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xxLindsayDxx
xxLindsayDxx has 40 days to go and is now in week 34
Age: 25
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Due date: 26 Jun ,2008
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I'm kinda taking my time to update this, as I have soo many other things to update as well as this page.

I came here, mainly to look for encouragement and women who I could possibly empathize with and i'm glad I've found some strength from you all.

So Thank you! <3

~*Lindsay*~


<3 <3 <33



Friday, 14 Mar
Ultrasound picture of my daughter at 24 weeks. I am pretty sure it `s a girl! Correct me if I am wrong haha




Friday, 14 Mar
I just recently got my adoption papers today. I `m really pondering if giving her up for adoption is the right thing. Adoption just seems so `not popular. ` Most moms or mom-to-bes either keep their baby or abort it. To me, abortion is a failure. It `s not even giving something a chance to live. I couldn `t ever abort my pregnancies. This one has been the hardest for me. It is my second pregnancy, but the hardest emotionally because of all the doubts in my mind and heart. I know, i `ve always known, that my spirit and heart want her to live. The adoption process sounds really, really positive. No matter what, she will be loved and no matter what, she is special. :]


Wednesday, 19 Mar
I `m sitting here, kind of laughing to myself at all the names `mothers ` are calling me on this site. We `re supposed to be moms and support each other, but they act like kids and are sometimes full of discouragment and control, telling me what is what. And all this over one subject. They can `t get over that some just don `t care to read about personal sex techniques and junk like that. No, i `m not a nun. But I have an eye for what I like to read vs not read. To say you like sex is one thing, but to be all dirty about it and say what you like..there `s a difference between the two (some chicks can `t understand that, I guess.) Anywho, i `m almost in my 26th week. Still struggling w/depression and i `ve decided that I can `t really go this alone. I `m really in too much of a fragile state right now to deal with all these decisions on my own. I `m wearing myself short! So i `m thinking of looking for counseling and whatnot. Baby still gets hiccups a lot.I didn `t really notice them till a few weeks ago. Now they `re here! They alarmed me at first because I wasn `t sure why she was convulsing (she gets them really bad sometimes!) I am sure she is okay. I goto my next check up next Tuesday. Can `t wait to see how much weight i `ve gained! lol


Wednesday, 26 Mar

I went to my check up today, turns out that my glucose test isn `t until next checkup. Thank goodness. I `m starting to have doubts about giving my daughter up for adoption.. I honestly am not sure I will live with myself afterwards.. I would wonder if giving her up was the best option or if I really could have mothered her. I `ve been thinking of going to work with a friend, part time. But she hasn `t let me know anything yet. I found out that i `ve only gained 8 pounds the entire pregnancy. Infact, i `m about the same weight as the last time I went in. Doesn `t look like i `m really gaining anything, but the doctor said that she seems to be about a pound, now. So as long as she is gaining weight and growing well, things should be fine (as well as my BP being alright). Looks like all is developing well. :]

April 16, Wednesday, 2008

I finally finished filling out my paper work a few days ago and sent it in, when my advisor told me I forgot a packet. So I had to fill that out, make a run to the PO and send it in to catch up with the first! Gah! Anyway, I am glad that I finally got all that out of the way. I suppose there is no turning back now. I still feel really alone in all this, like no one totally cares really or understands. But I'm doing what I can. The dad keeps asking how the baby is..how am I supposed to know??! (besides an occasional kick here and there). He just wants a reason to talk to me. He's such a pathetic excuse for a human. I pray I never meet someone like that again and that if I ever meet a guy again, he will be better than him!! I have a doctor's appointment on the 22nd. It's for my glucose test. My doctor still won't go along with my baby's head size, according to my ultra sound. He goes based upon my last period date, still. Gah..maybe he is just dumb lol


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Rachel918 - Thursday, 17 April
Thanks, I talked to my doctor yesterday. They said if it happens again come right in, They didnt seem all too concerned which was good. I always second guess myself on calling tho my husband always thinks things will go away on there own and i try to explain to him that being pregnant is a bit different lol. Hopefully all stays fine. Hope all is well with you:)


loveatfirstbump - Thursday, 17 April
By paper work do you mean adoption papers? Have you mad a decision yet?

Yep, I’m up and down all the time also. I used to drink coffee but switched to tea when I became pregnant. Pregnancy has made me extremely sensitive to caffeine, not like I wasn’t before, but for some reason now it rattles my nerves and really has me cycling like it’s nobody’s business. Even tea gets me going but I cant help it. Today was ok. Hubby works a lot, so I spend a lot of time alone internalizing my thoughts, which usually leads to emotional disaster. My name is Tania, nice to meet you Lindsay!


loveatfirstbump - Monday, 14 April
Hey you, how are you feeling?


julugo - Sunday, 30 Mar
i see we are due the same day. thanks for your comment. im trying so hard to show her affection i hug her every day and tell her i love her so she knows i love her.but sometimes i tell you what she makes me wanna scream my boys are 20, 18,15, and 10 shes 7.and im having another boy and she really wanted it to be a girl. maybe hopefully after he is here every thing will go back to normal.


sexymama021 - Saturday, 15 Mar
It is such an amazing thing what you are doing. I can't imagine how hard that decision must be. I see that you have been pregnant another time, how did that pregnancy work out?I don't know your situation...but you must know that whoever gets that baby is going to love her to death. My sister so badly wants to adopt a baby girl but her husband wont let her :( She is an amazing person. I wish you the best of luck with everything. Keep us posted.


mama40 - Saturday, 15 Mar
Whatever your decision about adoption will be - you remain a great mom who has chosen to give her child a chance to live. You are right, life is unfair, and one of the unfair things that many loving couples who really ready to give all their love to the child, cannot have one. I know that many Americans come in Russia to adopt disabled children because according to Russian law, only those children can be adopted by foreigners. But they prepare to care for this child and love him/her. So just stay positive, try to remain healthy and carry her safely until she is born. And if you decide to give her up, remember that you gave her life.


carolynjh - Friday, 14 Mar
I just read that you are planning on choosing adoption for your baby and I can't support you enough! You are going to make someone the happiest they have ever been when they find out they have been chosen to keep your baby. I have several friends who are unable to conceive. I think people who adopt are better parents then most, so try not to worry-you are definitely doing the right thing and I am really proud of you. I wish more people would make your decision then abortion :(


carmanashley - Thursday, 13 Mar
that is so cool that you are in Ut! I am in PG where are you?
With the Question asked about the twin this time, they found that I had an extra Gestational sack with a baby that had no heart beat and we watched that sack dissapear over a few weeks through u/s, I lost the twin around 6w so my body just absorbed it.
I am ok though because this is my 6th pregnancy and Zailee will be our third girl but fourth baby so we are done after her.


baybay21 - Thursday, 13 Mar
yeah sometimes i rally do feel crazy,after this month its less then 3 months until my baby gets here. that is so amazing, i feel as if time has passed so quickly. I swear sometimes i feel like i may be the only one with emotions like this but then its nice when someone on here says nope,me too =]


billbo - Thursday, 13 Mar
dunno what i having yet. i just call it a him
ill switch to her in week 19 lol i just prefer giving the baby a gender than calling baby an it lol

you excited to be a mummy again? im nervous about been a young single mummy i have no money n no place to live but things will work out they are bound to this baby happened for a reason as far as im concerend and andys not gonna leave us homeless hes not a bad bloke just as i said doesnt think im good enough.
we were happy once i love him still lol im a loser xxxx


billbo - Thursday, 13 Mar
i felt it for sure b4 i was singing joseph n his amazing technicoloured dream coat in the shower n when i got out and in my bath robe i felt this weird wiggle in my tum
n i thought that was weird n then pottered around agin singing any dream will do and it happened again n i said stop it! to my tum coz i knew that it wasnt anything else
it clearly isnt gay and clearly hates musicals lol
i told andy coz even tho he hates me (were 'friends' pha) ut he wants to be a daddy apparently n take care of his baby too he was well excited it wasnt a gay one or a geeky one n then i said well its either gona be gay or a football layer n he hates footy so he saidits neither n i said u decide coz iv got a whole cd of musicals here rearing to go hehe
he cnt wait till the baby old enough to take rock climbing and bungee jumping lol
i was not impresed when he said that lol
i wish we were 2gether it would make everytihng so mch easier and more enjoyable
and yes men alllll such i hate them all!
i hate not been good enough even for the man whos baby im carrying:(
im here to talk to if u wanna:D xxx


ukdutypaid - Wednesday, 12 Mar
adoption is the most unselfish and yet heartbreaking thing. its something once done theres no going back. the fact that ur even considering this shows how much u love her. unless u think ur gonna hurt her, or shes not gonna be looked after or fed, or kept warm, or brought up to know whats right and wrong, then being with her mum is a good place to start in life. im single with 3 kids and this is number 4, they ahve a good life, sometimes we have been cold, but never hungry, they are great kids,
u really should talk to a councilor, u ahvent really got much time left chick and its such a massive thing to decide on and u definatly cant decide this alone, u say u have a son i think? how is his life? is he happy, looked after well fed, is there anyone you can speak to about this?
im here always, i promise, and theres so many good women on this site that give great advice,... but have u anyone near you, family? friends? a doctor even? please take care and dont do anything silly, until ur 100% certain.x.x.


loveatfirstbump - Wednesday, 12 Mar
Thanks you!!! It has been bothering me like crazy! Congratulations on your pregnancy :-)


CCQ - Tuesday, 11 Mar
I have been like that some too. My husband works away for 28 days at a time and when he is gone I just sleep all day sometimes. I, too, am bipolar but have been off meds for almost 7 years. My mom comes to stay with me some and my friends all try to find things for us to do, but I just feel too tired to move. I try to get excited by working on my nursery or reading a pregnancy book, it helps alot. I hope you get to feeling better, you had better mention all this to your dr so they can help. Just think about your daughter being born. It is the closest you will ever come to seeing God on earth. Love ya preggo!!!


happymomma2be - Tuesday, 11 Mar
I hope you are having a better day...my father is also diagnosed as bipolar, so I do understand to a certain degree how difficult this is for you. He has his days where he seems to be up and then can come crashing down...so don't feel alone. At least you are willing to talk about it with others, which is a big feat in and of itself. My advice is try not to make any major decisions when you are experiencing a bout of really low emotion or really high emotion. Your body goes through enough just having the depression, but add pregnancy on top of it, and your feelings are certainly understandable. I just would hate for you to make a decision that you later would regret. I can tell you love this baby very, very much, and it's wonderful that you are looking out for her best interest. I can't tell you what you should or shouldn't do, but I can tell you that there are a lot of people on this forum who care and who are/will be praying for you. My only other comment is to try to include your son in on this pregnancy...let him know he is loved and as a big boy, you will need him more than ever to help you with his sister. In other words, if he feels loved and needed even more than before, he will see this as a new role and not resent his new little sister...rather, it may make him feel important. Smother him with hugs and kisses, tell him how proud you are of him, and that you know he is going to be a great big brother and such a big helper. Again, you are in my prayers, and if you ever want to talk, just send me a message...you will not be judged!!! God bless you and may you have some peace! :)




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