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xxLindsayDxx
	Age: 25 Country: US Province/region: Utah City: Salt lake city Partner: Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Yes Due date: 04 Jul ,2008 Occupation:
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I'm kinda taking my time to update this, as I have soo many other things to update as well as this page.

I came here, mainly to look for encouragement and women who I could possibly empathize with and i'm glad I've found some strength from you all.

So Thank you! <3

~*Lindsay*~

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Friday, 14 Mar

Ultrasound picture of my daughter at 24 weeks. I am pretty sure it `s a girl! Correct me if I am wrong haha

Friday, 14 Mar

I just recently got my adoption papers today. I `m really pondering if giving her up for adoption is the right thing. Adoption just seems so `not popular. ` Most moms or mom-to-bes either keep their baby or abort it. To me, abortion is a failure. It `s not even giving something a chance to live. I couldn `t ever abort my pregnancies. This one has been the hardest for me. It is my second pregnancy, but the hardest emotionally because of all the doubts in my mind and heart. I know, i `ve always known, that my spirit and heart want her to live. The adoption process sounds really, really positive. No matter what, she will be loved and no matter what, she is special. :]

Wednesday, 19 Mar

I `m sitting here, kind of laughing to myself at all the names `mothers ` are calling me on this site. We `re supposed to be moms and support each other, but they act like kids and are sometimes full of discouragment and control, telling me what is what. And all this over one subject. They can `t get over that some just don `t care to read about personal sex techniques and junk like that. No, i `m not a nun. But I have an eye for what I like to read vs not read. To say you like sex is one thing, but to be all dirty about it and say what you like..there `s a difference between the two (some chicks can `t understand that, I guess.) Anywho, i `m almost in my 26th week. Still struggling w/depression and i `ve decided that I can `t really go this alone. I `m really in too much of a fragile state right now to deal with all these decisions on my own. I `m wearing myself short! So i `m thinking of looking for counseling and whatnot. Baby still gets hiccups a lot.I didn `t really notice them till a few weeks ago. Now they `re here! They alarmed me at first because I wasn `t sure why she was convulsing (she gets them really bad sometimes!) I am sure she is okay. I goto my next check up next Tuesday. Can `t wait to see how much weight i `ve gained! lol

Wednesday, 26 Mar

I went to my check up today, turns out that my glucose test isn `t until next checkup. Thank goodness. I `m starting to have doubts about giving my daughter up for adoption.. I honestly am not sure I will live with myself afterwards.. I would wonder if giving her up was the best option or if I really could have mothered her. I `ve been thinking of going to work with a friend, part time. But she hasn `t let me know anything yet. I found out that i `ve only gained 8 pounds the entire pregnancy. Infact, i `m about the same weight as the last time I went in. Doesn `t look like i `m really gaining anything, but the doctor said that she seems to be about a pound, now. So as long as she is gaining weight and growing well, things should be fine (as well as my BP being alright). Looks like all is developing well. :]

April 16, Wednesday, 2008

I finally finished filling out my paper work a few days ago and sent it in, when my advisor told me I forgot a packet. So I had to fill that out, make a run to the PO and send it in to catch up with the first! Gah! Anyway, I am glad that I finally got all that out of the way. I suppose there is no turning back now. I still feel really alone in all this, like no one totally cares really or understands. But I'm doing what I can. The dad keeps asking how the baby is..how am I supposed to know??! (besides an occasional kick here and there). He just wants a reason to talk to me. He's such a pathetic excuse for a human. I pray I never meet someone like that again and that if I ever meet a guy again, he will be better than him!! I have a doctor's appointment on the 22nd. It's for my glucose test. My doctor still won't go along with my baby's head size, according to my ultra sound. He goes based upon my last period date, still. Gah..maybe he is just dumb lol

June 01, 2008

Well, i'm getting closer to delivery through having a c-section. They want to schedule it for the last week of JUNE... so that means I have about 30 days or so left. woohoo. I need all the luck I can get!!!

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