not talked to the baby's dad since last week. Obviously he doesn't want much to do with the pregnancy even if he does plan on being an involved dad. This has me a little depressed, but that's alright. My baby already has plenty of love right here!

I have soooo much to do before the baby is born, but am really lacking the motivation.

April 28 - My baby boy is sure active today and boy do I ever love it! I bought a digital scrapbooking program that I figure will be great for my pregnancy and once Kasen is here. It is called Scrapbook Factory Deluxe. Please let me know if you have used it and what you think. I am much more digital than actually sitting down and cutting a bunch of stuff out.

The weather is beautiful, so the girls and I are going to take Roxy and Lola for a walk then BBQ some steak. I must be needing the iron right now. Ugh - had some pain on the walk in my lower abs and lower back. Not hard though like contractions. Guess it is just my body adjusting. The kids were cute and kept asking if I needed to take a break. What little sweethearts!

I am so excited to have met some really cool people on this website! From people who seem really laid back and make me laugh, to others who have dated men in the same profession as my baby's dad, people who seem to be able to share so much, and people who need some guidance. I am blessed. :O)

April 27 - Saw Taylor today with his family at church today and it got me worked up. We have really created a sticky situation. He didn't even look like himself at all! It was nice to see him with his family though. I just hope he will love Kasen as much as he loves his other kids. I am sure he will. Thankfully he is a GREAT daddy.

April 26 - I have been busy organizing Kasen's room today. His bedding and decor arrive on Tuesday and knowing me I will want to take it out of the boxes, wash it, and put it all out right away! :O) Paining a little shelf with cow print and will put wooden letter on or above it using the colors from his bedding set to paint them.

I am getting jealous when I read about so many mommies talk about their babies moving all of the time. I feel Kasen a few times throughout the day. Mostly gentle little movements, hiccups, and a few impressive kicks. Thinking about maybe renting a fetal dobbler so I can check on him... I know he is okay, but sometimes I worry.

Scheduled my 4D ultrasound for my 28th week, only 2 days before my baby shower. I can't wait to see my baby boy on the big screen!!!

4/26 evening... Saw Kasen's daddy today with his family. That was tough. I don't even want to get started thinking about my baby boy somewhere else on Christmas once a year or any of that. I totally started bawling the other day when it first crossed my mind. But church was about God being there through the messy and the beautiful... and that his blood was shed for US! I am seeing the beautiful - the blessing of being pregnant with my beautiful baby boy and the wonderful daughters I have. Thank you, God. I am also going through some junk and thank God for the lessons and story he is telling... He IS with me always, even when I am broken and a mess.

April 22 - I ordered Kasen's nursery set last night from www.babymania.com. Super cute! BUT it was going to take 4-8 weeks to ship. No way, I am way too impatient. So, called to cancel and ordered it from www.babysupermall.com and will get it next week. I can't wait to start working on his room. Went and bought him his first pair of Nikes today and a couple of little outfits. It is so hard not to! Planning on getting registered this weekend at Babies R Us with my old roommate who is also pregnant, but due in July with a baby girl. I think it will be fun to go together and bounce ideas off of each other. Maybe even take some pics of us shopping! ;O) Baby Kasen is kicking around while I am typing. I think he wants mommy to go shopping too! LOL!

I go to the doctor next week. Hopefully I am not gaining too much weight since I was already on the bigger size before the pregnancy. But if so OH WELL! I am LOVING being pregnant and it is all worth it.

22 weeks - Finally got internet at home so I can do more pregnancy searches and kind of keep up on this site. It is sooo addicting! ;o) Baby Kasen is sure active. Kicking away during church today. I love that his movements are getting stronger and that I am feeling them more frequently. He is getting to be a big boy already! Both of Kasen's sisters have now felt him. The youngest felt a kick or two and the oldest felt him get the hiccups. When I asked her to describe what it felt like she said "like your heart beating through your stomach". How cute is that??? What a perfect description - he is definately a part of my heart. :o)

My dad is being discharged from the hospital today. He had colon cancer surgery on Monday. Thankfully he is doing great walking around and eating now. Hopefully the chemo will get rid of all of it and Dad will be back to himself in no time. Please keep him in your prayers. He is the most amazing man-so giving and loving and strong.

Hoping to take some more pregnant belly pictures tonight. I don't have many from before, so I am really trying to make an effort with the last half of the pregnancy. A bit hard though since my daughter is the one taking the pictures for me. Although, don't you agree that she does a fabulous job for a 5th grader? (Thanks, baby....)

21 weeks - Baby Boy has a name! Okay, so I admit it his his name RIGHT NOW, because I am always changing my mind... But as of right now his name is Kasen Dean. What do you think? Another gal on the site is naming her son Kason, but I like the e. And his middle name is my dad's middle name. Kasen is uncommon, but similar to Jason, so not too crazy.

It is a pretty emotional stressful time right now. Kasen's dad and I are not in the ideal situation. He has some issues at home. Ugh. Kasen is THE most important factor right now. He is so precious and deserves to have both of us love him as much as we do. So, I am praying for patience and trust in the Lord because I know he has a plan and everything will work out in His time the way He has planned.

20 weeks - Baby Boy sure is moving a lot more! I LOVE being pregnant. Still have only felt him kick my hand 2 times. Can't wait for Daddy and the girls to feel it too.

19 weeks - Only 3 days until we get to find out if we are having a girl or a boy! I can not wait!!!!!

We found out on April 1 at that we are having a BABY BOY! I cried! I had no idea how much I apparently wanted a son. Taylor said "See, I told you!" We could not be more excited. He is so beautiful and perfect! He even waved to us during the ultrasound. I cried, it was so amazing - as if the little guy was telling us he loves us and is okay. The tech had to tilt me upside down on the table to get him in the necessary position for the remainder of the required images. Kinda silly. Gave Taylor a ride back to the computer shop after that to meet his oldest son. It was so great that he was there with me and our baby boy... even though he WAS a few minutes late! Grrrr....

Finally took pregnant belly pictures. They turned out pretty good. Nothing near professional, but still super fun and the big sissy took them, so they are even more special. Hoping to have professional pics done in the 8th month.

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The song that makes me cry thinking about my baby boy, Kasen...... I love it!!!!

written by Babyface (1997)
performed by Babyface


'Twas late December the news came
And I got so excited, I cried all day
And you were such a lovely, precious site
When I saw our baby in your eyes

It was like falling deep in love
I heard the angels cry above
I felt a blessing straight from God
The day that you gave me a son

I called 'bout everyone I knew
Just think, I'll be a father 'cause of you
There's no greater love than what you gave
A brand new baby on the way

HOOK

Oh such tears of joy, I've never known
I can't remember
It's like a song, I've never heard
I've never sung, but know the words

HOOK