2006

Me and Daddy started dating!

Around August 15-25 2007(around daddys Birthday)

We conceived our little one!!

September 27th, 2007: How I found out

Hello everyone I wanted to share my coming to know I was pregnant story and it includes traveling. Me and my boyfriend were involved in a car accident where I was indeed wearing my seatbelt. We were driving down the highway when we were cut off by a drunk driver who lost control in our lane and caused us to have to swerve and then hit the median at about 65mph. We both were taken to the trauma hospital to be checked out. They kept asking if I was pregnant and I was like no. I was laying on my back with a neck brace on unable to move and feeling lots of pain from three broken ribs and a cracked sternum when they told me they couldnt give me any meds because I might be pregnant from my urine test. I was shocked and couldn't even react.. what a way to find out huh. They did a blood test.. and yup indeed I was. I had to call my boyfriend on the phone to his hospital room to tell him... we both started crying in joy and from being afraid. I got everything checked out and the baby was ok. If I didn't wear my seatbelt that day I might not be here.. and neither would my baby. I just thought that was a crazy story I wanted to share.. Hope all your travels are safe.

December 20th 2007 (19wks)

Doctors appointment.. I heard my baby's heartbeat its the most adorable and special thing in the world. I'm so excited.. I can't belive that i've gained over 15 pnds. I dont feel like it looking at myself.. I guess its all boobs and baby.. Maybe a little extra holliday cushion. LoL. I have an Ultrasound on the 27th I can't wait. Hopefully baby will lift up the umbi cord and show off the goods!! :} Brian is hoping for a boy.. I've been thinking Its a boy.. but I would be just as happy with a girl. I'm so excited. I catch myself just stopping and wiping a tear from my eyes every now and then. Its really happening... we are really having this baby.

December 22nd-23rd 2007

I noticed that I have some stretch marks on my breast. Funny baby!! I feel like I'm pregnant in my boobs. I mean jeez how much does baby think she/he needs to eat. LOL. I'm gonna have E's by the time these things are done growing. Amazing!

Really starting to feel baby moving.. Baby is doing the Jingle Bell Rock! Rock and Roll baby!

December 27th, 2007

Had ultrasound today. Sweet baby Girl! Healthy as can be. I'm so happy. BPM 150! She likes to sit up breech. And squirm all the way around all day long. She sat on her butt at first when we tried to look to see what she was. I had to go to the bathroom again and have a little talk with her and tell her to stop being so lazy. Came back and she was up.. "Mommy I'm a girl!"

All ten fingers and toes. Looks like she's got daddy's nose. Me and Brian really like the name Patience Lanya Vimmer.

December 31st, 2007

I've been really depressed today. And Brian isn't helping at all. I am so dissapointed in him, hes acting so childish. And I can hardly stand him anymore. When I told him how I was feeling he told me that I was gonna make Patience a depressed person. What a freaking jerk. It's already bad enough that we can't live with each other right now, and he has to go and be mean to me everytime we talk. I don't understand. Maybe it would be better if we took a break. He's so confusing lately. I don't know maybe he's scared or something... wish he would talk to me. This is supposed to be the happiest time of my life... why do I feel so miserable?

Oh yea.. Tomorrow is my 23rd Birthday.. Yay for me!

January 1st, 2008

Turned 23 today. The same age my mom was when she had me.. Like my mom always said, "The apple doesnt fall far from the tree."

I love Brian, but just want him to grow up. So I constantly will have to tell him that now. I think there is hope for him with my foot up his ass!!

January 2nd, 2008

Doctors appointment...My iron was a little low, but nothing serious. I hate taking pills... But my princess is perfect. Heard Patiences heartbeat, but she likes to be moving around a lot when they are checking for it. Noticing that my hands and feet are sweeling a little bit.. sometimes a lotta bit. But other than that just playing the waiting game, and I'm so impatient. Maybe with the birth of my daughter being as I naming her Patience I will have more of it. :)

January 6th, 2008

I wish Brian understood why I am the way I am. Today we talked about our relationship, and I'm not sure where we stand. I asked him if he still loved me, and he really couldn't come up with an answer. I'm so dissapointed, and upset. He basically doesnt feel close to me anymore. He says that I'm mean. I dont think I am... its not my fault that I just wanna push him to get his life together since its not his own life anymore its our daughters'. I'm so upset. I'm supposed to go visit him at the end of the month, and he's acting like he doesn't want me to come. Coming up with excuses. This was supposed to be our last chance to spend some qaulity time together before the baby is born. Just me and him, and now it seems like that isn't important to him. I don't even know if she is important to him. I just have to focous on her because obviously worrying about my relationship with him is taking too much out of me. She doesn't deserve for me to be upset. After I hung up on Brian she started moving a lot... showing me she loves me. I started to cry because I love my baby girl so much, and nothing can take that away from me. At least I know she loves me!

January 7th, 2008

Belly growth- so I guess my belly just grows big and then she fills it out. Cause it didn't grow for weeks and than wham here it is. Sometimes its smaller than other times. I love my prego belly. And the bellybutton that comes with it!! MMMM

January 17th

Patience's birthday

"Remembering, I’ll be here" Patience Lanya

An angel opened up the book of life, wrote down the baby's birth, and whispered as she closed the book, "Too beautiful for Earth." ~ Author Unknown

Some people dream of angels. I've held one in my arms. ~ Author Unknown

I'll Be Here

Daddy Please don't look so sad, Momma please don't cry
"Cause I am in the arms of Jesus and He sings me lullabies
Please, try not to question God, don't think he is unkind.
Don't think He sent me to you, and then He changed His mind.

You see, I am a Special child, and I'm needed up above.
I'm the Special gift you gave Him, the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you, and watch the sky at night.
Find the brightest star that's gleaming,
That's my halo's brilliant light.

You'll see me in the morning frost, that mists your window pane.
That's me,in the summer showers, I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a little breeze, from a gentle wind that blows.
That's me, I'll be there, planting a kiss on your nose.

When you see a child playing, and your heart feels a little tug,
That's me, I'll be there Giving your heart a hug.
So daddy, please don't look so sad, momma don't you cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus, and He sings me lullabies.
~ Author Unknown

Remembering

Go ahead and mention my child, The one that died, you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further. The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry. I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent, Pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child, Knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I was doing. I say "pretty good" or "fine".
But healing is something ongoing. I feel it will take a lifetime.
~ Author Unknown

Muah to my daughter Patience.. always in my heart forever with me.

I started using "The Secret" in my life. And it deffinetely works. I recieved the book the secret and started to practice it.. And i've never felt better. I am dealing with what happened to me better than I could possibly have ever imagined. And I look forward to my life and having children. I have forgiven myself for what happened.. and God. I know she is in a better place.. and that she is with me. I am grateful for everything in my life. All the love, and the health. And I'm grateful for all of you bringing beautiful lives into the world. Congrats to you all. May patience be with you all.