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	Age: 29 Country: Province/region: City: Partner: Husband of three years Children: Pregnant: Trying to conceive Occupation: US Air Force
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Saturday, 2 Feb

I got my surge on the OPK on 21 Jan. We bd that day and the next. The second day, I did the OPK again, and it still showed the surge. We didn't bd on the 23rd, which would have been the day I ovulated. I've got no feelings of being pg, and can't help but wonder if we should have done it that day, too. But both days I laid in bed for a good half hour afterward, and if I moved, it was to the couch to prop myself up. I keep telling the "boys" to swim hard and fast! I bought two tests yesterday, and plan to use one on Feb 9th. If it's BFP, I'll use the second one to be sure. If BFN, then I guess I'll have one for next time. We're not using the OPK next month if this is BFN. It's too stressful. During the day, all I thought about was getting home and testing, to see what it would tell me. I know I need to relax and it'll happen when my body's ready. After my D&C the doc said to wait one to two AFs before trying again, and my last one was the second. I guess it's not bad if it didn't happen this month, but I keep reading other ladies had the same surgery more recently and they're getting their BFP already. Maybe it'll be a blessing in disguise. I hate summer heat, and I would be big and uncomfortable this summer if I get the BFP this month. I keep finding little reasons that I shouldn't get pg right now. I think it's to make myself feel better when I get the BFN, I won't be as let down. I'm trying to stay positive. At least if it's negative, then I can go snowboarding, which I've been dying to all winter and we now have tons of snow to play in!! A new update next Friday, I guess...

Wednesday, 16 Jan

That was the absolute WORST AF of my life! i had leftover vicodin from my D&C and was taking those. The cramps still came through that! Two days later, they were still horrible, so I went to the doc. He gave me something else (it was good!) and was really concerned why it was so bad this time. He referred me to an OB/GYN downtown. I don't want to go. I don't feel the need. My friend warned me that I should, just in case there's something wrong. It would be better to find that out now, rather than, God forbid, I misscarry again and find it then. Of course that scared the crap out of me. I know she's right. I think I'll wait until my next AF to decide what to do. Hopefully AF won't come next month, though. I've started this month's ovulation detection, so we'll see. I decided if it doesn't work this month, I'll just leave it alone and let it happen when it's ready, like we did last time. Saying that now and doing that next month may be two different things, though. I guess we'll see!

Friday, 4 Jan

Well, here she is. AF came about an hour ago. SIGH. Oh well. A couple weeks and we can try again!

Wednesday, 2 Jan

Two BFNs yesterday. My AF cycles used to be around 30 days, but this one has been, as of today, 33 days. I had one or two light cramps today, and i've been really bitchy and emotional. Yep, she's on her way. Dammit. I've become obsessed with this. My poor husband is doing fantastic with listening to me drone on and on and on about testing, ovulating, more and more info on my m/c as i learn more, what days are good for baby dancing, etc. He's been absolutely wonderful and has never once given me a strange look when i take a test, knowing there is absolutely NO WAY it could give any accurate result so soon. He's trying just as hard as i am, and i'm very thankful and lucky. Hopefully this luck follows us into this coming month. I'm now ready for AF to come, kick my ass (as usual) and be on her way so we can start this business over again.

Sunday, 30 Dec

Well, i tested yesterday to get a BFN. i hope it`s just too early still. i have no idea how long my cycle is now since my D&C, but i`ll give it until tuesday until i test again. i`m even bitchier today than before. i get this before AF, but not normally this strong. BB`s are fine, not even sore. last time i was PG they were huge and so painful i had to wear a sportsbra just to keep them under control. and i`m normally an A/B cup!! so i guess nothing new yet...good lock to all! baby dust!!!

December 23rd:

i found out i was PG in August, due Apr 08. i had no morning sickness, but the rest of all the symptoms. September 17 the doctor informed us after an upsetting ultrasound and two days of bloodwork that the pregnancy wasn't progressing. We opted to go with the D&C on 21 September, instead of letting my body let it go naturally. I finally had a normal AF on December 1st. We have used the ovulation kit and it didn't happen until this past weekend-3 weeks after my period started. hopefully it worked. i have a stockpile of HPT's around here, so i'm not worried about wasting one. i'm taking one tomorrow morning-hoping for a Christmas miracle. Hubby had a vasectomy reversal Jan 07. Doc said it would take at least a year, on average. So getting PG in July was a miracle in itself. Hopfully these miracles are still working for us...

I can't figure out how to add that I have 3 stepchildren, two boys, 11 and 8, and a girl, 7.

Wednesday, 26 Dec

No luck this morning with HPT, a BFN. I know I `m unoffically the MOST impatient person in the world, so I `m not upset yet. I know it `s too early, so we `ll see next week...

Friday, 28 Dec

I`ve been really tired the past couple of days, and I`ve chalked it up to the holiday, then going back to work. Tonite I`m a raging bitch, so hopefully that `s good news. Haha! I `ve also got wierd cramp-like pains, very subtle, so I hope it`s not PMS and a little person growing in there! Impatient again, I think I might test again tomorrow morning! I really need to relax and wait, but I just can`t...

Thursday, 7 Feb

I came on here today to say I was giving the website a break. Everytime I log on, I see more and more women getting their BFPs. And here I am, AF showing her ugly painful face. Both emotionally and physically painful. The more I read on here, the more obsessed I get. Then I read a post from a friend of mine, and realized we `re in this together. With both our success and our failures. So instead of logging in every single day and reading for hours, I `ll just come on every couple of days to check how my friends are doing. Thank you, Valena. It `s easier to be miserable with someone else, than on your own or faking hapiness for someone who has what you want. Thank you. Talk you in a couple days.

Friday, 22 Feb

According to the ovulation calendar on the TTC page, I am most fertile today. (I `ve stopped using the OPK) We `re not killing ourselves with timing everything right now. We did BD tonite, and it was nice to (TMI) be on top and get up to pee afterward. No making sure I was on bottom, elevated, laying there until I was bored out of my mind afterward...ah. I wonder if I `ll regret it tomorrow when I think too much about it, but for now I feel kind of relieved and a lot less stressed about this baby making business. Not to say it `s not on my mind still 24/7!!!!

Friday, 22 Feb

This site must be either on the east coast somewhere or in another country. Ok, update-here in my dining room it `s Feb 21. Happy Friday to everyone else! :)

Wednesday, 27 Feb

I went to my doc today to find out why my AF has been so painful. She said it was likely my hormones. She said everything is looking normal, so not to worry. She asked if we were still TTC, and I told her two months of perfect timing has resulted in nothing. She said it can take up to 6 months after a D&C. Next month is my 6 month mark, so if it doesn `t happen by then, I think I `ll ask DH to get his sperm count done again to make sure they didn `t decide to be one-hitter-quitters. Haha! Those are his words, not mine, so I `m not insulting him. :)

Tuesday, 22 Apr

I won't updating on here for a while. I have WAY too much going on at work to even attempt babymaking, including the tracking and watching the calendar and everything else. we're lucky if we're able to do the nasty before we pass out after long hours. :) So we're going to let this happen on its own-i won't be surprised if it happens soon. We had taken a break last time when it happened. We'll see. i'll still come on here occassionally to check on people and to say hello. I never have anything new to update except "i'm late" then "oh damn, AF is here". That's boring. Anyway, baby dust to all and good luck!!