Updates...

8/12 ok - here is my update from the doc. the cramping has been my uterus coming into allignment and prepping. i am still only about 2cm and 50%, -2, BUT my water has broken and been leaking since before i suspected it. so like 3-4 days!!! baby has enough water, and is fine. i have no fever/infection so my choices are to go get induced today which would be hard and painfull cause inductions are and only 2cm/50%. or proceed as i have been and go at the first warning sign. so thats what i opted for to wait it out a bit. i am not quite ready, going to finish my business/errands today and sit on my ass till it happens!! any time now!!!!! WOW!

8/11 week 38 Monday crampy again, still. i have been pretty crampy and d that last couple days. felt ok today but tonight i am ultra crampy again... hang on babe, fam comes the 19th - 8 days.

8/9 feeling a little crampy tonight. cleaned house frantically for about 2 hours. thirsty. watchng the Olympics. went to the doc on friday; he determined 50% as opposed to 70% and 40 weeks. he said "it's ready, big enough."

8/5 week 37!!! TERM!!! OMG! went to the midwife in training today. 1cm, 70%, -2. belly is measuring 39wks. things are happening. having regular non stress tests and they tell me they are fine. baby moves and slips away from the monitor and we have to start again. i am feeling the contractions now that i am aware of them by seeing the NST. belly gets tight and baby moves around. Baby moves a ton regularly. so big that the whole abdomen moves. it's all very strange. starting to feel presure, mayb from effacing. definately something going on so i was glad to check it out in there. my hands and feet have been pretty swollen. yesterday i went to the doc because my arms and hands were falling asleep and my middle fingertips on my right hand were numb. so i have carpel tunnel! it feels better today. my heartburn has gone away, hopefully never to return. that could be due to station -2!? still sleeping pretty well. getting up to pee every hour or so.

mom and k are coming on the 19th. little bro may not be able to come.

7/26 end week 35. baby is tucked in there tight. still up high, moves regularly. we are basically in the home stretch now. my feet and hand swell more often and the heartburn is sorta bad. been craving baked goods. so i have traded the ice cream vice for dough. not good. changed to a midwife and happy about that. i got twice a week now, NST and ultrasound to monitor water, size, placenta, heart rate. bought a dresser and need to put it together. thats exciting! can get the room in order soon. doing a lot of driving getting h to and from work. uck. he's been practicing too. tomorrow: WEEK 36!!

oh yeah, and my feet swelled for the first time on thursday night at the class. and they are swelling now that i have been at the computer for 2 hours. guess i'll go relax, it is midnight.

7/11 end week 33: so it has been almost a month since the last post! went to the doc at week 32, babe was 4lb 4oz = big! had an ultrasound but could not get a good face shot. its little arms and hands were up and in the way, which it feels like they still are. baby was/is head down, butt up with little feet and knees and elbows doing a lot of jabbin'. so strange. getting used to it and i am sure i will miss the feeling when little one comes. still only gained about 15lbs total.

Auntie came down for a few days with lots of loot. helped me organize the room, although there is still not space for all. the room will have to double as storage until we figure out what we are going to do. it was great to spend time with her here again and we she will come with the fam next month for birth. YIKES - next month! time is going so fast.

h started a new job. it is not going to cut it but better than nothing for now. we still haven't gotten all the things we need yet. putting it off, why i am not sure. actually, it's cause i cant make up my mind about what i want. i did get a used bassinet for $17 which was a steal! i cleaned it thoroughly and it is ready for use. other than that, still need to get bigger ticket items, in due time i guess.

i was feeling really tired for about a week. just weak sort of. feeling a little stronger now but the belly is getting so much larger and the baby is really strong. the movement doesnt hurt, just feels weird. we started our childbirth classes so daddy can learn stuff (me too). they continue through july. been reading about labor and that reality is getting clear now.

e is having a shower for me here but that is not till the 10th. pushing it with time. hopefully the baby will come closer to the due date of the 25thish so i still have time to nest.

have a doc appt on wednesday. 2 actually, one with a new doc/midwife and the one i want to leave. scheduled for an ultrasound so i want to keep both appointments, although they may overlap and i am not sure i can do that (insurance) but we will see. after this one, the appts will be weekly until delivery. wow!!

6/14: baby is getting so large. that whole figuring out which body part is where is starting to happen. i have a theory about the position and i cant wait to see it in the ultrasound. sleeping is starting to get uncomfortable, well, actually getting up is. belly is getting heavier and pulls with gravity. sometimes feels sore, i am sleeping well between potty breaks and it is hard to get up in the am. still have that numb feeling at my ribs that i have had for weeks now, it comes and goes, but yesterday there was 'foot' there. so strange to feel the hard spots come and go. kinda freaky. feeling good in general. weight gain is still minimal, only 13-15 lbs. according to my scale. well see what the docs weight says. toured CR and MG last week. i like MG - it is new! and has great views and the maternity ward is on the 3rd floor. h will be getting a new job soon, due to earlier than expected circumstance.

6/9: week 29: k so last night looking at my belly in the mirror i noticed viens running along my waist on both sides and in the front top center. eewwww! i think that means i'm getting stretched thin! yikes! then later the baby was kicking like crazy for over an hour! made me worried cause that is the longest stretch of constant movement. baby is getting really strong. there was actually a moment when she jabbed my so strong in the lower ab joint area that i almost hurt! i can't even imagine how much larger we are going to get and stronger she is going to get! it is SO bizzare. i am not really uncomfortable though. but last night i thought it might be starting. we'll see how sleeping is tonight.

this week (yesterday and today) i am able to feel him moving closer to my ribs, not just to the top of the belly ball, but quirky rib feeling.

i get another ultrasound on the 17th! yay! really ready to see inside again.

6/6: Friday, week 28. gotten big in the last couple weeks. the baby moves like crazy, all over! can feel it and see it. went to seattle and saw the family. mom felt the baby move and so others did as well. had a baby shower and got our first baby items. what fun! sleeping better and longer lately. get exhausted easy. glucose test came back fine although i am slightly anemic. get an ultrasound at the next dr appt on the 17th. that is exciting. no stretch marks. lucky me! hubby is totally excited about everything. it is so cool.

5/19: monday 26 weeks. last week was very eventfull. lots of movement that i can see and discovered i finally look like i am carrying a soccer ball vs. my own pooch belly. DEFINATELY no doubt about it showing. i have caught people looking at my belly a few times now and i hear the next step is when they touch ya? been more tired lately and sleeping well between potty breaks. doing my glucose test on tuesday, hopefully that will be fine. been lying in the sun and getting color. go to seattle on wednesday till the 3rd. should be fun. baby shower on the 31st with everyone at gramma's.

5/11: 25 weeks today! registered yesterday at Babies R Us. boy was that an experience! going home to seattle to visit family and friends on the 21st. that will be cool. baby has been moving a lot and i can now feel it regularly all around, not just ultra low. i can feel it on the oustide and see my belly move. very strange and cool and i wonder what babe's little face and body look like all the time. had on OB apt the other day and all was fine she said. gained only 11lbs so far which makes me afraid it will all pile on during the 3rd trimester. yikes! lubing up with lots of fun belly creams. so many to choose from. layed out for the first time this season to get some color. thats nice. although i guess i might have to stand to get the backs of my legs! my floaty in the pool on my belly was semi successful, but it gave me a "side ache". my next test will be the glucose test on the 20th and i will get the results on the 3rd when i get back from seattle.

4/12 pm: we had indian buffet for lunch today and a couple hours later, still full to the max, i was asked for the first time in my life "how far along are you?". and then she had the decency to say that i didnt look 5 mos., well i feel like i look 7 mos so i am sure she was being nice. and yes, she was nice. sooo, i guess i really am showing now. if the babe was 15ozs on the 10th, i am sure she's 1lb now! trip to have this creature inside. 6-7 inches and 1 whole pound! and now i am pretty sure that those are baby movements i am feeling.

4/12 am: feel good today. honey is off work and we get to spend the day together, course i am here and he is on the phone with his brother. : ) still think i feel movement once in a while. we started talking about names and shopping. hehehe. : ) kid rock cowboy babay on the radio....

4/10: 20w4d: Went in for our genetic counsel and possible amnio yesterday. we finally got our combined score of the quad screen and level 2 ultrasound after weeks of trying to understand and adjust the rate ourselves. needless to say, they looked at the babe again and all still looked normal. therefore, my adjusted number is 1/953!! From 1/118 to 1/953! i had no idea it would be that drastic of a change! at this point then the risk factor i was told for the amnio in 1/400-500 which is way higher than 1/953 so NO amnio! WHAT A RELIEF. i feel like now we can really participate in this pregancy and start making plans for the future. as we were leaving the office, my husband wanted to know the sex! NOW he wants to know.... : ) we are still waiting til birth at this point. if his curiousity gets the best of him, we'll discuss it. i would still like to wait and look for myself without being told (assuming all goes well at delivery). one of the things i can now focus on is finding another OB (still not pleased), planning delivery, newborn necessity shopping and taking a trip to Seattle to show my growing belly to my family. I have friends here and all my family is there. i think about that a lot too, but the weather here is fantastic for me.

Still not feeling any movement. well, i may have felt something but not really sure so just no. babe weighs 15 ounces! almost 1 pound! amazing. my husband says "his first pound! he needs 240 more to chatch me." too cute. (notice the boy reference?) my hubby is tall and slim but heavy. he is getting a bit of sympathy belly and keeps saying he's getting back to the gym. keeps not happening but that's all right for now.

That's it for now. Thanks to all you girls for your support. This site in amazing - oh the age we live in....

4/1: 19 weeks: On the 27th (Thurs) we had out level II ultrasound but my OBs office couldnt find the blood results from our Quad screen. The ultrasound looked normal (9oz.). Fri the OB office calls and wants to see me asap on monday. The OB says my risk (i will be 37 at birth) is 1/118 but that doesnt factor in the ultrasound result. She wanted to send me back to the u/s docs (perinatologist) for genetic counseling but they dont have an opening until the 17th! I called the u/s tech personally to ask her about it. she said that if we would opt to termintate she could get me in on the rush for the counsel (which would be 'numbers' of the u/s and quad together and an amnio risk right? then you balance the info?) and amnio. So it appears that i have to decide one way or the other without an amnio and that is not fair! We lean toward keeping it but seem to have lost our options. What should we do? i am in the 19th week now and the 17th is the 21st week. This is all not ok...

3/28: 18w6d: had our level 2 ultrasound yesterday. it was great to see the baby again, growing away. the results were normal. i am still waiting for the results of my quad screen and i got a call from my doc today and they want me to come in on monday. so i am nervous but reassured because the ultrasound was fine.

3/17: 17 weeks today. received my first maternity clothes from erin today. totally awesome! comfort!! gave blood for the Quad screen. anitcipation. think i need to change doctors cause i am just not satisfied with who i am with.

2/27: Went for a nuchal translucency ultrasound last week. she said it looks fine and referred to it as a boy, although i had told her we didnt want to know. she told me it was too early to tell anyway (which i am not sure i believe at 13wks5day then), so now my hubby is convinced it is a boy. we still agree that we dont want to find out the sex so we shall see. I took a blood test and am still waiting for the results. the ulrasound was fun because it took a long time. baby jumped and kicked and moved hands and turned over. very cool!

2/15: Went to the doc yesterday. Haven't gained weight so far which is good i think because i am already a bit overweight. Heard the heartbeat again and that is the coolest thing ever!! I think i can feel the growing pains and that it is progressing but it was great to have the confirmation that life is really still there...thinking about renting a Doppler since i cant feel it moving yet.

1st entry: I can't believe i am pregnant!! It is so weird - hence the "total trip". I still have not told half of my family and some of my friends. i think i am still in shock that it is actually working - not miscarry or other. 2 months before i got pregnant this time, i had an ectopic pregnancy which was painful and treated with methotraxate. i was told to wait 3 mos to get pregnant but there i was 2 mos later. and here now at 10 weeks.... strange.