well my name is tanisha and im pregnant with my second child...this time with a boy...i have a beautiful daughter named tasia who will be 2 on april 16...the only problem i have with a baby boy is that i dont know what to do with one...i dont have any brothers so this is going to be a challenge...well right now im in school for nursing but taking a cna class for right now cause with 2 kids i need a good job....as for my babies father he is there emotionally and physically but not finacially.... so i feel like and idiot for getting pregnant by him again...i just think he doesnt know what he should be doing...he was in foster care his whole life so he didnt really have any one to show him the right path...i know he is trying but my patience is getting thin and i cant wait on him forever...i need to think about mine and my childrens well being and nobody elses cause other wise i will just be held back by the people that dont want to do shit for themselves and i will never get anywhere...i hold my head high and i know what i can accomplish...what i do may take me longer then someone else but as long as it gets done im ok with that.

Birth Story...May 11 2008...Mothers Day

I was having little contractions all day on saturday then saturday night around 8-9 my boyfriend decides he wants to have sex and i tell him no because i might go into labor. he then say no i think u have one or two more weeks and im like no watch me have him. and of course around 12 am i started getting them really bad. I couldnt take the pain anymore arond 3:30 so i called one of my best friends to come pick me up. My boyfriend stayed home with our daughter. When i get to the hospital they check me and i was already 4 cm dialated. I wasnt givin an epirdural at once because i was tested postive for the group B strep so i had to be givin medicene first so i couldnt get the epirdural for an hour. around 5:30-6 am i got the epidural. so all i could do then was wait. while i was waiting i was getting these sharp pains right above me vagina every time i had a contraction and the doctor told me i was having the pain because of the way the baby was positioned and there was nothing he could do about it (the epirdural did not fix this problem!!) sooner or later (dont remember the time because i was in so much pain) they broke my water when i was 6 cm because the babys heart rate was droping everytime i laid on my back and laying on my side was helping either. after my water was broken in a matter of min. maybe 15-25 i was 10 cm. and ready to deliver. my best friend was coaching me threw the whole thing because my boyfriend wasnt there yet. my boyfriend came rushing in in a panic and was crying (ha he is so sensitive lol). the nurse ended up delivering my baby because the doctor was with another girl who delivered 3 min. before me. the nurse got congratulated for doing such a good job and then she bragged a little saying it wasnt her first. in my opinion she was alright, she didnt really do much by helping me but by saying keep breathing, my friend was pretty much the one telling me when to push..and tim (my boyfriend) was holding my hand and telling me i was doing a good job.well the baby was having a hard time breathing and didnt cry when he came out...they kept saying comon i know u want to cry and he just did a little whimper but he ended up being ok...about 5 min. after i gave birth the nurse came in and told me there was a reporter outside that wanted to talk to me about what it feels like to have a baby on mothers day. (i had my first on easter) they couldnt interview the girl that had a baby first because she didnt speak english...i told them i didnt want to be in the newspaper because i was looking like a hot mess...no makeup..hair messy...i looked horrible...my mom was like why would u ask her that look at her...look at her hair...(she told me if i did it she would tell people she didnt know me) but tim was like i should do it....he said i looked fine but i wasnt going to take his word for it...(for one thing he was lookin crazy too) so at 9:33 in the morning Tyree Elijah was born at 5 pounds 11 oz. and 18 in