Its not to much longer to go now...thank god! i seem to have been doing it pretty tough but at the same time i think of what other mums to be have gone through and think i have had it easy.

My back has totally given in and i am now wearing a back brace to hold my spine in place.Due to this problem i gave up work on the 24th April..can't believe that was almost one month ago! Time seems to be flying! My baby seems to be so active that when i cuddle into my husband(Shannon) of a night time he is getting kicked in the back all night..he loves it though. I would have to say that feeling a baby move inside you like that is the most amazing and joyous feeling. I think i would say the best part of being pregant!

i am now going to the midwives every 3 weeks and have been told just on the 9th may that i have gestational carpel tunnel...so painful.So once again i am looking rather hopeless and going to bed at night with splints on my wrists and then back brace during the day.

We started Antenatal classes last Tuesday the 13th May..so its definately very real now and i am very scared. People keep telling me to relax etc..i don't think i can! I have this theory that if i think the worse then maybe it might be better than i think...hopefully..

Anyway i getting very little sleep and feeling deprived already. hate to think how i will be once baby arrives.

thats me for now..baby dust to all xx

5/01/2008

Well i had my first appointment on Thursday with the Midwives - feeling a little down as thought i would be having a scan and apparently now they only do scans between 18-20 weeks unless there are complications. They have also said that due to my cycles that i am 12 weeks and 3 days not 13 weeks and 3 days but until i have the scans nothing is really definate.I guess now i have to want another 8 weeks before i get to hear my babys heartbeat. :(

It was really confronting at the appt talking about the birth options and whether i would like to go to the birthing centre or in the labour and delivery ward so much to decide on the spot and i am sure there are pro's and cons to both sides.

My hubby has been really great listening to everything so carefully and explaining it all to me again in basic terms (i'm not the worlds most intelligent person LOL). The midwife/nurse was really full on about the breast feeding which is all good but i really feel for those mums who must feel so much pressure to breast feed when they really don't want to.

Christmas and new year was great..always different when your the sober one and unable to drink etc but was still a great day and night. I am really surprised i was still awake for New Year..normally these days i am asleep by 830pm...such a party animal!

Will keep you posted...until next time happy nesting x

18/12/07

Well i am almost into my 11th week and boy am i getting excited that the first trimestor is nearly over. Anyone who says that pregnancy is a beautiful thing i am sure may be fibbing!

If i didn't have the aching hips and the tiredness and the m/s when ever it felt like coming on, i am sure it would be perfect but right now i dont have that theory.I am glad i have stopped waking myself up after bashing my boobs in my sleep as it seem the tenderness has disappeared thank god!

I think the hardest part is not being able to eat what i love the most what i would give for one more block of camembert cheese right now...yum! My husband tells me i should have been a food critic and right now i wish i could be but there is so many things i can't eat.My husband gets all our yummy left overs and all. :(

My first scan is the 3/01/2008...i am so looking forward to hearing the heartbeat it will be so magical. At least it will give me another reason to cry..lol. my emotional status is well ......all over the place.

Anyway feeling a little off right now so will come back later. take care xx