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3rd november..

HI there, well todays the 3rd of november, i have finally got my first appointment with the midwife.. 19th of november, Im starting to learn about my tummy pains, whats what, when im hungry my tummy hurts and even feel like my kidneys hurt, and when im thirsty... im constapated which also gives me tummy ache and back ache.... so im going to try and eat when im hungry, sometimes im shopping and have to wait, as for the toilet problems.. ive got some lactulose which is yukky.....but helps,

Ive gained a few pounds but i dont know if thats from the extra food i ate on holiday, or the pregnancy, ... i need to get hold of the father and ask him his medical history which im sure he wont be happy about, but after his last comment i really dont care.

OH MY GOD.. i want to be happy.... i want to share the news with my kids, its hard to be tired and in pain and not be able to tell them why..... i want to know its ok, 6 more weeks ive got to wait...... ive nearly done all my xmas shopping, lol, and on the 1st of december my decorations are going stright up, lmao... might even start wrapping some, need to help occupy my mind for a while.....x.x.x

Well..... Ive 3 kids, adorable kids, am very lucky, included are twins, im excited wondering if im carrying twins again, how wonderful would that be.

Me and the dad of this one were just hanging out until he goes travelling next year in january, so it wasnt planned, but im welcoming this pregnancy with open arms, i wish i could say the same for him, as a younger man, he showed me his true colours... told me to get rid of it, and when i said i wont and he cant make me, and i did say i understand that im not giving him a choice here, he said i was to promise him i wont tell anyone its his, OH MY GOD!!!...lol, so cus he wont take half the blame in this i have to pretend i sleep around and dont know who the father is, NO CHANCE.

Any advice would be very welcomed... I am making the right decision arnt i? Is it fair to bring a child in to this world with a father who just doesnt want to know....

I know its inside of me... i feel it, the pains i get are my inside growing to make room for the new life...

I cant wait to know ive reached a safe point and tell my children, they will be so excited, my 12 weeks scan should be just before xmas, what a wonderful gift to give them.....

But as you who is reading this knows, with all that excitement comes the nerves, cus we have to have faith and beleive everything is ok .....

Do we let ourselves go and just cherish this moment, or me who tends to be paranoid, is too scared to get excited, incase im faced with that awful hurt and dissapoint of it not being ok...

Being a single mum makes you worry alot about this that are completely out of our control, and damn.. thats what makes it so scary.....

Tuesday, 6 Nov

Hi there, well i felt soooo sick yesterday, im a teaching assitant and i had little girls coming up to me with snot on the face and i was trying my best not to urge, lol... there lovely kids, but i flet really bad and hope today is a little better, most days i volenteer and only get paid for a few days, and im lucky cus i dont have to go, but i think its too easy so im trying to not take the easy option, but when u feel THAT sick, its too hard, lol.. good luck everyone

Wednesday, 7 Nov

OK OK... IM ONLY BLOODY 6 WEEKS AND IM FEELING FAT, THE ONLY THING THAT EASES OFF MY MORNING, SICKNESS IS FOOD............ NOT FAIR..LOL

Friday, 16 Nov

Pregnancy Survey

About You
Name?: GEMMA
Age?: 31
Height?: 5'5'
Pre-pregnancy weight?:NOT GOOD, LOL 12STONE 7 POUNDS
About The Father
Name?: JIM
Age?: 23
Height?:
Are you still together?: NEVER WAS.. WERE CLOSE FRIENDS, LOL
About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?: NOOOOO
When did you find out you were pregnant?: I KNEW THE MORNING MY PERIOD WAS DUE, BRUSHED MY TEETH AND URGED.. I JUST KNEW WAS ON MY BIRTHDAY
Was it planned?: OHH NO
What was your first reaction?: SOME BIRTHDAY PRESSY
Who was with you when you found out?: ALONE
Who was the first person you told?: MUM
How did your parents react?: SUPPORTIVE
How far along are you?: 8 weeks
What was your first symptom?: URGING
What is your due date?: JUNE 28TH FOR NOW
Do you know the sex of the baby?: NO
If so, what is it?:
Have you picked out names?: AS LONG AS THERE WELSH NAMES I DONT MIND
If so, what are they?:
How much weight have you gained?: 6 POUND.. NOT DUE TO PREGNANCY.. EATING TOO MUCH..LOL
Do you have stretch marks?: A FEW FROM LAST 2 PREGNANCYS, (LAST ONE WAS TWINS)
Have you felt the baby move?: NO, FELT TWINS KICK AT 12 WEEKS, NEW YEARS EVE.. WILL NEEVR FORGET
Have you heard the heartbeat?: NO
About the birth
Will you keep the baby?: OF COURSE
Home or hospital birth?: HOSPITAL
Natural or medicated birth?: A NATURAL MEDICATED BIRTH..LOL
Who will be in the delivery room with you?: DONT KNOW,
Will you breastfeed?: YES
Do you think you'll need a c-section?: NO
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?: DEPENDS ON THE MEDICATION... MAYBE WITH RELIEF OF THE BIRTH BEING OVER, HAVENT YET..
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?: DONT KNOW
Would you let someone videotape the birth?:NO THANKS...
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?: TOO EARLY YET...TRYING TO GET EXCITED ABOUT THE PREGNANCY FIRST.... WAITING FOR ALL IMPORTANT 1ST 12 WEEK SCAN

Thursday, 22 Nov

i wish i ould stop using this pregnancy as an excuse to keep eating, lol

Tuesday, 8 Jan

well........ ive learnt that some people, mostly women, and pregnant women... dont like the few of us that want to wait till the baby is born to find out the sex.....i had my scan at 12 weeks, my womb/utertus whatever was a funny shape, it looked huge but considering the baby was only 5 cm long the lump must have been 1cm, lol... then 2 weeks later, i felt so weird, usually i have a firm bump, but this day i had nothing and felt empty and my back was killing, so i got the midwife to find a heartbeat... and she did, it was very faint at first cus it was so far back.. hense the backache... and then like it knew i was worried, came up close and i heard a cracker of a heartbeat....now im 15 + 3 and i see the midwife in 7 days... the kids are coming with me this time and we willlisten to it together, my scan is a late one as i cant make my 20 week so ive got one about 21/22 weeks, we have detailed scans here, they check the babys organs, kidneys heart etc, the measure the babys, head and check the back of the babys head, as downs syndrome babies... can have signs that can be detected on the screen...... and they wil check everything, and im so desperate not to find out the sex,so no ones coming with me incase .. as everyone else wants to know.the dad has gone travelling for 6 months, will be back 5 days after the due date, wont come early, i told him i really needed some money to put towards some bits that are needed, he said he hasnt got any as he isant working.... hang on a minute.. hes going travelling for 6 bloody months.... he wouldnt even come for the first scan, so bugger him, he reckons he wants to help chose the babys name.... well and some people might not agree with me, but... he has to earn some rights, cant just pick what he wants to be a part of, and name chosing... after not helping with anything....anyways... i like harrison for a boy, i wanted riley, but my daughter said its a girls name and she can sulk for britain.... so we will scrap that one...lol

15/01/08

WELL ME AND MY 3 CHILDREN WENT TO LISTEN TO THE BABYS HEARTBEAT TODAY......... WAS WONDERFUL........KIDS ENJOYED IT, FOR LIKE 2 SECONDS...LOL

APART FROM THE HEADACHES IM STARTING TO REALLY ENJOY THIS PREGNANCY, MY DAUGHTER WHO IS 5.... GOING ON 50, WONT LET ME HAVE SWEETS, OR CAKES, SAYS ITS BAD FOR THE BABY......

LOL

WELL IT COULD BE A GOOD THING, MIGHT HELP MY HIPS, I SAW MY MIDWIFE 9 WEEKS AGO AND SINCE IVE SEEN HER IVE ONLY PUT ON 1 POUND, BUT SINCE I GOT PREGNANT I HAVE PUT ON 5, I HAD GAINED MORE BUT HAVE LOST IT....... IVE HAD A DAY OF SWEETS AND CAKES AND NOT GOOD FOOD, TOMORROW ILL DO HOUSE WORK AND EAT BETTER, KINDA CATCH UP WITH THE GOOD FOOD BIT, LOL

I STILL HAVENT THOUGHT OF ANY GIRLS NAMES, STILL LOVE HARRISON FOR A BOY...

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE...X.X.X

Tuesday, 22 Jan

HI THERE, I DO HAVE 3 CHILDREN, I JUST DONT LIKE POSTING THERE DETAILS ON LINE, 9YR OLD AND 5 YR OLD TWINS... NOW ALL I NEED IS A SWIFT KICK FROM THIS LITTLE MITE IN MY TUMMY AND EVERYTHING WILL BE PERFECT..X.X.X

Friday, 1 Feb

well... my feet are wet and cold, im tired and moody....ive this soul mate... i miss him when im not with him, and when were together im smiling...just thought id day, lolwell a busy week at work, shopping is being delivered tomorrow... ordered online as i hate unloading the shopping from the car, lolim sure i feel the baby move, not kicks thoughim having these awfuls images, my friends daughter was born with downs, and everytime i try and picture my new baby, all i see is her face... im glad i had the downs tests done, but now im older maybe i shouldnt have, cus they were lower than id like and its all i can think about, my scan isant for 3 weeks and its going to go slow.... ive still got very wet feet and ache all over, im going to meet my soul mate last for a quick catch up, that will make me feel better, except its freeeezing outside... im not cooking tonight im going to comfort eat, its just with what is my hardest decision, lol

Tuesday, 5 Feb

ok so i put a deposit on a pushchair today, now im scared im tempting fate.. why am i so blimin paranoid... all the time..

Sunday, 17 Feb

so, im bored all the time, i think all the time, ive had a week off work and have eaten my way they the week... why i do it i dont know, considering i feel like crap after and dont even really enjoy the food.i still dont have abirthing partner, but really dont want to do this alone, i wont have to, there is family that will stand in, the dad of the baby wont be back until 5 days after its born, grrr bloody men.

Saturday, 23 Feb

WELL, I HAD MY DEFECT SCAN AND ITS ALL NORMAL... NORMAL SOUNDS BORING BUT ILL TAKE NORMAL ANYDAY...DIDNT FND OUT THE SEX, WASNT EVEN TEMPTED TO... IVE GOT REALLY BAD TUMMY ACHE, BUT I THINK IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE LARGE TIN OF CHOCS I ATE LAST NIGHT... LOL

Saturday, 15 Mar

Well, im 25 weeks tomorrow, and oh my... its going pretty slow now, sometime next week ill be 6 months, which sounds better...lol... just trying to buy just what the baby needs.. ive got so many out goings, ive not alot left for baby, but thanks to ebay, ill be fine and a very generous cousin who got me all the clothes it will need until 3 months, shed fulls of stuff.....x.x.

FRIDAY 4TH APRIL

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

omg, im so freaking tired.... i want to scream and inside my head i am, im that bloody tired i cant even be bothered to open my mouth and scream..........

im so uncomfortable, i cant sit properly cus i have a butt under my right rib cage.

wait till i see this little babys butt, lol...

talking of butts,.... u wanna see mine, infact how the fook u can miss it, thought u saw an eclipse the other night....... oh hell no, that was my ass..... jesus christ its got big...

and cellulite.... i want to be a yummy mummy, and i will after this, im gonna look hot , and sexy.... or convince myself i do, lol

buy a magic mirror and look slim.

im gonna petition macdonalds and get them closed down allllll over the world, then im gonna hit all the chocolate factorys and get them closed down...

then we can start on the cake shops and sweet shops.... oh and buscuits....

what else??? lol

and then ill have no problem getting slim again, lol

12/04/2008

WELL, LAST NIGHT I HAD LOTS OF BLOODY FROM MY BUM, BLOODY DISGUSTING.... I DID PANIC AND WIPED MY FRONT ABOUT 20 TIMES BUT IT DEF CAME FROM THE BACK BIT, BETWEEN PILES AND CONSTAPATION I KNEW WHY I BLED AND IT STOPPED AS QUICK AS IT STARTED.

WELL IM 6.7 MONTHS PREGNANT, WHICH MEANS I HAVE 2.3 MONTHS LEFT, WHICH I THINK SOUNDS UM.... NOT TOO BAD.

THE NEXT 6 WEEKS WILL GO QUICK CUS OF WORK.... THEN I AHVE 1 WEEK OFF CUS ITS HALF TERM THEN I STAY OFF UNTIL BABYS BORNS, NO MATERNITY FOR ME. IM ONLY PART TIME SO IF I DONT WORK I DONT GET PAID, WHICH ACTUALLY ISANT THAT BAD, I DONT EARN ENOUGH FOR IT TO REALLY BOTHER ME, I DO LOTS OF VOLENTEERING.

HAVE ANY OF YOU SEEN HOW MANY DIFFERANT MATRESSES THERE ARE OUT THERE..OM..BLOODY G

I JUST WANT A REASONABLE PRICED ONE AND THAT STATES HOW SAFE IT IS... AHHHHHH!!!!!

ANYWAYS NOT REALLY MUCH TO SAY, THE LITTLE THING INSIDE ME HAS DECIDED IT LIKE FEET FIRST, BUT IT BEST MOVE CUS IM NOT HAVING A SECTION, NO WAY, NO HOW NO NO NO.... UH UH... NOT A CHANCE......

SO MOVE LITTLE THING...MOVE, LOL

saturday 24th may.... 5 weeks 1 day left

thought ive not updated to like forever.... u ever get the feeling something big is gonna go wrong, well thats me, i didnt realise how much i want this baby, or how much i want me and my 3 wonderful children to enjoy this... at 5 weeks was told id likely lose it... so u convince urself not to get hopes up till ur 12 week scan...... then u feel amazoing to see what looks like a real baby, the outlines of a real baby, legs arms head, heart... then u tell ur kids... who are sooo excited,

u get ur bloods checked for downs and they come back pretty low, so then u convince urself not to get excited until ur 21 week scan....which goes more than amazing... the detail of the scan and the detailed checking to see if its healthy baby is amazing... and it was wonderful to see my baby... but by this time, ive convinced myself not to get attatched, so now ive got 5 weeksleft and on the pratical front im sorted... on the emotional side of things... i cant even think of names... its so hard to explain if i make my baby real, im scared it will be atken away from me....

wow, it feels great to finally get that off my chest... so much is going wrong right now...my kids dont want to speak to there waster of a dad and he saying that i wont let him so wants to take me to court..... i dont have time or energy to do that, and i dont want to,... anyways ive had a moan, thank-yuo..x.x.x