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	Age: 20 Country: US Province/region: North carolina City: Charlotte Partner: Brandon Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: No Due date: 05 May ,2008 Occupation: Full-Time Student and Piano Player
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My New Start




Life is to short to wake up in the morning
With regrets, so love the people who treat you right
And forget the ones that don’t and believe that everything
Happens for a reason.
If you get a chance take it
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said that it’d be easy
They just promised it would be worth it

Could it be a Lima Bean?
(Finding Out I'm Pregnant)

What can I say...I'm not going to lie and say this pregnancy was planned, because It wasn't. But I do know that we had a miscarriage once two years ago and since then we haven't made any plans. This is how I decided to check and see....
I'm a college student in my junior year and I also stay on campus :-( but... :-). I found myself being suddenly jumping out of my sleep and the bed about twice a night. I also started to get very organized about things and the little things of nature would make me cry....such as a cool breeze across my face....Yeah! So...I went to Wal-Mart and got a pregnancy test. Took it as soon as I got back...and behold..a faint "yes" I'm pregnant line. I told my boyfriend and he said, "Okay, when are you going to the doctor to make sure?" No joke, that was a surprise because he is usually negative about things. We are now receiving free medical assistance for 20 weeks of pregnancy at a wonderful place called Women's Hope Medical Clinic. He went with me there to my first and second visit. When the nurse said that I definitely was pregnant he smiled sooooo big and hugged me. I immediately felt like a little girl in his arms. This negative boyfriend was being so helpful and positive. So far I'm 14 weeks and 5 days pregnant based on the first and last ultrasound thus far. I will be moving from women's hope to a doctor that they have establish me with after my 20th weeks. I've had little morning sickness, threw up only once from Orange Juice which I love, and a marathon of running to the bathroom to tinkle. God Bless you all and may he bless me also!





7 weeks and 5 day Ultrasound


Look at my little lima bean!

Monday, 5 Nov

I'm waiting on my belly to start getting the round look! 13 weeks and 4 days, and just a lump-lump at the bottom. Guess I should enjoy this time.

Tuesday, 6 Nov

Awww mannn, it just hit me...I can't seem to wear my clothes anymore. Don't feel like I've gained much at all, but how my buttock fit in my pants tells it all. Maternity Clothes....here I come to rescue you from the store!

Friday, 9 Nov

Well, this morning I woke up to a series of quick little jumps in my lower stomach. I hope it's the baby. That didn't feel close to any kind of gas I've ever had. LOL



Tuesday, 13 Nov
Well, I had never told yall anything about the daddy, but he's truly in the picture. I just can't stand him at times. And he's the only person I can't stand at times. I've been with him for 3 years now and we are in love. Marriage hasn't come yet and I'm not going to rush it although I would like to. On the other hand, I just recently had a pap and everything came back fine. I also thought I had the Staph Infection thats going around because I developed three risens on my legs in one weeks time. How painful, I didn't even go to class because two of them got extremely huge. But no staph! My next appt. is on Dec. 1. and I still won't find out what I'm having just yet. :-( It doesn't matter, I just want to know so I can tell the world and start buying things.

Tuesday, 20 Nov

I JUST DON'T FEEL PREGNANT ANYMORE, BUT I KNOW SOMETHING IS IN THERE BECAUSE I FEEL A FEW LITTLE FLUTTERS EVERY TWO TO THREE DAYS. WELL...DEC. 1 IS TAKING SO LONG TO GET HERE.

Saturday, 1 Dec

Okay...I'm so happy now. Just got back from my prenatal appt. and they found the heartbeat. I was so nervous because I bought one of those heartbeat monitors you can use at home last week and I couldn't find it the heartbeat. BUT...I could feel movements. However, the fact that I couldn't hear the heartbeat myself made me very unsure of what I was feeling. I go to find out what I'm having on next Monday (DEC.10) Hooray! I'm ready. Also...today was my last visit at Women's Hope. They are wonderful people and I'm going to miss them. They gave me a big book for child care up to five years of age and a nice white, knitted blanket with lace. Next date...I can't wait! Oh...also the heartbeat was 158 bpm.

Friday, 7 Dec

Yesterday, I was with two of my friends and someone came along and kicked their door really hard. It scared all three of us...including the little one in me (makes four). After we got scared 15 seconds later, my little lima bean started kicking in me furiously for about 20 seconds. It was so cute I was scared to move. I told my friends and they placed their hands on my lower stomach and behold....they snatched their hands aways. It was their first time feeling it. I think I have a serious sports player--girl or boy.

Sunday, 9 Dec

One more day...I think I've been patient enough. The 'what you having' ultrasound is tomorrow. Hopefully, the baby cooperates! My mom is going with me because my boyfriend has to work. Want momma to see the surprise. She haven't got the chance to go with me yet. I'm going to have the people record the ultrasound (since they do have the equipment) so that my boyfriend can guess what it is himself. He always says it doesn't matter to him so I wanna see how much of an eye he has for locating the baby's parts. I will update you all on tomorrow....Hopefully with the news of a boy or girl!

MONDAY, DEC 10

WELL, TODAY I HAD MY SECOND ULTRASOUND! MOM DID GO WITH ME. AND THE LAB TECH WAS SOOO NICE. SHE ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO KNOW WHAT IT WAS AND I IMMEDIATELY SAID YES. SO AFTER APPLYING THE GEL AND PUTTING THE SCANNER ON MY BELLY...THE LADY SAID....IT'S GOT THOSE LEGS WIDE OPEN. IN MY MIND I'M SAYING, "WELL TELL ME WHAT IT IS." THEN WITH ASSURANCE ON HER FACE SHE SAID," IT'S A GIRL AND SHE SURE IS DANCING AWAY." SOOO..IT'S A GIRL! THAT'S GONNA SOFTEN UP MY BOYFRIEND HEART WHEN SHE ARRIVES. MY MOM SAID THAT SHE MIGHT BE MUSICALLY INCLINED BECAUSE WHEN I GET FINISHED PLAYING THE PIANO AND SINGING AT CHURCH...SHE STARTS TO MOVE.

Saturday, 15 Dec

Well...last night...this lil growing girl was just kicking away when I was trying to go to sleep. She was reminding me to call her daddy. He always talk to her over the speakerphone put to my tummy before 10 o'clock. So,at 10:05pm I had to call him...and guess what? Felt like she did a somersault. But afterwards, off to sleep I went with no problems. Guess she's gonna be a daddy's girl.

Tuesday, 18 Dec

Well, I found out yesterday at my appt. that I have a UTI(urinary tract infection ), in which I knew I was getting. Story: The lab tech said it was the round ligament pains I was experiencing and gave me a pamphlet about it. Didn't need it. After I left...the nurse called and said I had a UTI. I knew it. But, tell me why this happens...you don't really start hurting or having symptoms of something until it is diagnosed. I was in pain. But today...I feel better and I'm off to get something to eat. I'm thinking cheese grits and a buttermilk waffle from the Waffle House with a orange Juice on the side. Oh, I don't eat much meat.

Tuesday, 8 Jan

Yeaaa...today,no problems so far.Test came back negative for any abnormalities. I go back in exactly one week to take the glucose test to check for gestational diabetes. Her heartbeat was 130bpm.

Wednesday, 16 Jan

Well Ladies...I passed my Glucose Test with a 123 after spending 3 nights in the hospital with a kidney infection and fever and getting pumped with many bags of antibiotics and fluid. Baby was doing well the entire time and heartbeat was strong thumping although she seemed to slow her movements on the second day.

Monday, 21 Jan

Hello...I received a call this morning from the first place I was free receiving prenatal care (Women `s Hope) and I was asked if I want to participate in the childbirth classes thats going to start next month. I said yeaah...take to mind I `m already going to a different set of childbirth classes next month that me and Brandon are signed up for. At least they are on different days. But the good thing about this one from the Women `s Hope is that it `s only three sessions and if you attend all three...you get a free car seat. That was enough said. I `m going because I need all the practice I CAN GET without just reading and hearing about it. So that leaves two more car seats to buy due to my mom wanting one for her own car and one to put in my boyfriends car. However, I shouldn`t worry because I know either Brandon or my mom is going to buy the stuff anyways. I've only been buying cute clothes off the clearance racks of Dillard `s and JcPenny `s and buying pampers w/every coupon I can get my hands on. Sound Cheap? I know BUT...that `s going to help save money before she gets here so I can spoil her. Toodles!

Thursday, 24 Jan

Okay...I went to my prenatal appt. on Tuesday the 22nd. Everything was fine. I no long have any sighs of a UTI or Kidney Infection (Thank God). My BF Brandon is in T-Total support now. At first he would get these stupid mood swings himself and blame it on my attitude, but it was my hormones and I think he had a few hormone problems too. Honestly! On the other hand...when the nurse was checking for our little girl `s heartbeat...she kept moving from her constantly and turning her back to her. So her heartbeat sounded very far off and couldn `t get an accurate one. the nurse then decided she was gonna corner her and she did so by pressing st the top of my uterus and placing the monitor down low on my left side. (Take note...my baby loves to be on my right side and in the middle.) As soon as she got the heartbeat it was extremely loud and hard and FAST...168. My little bean then kicked really, really hard like 4 or 5 times. The nurse said you must be having a boy. I laughed and said, `No, It `s a Girl and she don `t like to be pressed on. ` The nurse said that she might be a tomgirl cause ain `t nothing nice about this baby. That almost made me mad, but I said she gets it from her momma. LOL

Thursday, 24 Jan

THIS IS GETTING SO FUN...I HOPE MY DELIVERY IN THREE MORE MONTHS GOES WELL BECAUSE THIS PREGNANCY HAS BEEN GREAT. I WAS PREGNANT THE START OF NY JUNIOR YEAR HERE AT AUBURN AND I `M STILL IN SCHOOL RIGHT NOW BARELY SHOWING AND NO SICKNESS. HANGING THERE IS NO PROBLEM RIGHT NOW. HOWEVER, I ` STARTING TO BELIEVE THAT SHE FIGHTS THE NURSE BECAUSE SHE CAN HEAR HERSELF MOVE ON THE SPEAKER OF THE MONITOR. I JUST FINISHED PLAYING WITH HER NOW FROM 2:45-3:15PM AND SHE `S REALLY SMART..AT LEAST I THINK SO. CHECK THIS...I `LL PRESS ON ONE SIDE OF MY STOMACH AND THEN SHE KICKS AND MOVES TO THE OTHER SIDE. I `LL PRESS OVER THERE AND SHE `LL KICK AND MOVE AGAIN. THEN SHE GOT TIRED OF PLAYING CATCH ME IF YOU CAN AND DECIDED TO TRICK ME. SHE STOPPED MOVING/KICKING AND I PUT MY HAND IN THE CENTER OF MY LITTLE BUMP AND SHE DECIDED SHE WOULD DO THE MERMAID. FELT LIKE SHE WAS ROLLING HER BODY...BETTER YET I THINK SHE WAS JUST HITTING AND KICKING AT THE SAME TIME WHICH MADE ME WONDER WHERE HER HANDS AND FEET WERE LOCATED EXACTLY. LOL CUTE!

Wednesday, 30 Jan

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! Yep, today is my B-day and now I `m 20. I `m out of the teenage years which kinda skipped by anyways. I stayed 18 and 19 forever though. Still not quite legal yet. Next year (21) will be a celebration over a wine cooler and margarita!

Sunday, 3 Feb

My God...I just had my first noticeable episode of edema(swelling). I had to pry my class ring off of my right hand ring finger and put in on my left ring finger (Yeah, Im not engaged or married...YET!)I felt bad because it use to be to big for that finger. Then as I got up from the sofa at my moms `...and put my feet in my wore down shoes...D*mn...too tight! Both feet had swollen up. (As another note: I `m laying down on an air mattress that feels better than my college bed and my left arm keeps getting numb from the elbow up to my finger tips). Well, good news is that it `s not in my face yet. Hope it doesn `t get there at all. However...my bump doesn `t even look like a bump. It looks the same almost as the picture above of me at 13 weeks. It `s just slightly bigger. I have a few STRETCH MARKS coming in on my side which weren `t there yesterday morning. My boyfriend has been working 6-7 days a week for overtime and tonight (actually early morn) he `s going in at 2am to work a 12 hour shift. I feel bad because I really could of had a job to help. Anyways...I didn `t think it would be needed because I stay on campus and not with him and his folks. I play the piano which is a pay check every week to get me by and buy a few things for the baby every week. But...he is really a true blessing for me. I don `t have to worry about gas or extra groceries that WIC doesn `t get. And he is so into putting his little girl into EckoRed and Polo outfits, and other clothing that says Daddy thinks this and Daddy `s girl, and Daddy `s Princess. He doesn `t know how to shop the clearance racks (I DO). And if I say something...his response is, `Well, you don `t have to buy it and that `s what I work and put in overtime for...to buy like I want to. Problem? ` Hell yeah..it `s a problem. Buy me a damn ring. Or get an apartment so that when she gets here, mommy and daddy won `t toss her from household to household like family `s favorite crockpot. He gets mad when I want to name her Braz `lyn Ja `Niyah because it has his initials. He want her to be original (Not like Him) and name her La `Niyah for the first name. I told him that I have to fill out the birth certificate and paper work, therefore, if she comes out of me looking like Braz `lyn...that `s going to be her name. We both have our ways, and mines change every so often, but I love Brandon til death and he might just win in the end of naming our little girl.



Monday, Feb.
Tomorrow I have another appointment. I think they have already started me coming in every two weeks because my last appt. was exactly two weeks ago. Everything has been going pretty good. However, the baby girl is getting much stronger. I was kinda struggling with walking today...a little sore at the bottom of my stomach from all the kicking. I can tell her bones are hardening because it seems like she puts her elbow into my right side all of the time. Kinda cute, but not the best feeling. I think she should just stick to kicking instead of nudging her momma.

Sunday, 24 Feb

Well...my boyfriend thinks I `m starving his baby that lives inside of me. He got mad because I said that I haven `t ate and wasn `t going to eat anything. He then hung up on me and I called him back ten minutes later when he said he would call me back because he was getting some gas. Then someone knocked on my door, so I got dressed to go answer and it was him with a large BACON pizza. Why bacon? Does he want me to get huge? He said that I need to eat because I have been to careful about my weight and he doesn't want his baby coming out skinny. I told him that she will look like him then, because he is very slim. I know that I have been eating only a sausage & cheese biscuit in the mornings, a salad for lunch, and a salad or grilled chicken wrap for dinner. I kind feel bad because I have been cutting back a lot because I have already gained at least 30-35 pounds and its all in my behinny and hips. I `m going to totally breastfeed, so maybe that will help out a ton like everyone says it will.

Wednesday, 27 Feb

Yesterday...me and my boyfriend got into a big argument. Then he wanted his clothes and I withheld them. Thank God he doesn `t put his hands on me because he took some blows to the chest and the back from me. I gave him the clothes. Then I told him he left his phone charger. He came back to get it too, but I wouldn `t because he called me out a name. So finally he left because I wouldn `t let him in. He later said that he didn `t want to be with me anymore. I just said okay which seem to make him spill out his heart. I never realized he cared so much. He told me that when we first met three years ago that he was so happy to see me and be with me. He say to see me coming brightened up the room and I was his moon and stars. He even brought back to my knowledge about the fact that he stopped smoking marijuana because I asked him to and that he slowed down with the cigarettes because I asked him to. It hurt me so much to hear all of that, because really I have been insecure lately. I feel that I `m not the same anymore because I `ve gained weight, and jumping down his throat for talking to his female cousin which is a direct connection to other women. However, he said that he will be here for his little girl. God knows I want him here for me too and I believe that it `s only a matter of time before he says I was just mad at you and you still my plum! Right now I `m hoping that he comes with me to the last session of this birth class. We are suppose to get a free car seat tonight and I want him to pick it out :-)

Friday, 29 Feb

So much for spilling out his heart. We aren `t together anymore I guess. He doesn `t talk to me, just text and it `s all a bunch of crap. He said I don `t trust him and that `s the cause of him leaving. Well, I love him, but I `mm try to move right along with this. I `m almost at the end.

Monday, 3 Mar

I just don `t know. It `s amazing how your page can turn from all baby to your baby `s father. Anyways...he texted me yesterday to see if I was okay and if I needed anything. My answer was no! Although I wanted to say I need you, I just kept it precise so he would feel like an ass and think about the stress he has caused the past few days. However, he wanted to talk last night(about 10:30 pm) before he went to sleep. He didn `t said anything. So, I played sleepy and called it a night. Today, was a little better, but he told me he wasn `t ready to see me just yet. Honestly, I think he realized his mistake. He knows I `m capable of moving along right now without him. So, I texted him and asked if he wanted a FAMILY so I will know my boundaries? His response was...wtf are you talking about...you with someone else or something? Then he also responded, if I dont? if I do want a family?...answer both of the questions. I simply told him that she `s our baby, but if he didn `t want a family, I will be sure to date/marry a MAN that will love this baby as she was his own child. And if he wants a family, that no one can come between that and he would be the only father she would have to go to besides God. After that message, he called about 5 minutes later...again NOT saying anything. He asked what was I talking about, and then it all boils down to... `It just hit him that this stuff is really, really real. ` And that he doesn `t know what to do. Still no response on if he wanted us to be a family or not. He had told me earlier that he had to go in at 2am again to work a 12 hour shift, so I politely told him to get some sleep so he can make it to work on time. He was hanging on by a thread anyway. As I sit here and think...this doesn `t seem that real to me besides her pushing the laptop off of her right now, or when she rolls over and I see my tummy create a tsunami, or my right hip seems like it `s broken when I lay a certain way, or I give out of breath from walking up 4-6 steps. Oh...it `s becoming real alright...i just wish Mr. Brandon could `ve carried her when I got to the half way mark. ;-)

Wednesday, 12 Mar

Well...today I had another appointment and this one was so good even( ahem..even though i had problems). To start...checked my weight:-( , pee in the cup, and then checked my blood pressure(that was the problem). It was 143/77. So the nurse made me sit there for about 10 minutes. She checked it again and it went up higher (155/88). She was shocked, so she got a room ready for me and had me lay down for another 10 minutes. The the joy of the day came when a nurse practioner/midwife came in that I had never met. She was so nice. She even told me that my baby was already head down and that she might turn back, but she didn `t think the baby would because of how high and snug her legs were. Heartbeat was 152 and nothing irregular detected by listening. I `m measuring right on schedule. She check my blood pressure and it went down slightly, but not enough to say I was in the clear. This is what made my day....the nurse/midwife did something that no other nurse pract. had done before.....she took a seat:-D. The others that would check me only checked the baby heartbeat and measured my uterus, hand me my next appointment, and out the door they go. Not this lady. She was awesome. I even got a note this time recommending that I get closer parking on this campus. Whew! So much better...I have already taken advantage of that and I have my parking pass. I have to go back in next week on the 19th for another prenatal check up because of my blood pressure. I might be going in every week until I have her, unless my blood pressure goes back to norm.

Thursday, 27 Mar

READY TO SEE IF I HAVE DIALATED AT ALL>>>BELLY IS MUCH BIGGER NOW>>>BABGY GIRL CAN `T MOVE AS MUCH, BUT SHE HAS SUCCESS IN DOING SO>>>LOOKING FOR AN APARTMENT (TRYING TO SEE IF BOYFRIEND AND I WILL BENEFIT FROM STAYING TOGETHER! NEXT APPOINTMENT IS NEXT THURSDAY, APRIL, 3.>>>HERE WE GO!!!

Wednesday, 09 April

Baby Shower is this Saturday! My mom and MIL is giving it for me. It's going to be a big shower...expecting at least 20 people and 40 at the most. I can't wait! I hope it is as fun as everybody elses.

Thursday, 24 April

Saw this on a forum:

I Jade, am formally evicting you, the child, from my womb, effective as soon as possible, preferrably by thanksgiving, but definitely before the end of the month (hopefully), as rent is due on the first and the premises will need to be vacated before then as I shall not be accepting any more illness and discomfort as payment. As this has been a week to week lease, I hope you will have no problems accomidating the wishes of me, the landlord. Futhermore, if you are not out by the first week of December, I will be forced to look in to measures to forcefully remove you from the premises in accordance with all recognized safe medical practices. If you have any questions or concerns, please present yourself face to face in person by exiting the womb so that we can discuss them. I appreciate the time you have chosen my body as a residency, and I will give you a good reference as you transition to the next phase of your life. Sincerely, Jade (your mother)

Wednesday, April 29

5 days until my due date! How nice! I went to the doctor yesterday. Here's my pregress: 1cm dilated and 50% effaced. Not much, but it's a start. The nurse thinks that my labor will move sort of fast because of my pelvic structure. We'll see. My navel is so obvious in a T-shirt. Walking on campus is not a joke, but at least I don't get those..."you're about to pop" comments. :-p my bf is so loving these days. He just can't keep his hands off of my rear end (honey baked ham) and my tummy! He's even talking marriage...not now, but somewhere in the near future before we get and move into our own place together. Anyways...other than the pressure when I walk...today I can really, really breathe easy. I can feel my baby girl moving right near the top of my bikini line( LOL...can't wear one of those though). Feels strange, but makes me think she trying to come out.

Friday, May 02

I'M SO READY TO GET THIS OVER WITH. NOT BECAUSE I'M TIRED...I HAVE PLENTY OF ENERGY. IT'S JUST THAT I WANT TO SEE MY BABY GIRL, LEARN HER PERSONALITY, AND SEE WHAT A CHARACTER SHE CAN BE. WHO DOES SHE LOOK LIKE? DOES SHE HAVE BIG CAT EYES LIKE HER DAD OR SLANTED WALNUTS LIKE ME? VERY SLIM LIKE DAD OR CURVY LIKE ME? GOOD HAIR OR IF SHE HAS ANY AT ALL? 7 LBS OR 8 LBS? QUIET OR LOUD? MEAN OR NICE? ALWAYS SMILING OR JUST LOOKING? THIS IS WHY I'M SO READY TO MEET HER (FOR THIS TO BE OVER WITH). I PRAY THAT THIS DOESN'T GO OVER A WEEK FROM NOW. WITH THE CONTRACTIONS I HAD LAST NIGHT...I THOUGHT THAT COULD HAVE BEEN IT, BUT I KNOW MY BODY VERY WELL NOW. I KNEW SHE WASN'T COMING. HOWEVER, THOSE CONTRACTIONS MADE HER VERY ACTIVE AFTERWARDS TO THE POINT WHERE BRANDON WAS LAUGHING. I COULDN'T CONTROL IT. BRAZLYN LA'NIYAH PHILPOT OR BRAZLYN LA'NIYAH ARIELLE PHILPOT.PROBABLY THE FIRST ONE...WE WILL SEE!