about me.......

hi my name is Zoe and iam 20 yrs old, i live in a city called norwich in the uk. im currently expecting my first child with my wonderful supportive fiance Carl he's 22! we have been together coming up to 5 yrs now. we are so excited to be having this baby he means the world to us its funny that someone you've never met can mean so much to you its quite an overwhelming feeling! but i guess u all know what i mean!

24th aug 07...

today i went for my 20 week scan i was so excited! i had completely convinced myself it was a girl had a name and everything it would have been willow rose. but to my suprise the lady said we are on the blue team! and we couldnt be more happy so to celebrate we went out and got loadza blue clothes, shoes and hats lol! havent really got a name yet so we're just calling him Cj (carl junior). hes such a little mover i think he likes to play football with my bladder typical boy lol! anyway hope all is well with eveyones little miracles take care zoe x

30th aug 07....

ok so i've been feeling quite down resentley all because of the way im being treated at work my boss has treated me horrible ever since i told her iam pregnant 11 wks ago, anyway its gradually got worse, to the point were im not sleeping and crying all the time and i dont want it to effect bub's. So went to dr's yesterday all calm... then sat down and blubbed like a big baby told her everything thats happening and she said its best for us if i m away from work for awhile so been put on sick for 2 wks to try and de stress,its such a relief but also a worry as i know i will prob have to go bk and get treated worse all because i was off sick ahhh STRESS!!!!! on a brighter note our little man seems to be fine lots of moving around which make everything else not worth worrying about,he seems to like pan pipe music when i play it he moves around so much it amazing i love it! well i hope all is well with everyones little angels take care all zoe xx

NAMES!these are a few names we like ; Jacob, Issac, Eli, Taylor, Bailey, Lucas, Kailen!

6th oct 07.....

well not long now untill have my 4d scan its on weds 10th, im so excited i cant wait! its my 21st birthday on the 8th so its kind of a prezzie from carl, its gonna b lovely 2 see our baby again, we geta 30min dvd 2 so when im home i can watch him whenever want! we have 2 travel down 2 Kent to hav it done but i hav family there so we're goin stay with them 4 a couple of days which will be nice, only problem i have with that is i wont be able 2 come on this site 4 a few days lol!!! what will i do with myself! our little boy seems fine, enjoyin kickin his mummy alot but it makes me smile so its all good :-) will post pics of bubs when i get back. take care all x x x

13th oct 07...

well i had my 4d scan and it was brill, i would defo recommend any1 who wants it done 2 go!! bubs was so naughty he kept on hiding from us so we only got side veiw pics but hes so cute specialy his little nose! at first because of destortion i thought he had a big nose but he does'nt its small!! his hand was across his face the whole time so the dr had me bouncing on the bed 2 try and get him to move but he wouldnt (he's stubbon like his daddy lol) but the main thing is he's healthy dr said he's a little slim he weighs 1 pound 15oz (870g) but hes developing well and getting all his nutrients so i might just have a small baby. my auntie from kent brought us our moses basket when we were down which is really sweet of her, so now all we have to get is nursery furniture which we have ordered and should be with us by middle of november! not long left now ladies how exciting, i cant wait to hold him and give him a big kiss. take care all zoe x

14th nov 07....32wks.

23rd november..... 33weeks+2 days

well we had our first birthing class last nite it was good, we leant so much about labour and i think we both feel alot more relaxed about the whole thing now and im not as scared! the people there are really nice so hopefully we might make some good friendships. i didnt sleep a wink last nite i had the worst heart burn ever so i tried sleeping propped up but then i just got a bad back so i couldnt win either way! i feel terrible 2day and i look like crap! sorry had to hav a moan take care every1 xxx

28th nov 07.....34wks.

well there goes another week, omg the end is near. ok complaints of the week complete exhustion, im soooooooo tired and brain dead these past few days all i wanna do is sleep, i salute all of u working mums 2 be!! also im really uncomfortable now which im sure is something we're all going through, i find it really hard 2 turn over in bed at nite when i do all my bones seem to crunch and pop...... its great! lol! bubs is really tryin 2 streach out in my tum now bless him and he feels really low down! i cant wait 2 meet him i wonder who he will look like? oh an being the big kids that we r me and carl put up r christmas tree yesterday it looks great hopefully it should make everything go faster 4 us. take care every1 x x x

5th Dec 07..... 35wks

well what can i say but OH LORD 35 weeks i cant beleive it, were has the time gone? ok so at the moment im v. tired, moody, sad, happy, and uncomfortable and fat! oh and is any1 else short tempered at the moment? i cant wait to be able to sleep on my tummy and my back, its just so uncomfortable sleeping on my sides. im soooooo ready to hav him now and i swear hes ready 2 be born as it feels sometimes like hes tryin 2 excape and let me tell u its not always a pleasent feeling! i had a dream last night that i was in labour and i actually woke up thinking i was! scary!! i wonder if thats telling me something? well not long left now and even though im scared of the labour and stuff im so excited, i cant wait 2 look at his little face and give him a kiss i also cant wait to see carls face when he sees him 4 the first time. take care every1 x x x x

12th dec 07.....36wks!

wow 36 weeks i cant believe it. well ive been to the midwife 2day for my check up the first time in 4 weeks!! and everything seems good i now have 2 go every 2 wks which im really pleased about as ive felt as if ive been left alone during this pregnancy, had a different midwife 2day and i finally got measured for the first time im measuring 35 wks, but she said that was fine i was starting to get worried cos when i had my 4d scan done the dr said bubs was quite small and it had been playin on my mind! hes head down but not engaged :( and the heart beats good! i had a blood test done in oct for innemia? (sorry if spelt wrong) anyways they cant find the results so its taken this long 4 them to realize i swear they dont have a clue what there doing! so i prob gotta hav another blood test done if they cant find them 2day. on the whole though im feeling ok just abit tired and emotional and uncomfortable!! i started taking raspberry leaf tea tablets on sat and since then i think ive started loosing my plug yer i know gross! im really worryin bout bubs even more now as the birth looms, im terrified something will happen to him while im giving birth, when i was 11 my mum had my little sister molly and she was stillborn she since had my little brother Alex and hes fine but i just cant help stressin about it i know its silly i just pray everything goes well 4 us and i hav a healthy little baby boy. i want him here with us now so i can give him a big kiss and cuddle :) i cant wait! take care every1 x x x

19th Dec 07.....37weeks.

YAY im finally considered FULL TERM. i cant beleive ive made it 2 this point, im getting more and more excited (and nervous) now. i keep on having dreams about what are baby looks like oh i just wanna see him now :) ive just got back from the drs had to have my innemia blood test redone as they lost my last set of bloods how i hav no idea, anyways i thought the appointment was at 10:20am but no silly old me got the time wrong it was for 11:10am so i had to wait i swear this pregnancy has turned my brain to mush lol! any1 else experiencing this? ok heres my moan of the day..... im tired and i ache everywhere so nothing new there! and im really starting 2 get pi**ed off with wearing the same old maternity clothes now nothing feels comfy anymore i wish i could just wear my pjs all day :) bubs is doing well, he's enjoyin making his mummys tummy do all sorts of weird and wonderful shapes bless him im hoping he will take after his daddy and arrive early for me. well ladies almost there counting down the days now. Merry christmas everyone take care x x x

31st dec...... 38 wks +5 days.

well i just realized ive not updated my page. ok so xmas has been and past it went by so fast this year i was ill the whole time had a bad cold which really knocked me for 6! im feeling ok just uncomfortable im alot more calmer about giving birth now though but of course im still nervous, and not knowin what 2 expect really frustrates me im finding that with every little twinge or pain im thinking IS THIS IT!!! i feel so ready now i just cant wait anymore! a friend of the family was due on boxing day anyway her midwife came in to do a sweep 4 her and checked her bp it was sky high so sent her up hospital 2 get it checked out it was preeclampsia, they kept her in and induced her..... she had her little boy on sat morning 5 pounds 8oz and hes so cute, but it made me want my baby even more and i got all upset thinking im gonna b preggo 4eva, bloody hormones lol! yesterday i was havin BH contractions all afternoon ive never had so many b4 so i started timing them they were 12 mins apart then gradually 15 mins apart then they stopped they were not painfull but i felt as if i had menstrual cramps and ive had a few this morn 2! i guess its just my body gettin its self prepared and stuff but i got my hopes up that it was the begining of labour! no doubt our little boy will keep us waiting past his due date i hope not though. well wishing every1 lots of labour dust and a very happy new year take care x x x x

2nd jan 2008....... 39wks!

Happy new yr everyone! well im officially pissed off 2day and have a feeling im gonna be preggo 4eva! i went to the midwife this morning for a check up expecting to hear bubs was fully engaged and all ready to come out but NOOOO hes not!!! altough she did say not all babies engage untill labour starts. ive been havin lots of BH, loadz of pressure, tummy cramps, and ive been on the toilet (#2s at least 3 times aday sorry TMI) so much these past few days that i dunno i kinda thought more was happening. i asked about having a sweep and i cant have 1 till im term+7ish days WTF!!! i gotta go see the dr next wk for a check up, then the wk after i go 2 see midwife to book in for an induction :( sorry to moan but as im sure u can tell im not a happy bunny today, i left the surgery got in my car and spoke to carl on the phone then burst in to tears i really dont think i can cope any longer i want my baby out NOW! mabey that sounds selfish i dunno but im just so scared that something bad will happen to him the longer hes in there! me and carl are both fed up now, and i wish people would stop saying he will come when hes ready ahhhhh not what i wanna hear right now and on top of that my mum keeps sayin 'i think hes gonna be late' that may be true but i still dont wanna here it! ok ive vented :) much better! x x x labour dust 2 u all x x x

9th Jan....... due date!!

ok so im 40 wks 2day and still NO baby im seriously gonna have words wiv him its not on lol! He must be to comfy inside me, well his movements have slowed down quite abit now so im thinking he must be tryin 2 decide weather or not he can actually squeeze his self out of me i keep telling him it is possible! ive been busy 2day (well 4 me) had 2 take poppy to the vets bless her she has an absess on her butt hole and is in so much pain, the vet was tryin to lance it or whatever and she screamed i was nearly cryin (blame the hormones) so he had to take her to another room to do it and he ordered 1 of the nurses there 2 get me a chair... i think he panicked i would give birth there as i told him i was due 2day lol!! also ive been 4 a check up at drs 2day everything looks good, bps fine, urines ok had a trace of gloucose init but nothing 2 worry about and hes got a good strong heart beat :) i asked about his movements slowing down and she said so long as im feeling him move about 10 movement per 12hr period its fine like she said hes not got much room left! hes still not engaged fully only 4/5ths :( oh and as im making my tummy bleed cos of how itchy it is she prescibed some itch cream 4 me but even though she said im fine to use it im still not sure wether i should! i will be getting a sweep next weds if im still about and will be gettin booked in 4 my induction i pray it wont come 2 that though i want him 2 come naturally! so im gonna try everything i can 2 get him out NOT castor oil though! im so uncomfy and sore now i want him out, hopefully this will be my last weekly post of this pregnancy fingers crossed so please ladies wish me loadza labour dust. take care every1 and 4 those of u still waitin like me labour dust to u all x x x

well ladies we did it baby Jacob wilkinson arrived safely in the world at 4:51pm on the 14th jan weighin 7.5oz. nearly in an ambulance lol!! i can tell u all it was a shock to both mummy and daddy! birth story and pics soon to come.

***Birth story***

ok so Jacob is finally here..... i started 2 get some mild crampin about 7:30am on the 14th jan didnt think much of it then the pains got worse and i though ok i think im in labour!!! i had a bath which helped abit... carl called from work just 2 see how i was and i said well i think its started... im now comin home he said! he got home at about 10:45am, i had a few bad contractions which were all over the place rangin from 1min and 4 min lastin about 30secs! at this point i had on my TENS machine which helped called the hospital and they told me 2 get in the bath again take some pain killers and call bk when the contractions come every 3-5mins lasting 1min or more, well mine came every 2mins and were still all over the place i coped by leanin on my ball and breathin through them, at this point the hospital said come in to be checked we live about 45min from there. so bout 3pm we headed out, and hit major traffic we wernt goin to make it i felt like i need to push!! midwife told carl to pull over and call an ambulance, the ambulance came and at this point i was given 'gas n air' i was so scared...... carl had to drive to the hospital and i didnt think he would make it! on our way i heard a POP sound it was my waters the paramedic looked worried and pulled off my trousers 2 hav a look, god i needed 2 push he told me not to easier said then done! we arrived at hospital at 4:15pm carl got there at 4:20pm i was askin 4 an epi but the midwife said well im afraid your ready 2 PUSH!!! it was a great feeling 2 be able 2 push ok i wont lie it felt like a burnin pain but i just kept thinkin bout our baby n that helped me through, 3 strong pushes later out popped his head what a releif one more push and out slithered his body, baby jacob arrived at 4:51pm and was placed on my chest it was love at first site and its true what they say the pain fades instantly when u see them! so a total of 9hours 20mins of labour. im still in shock i just cant beleive its all over yesterday seems such a blur it just flew by! i didnt tear or need any stiches, but the 1 thing that suprises me is the amount of blood u lose so ladys prepare urselfs lol!! we were aloud home after 6 hours but after all the paper work we actually got home at about 2:30am so a very long day! hes gorgeous and worth every bit of pain i felt. im in love and cant stop lookin at him nor can his daddy. i would like to thank all my friends on this site for all ur advice and support and to Sam m thanx 4 being there 4 me yesterday it really helped!! well better go jacob needs feedin take care ladies x x x

9th feb....

well i havent updated for ages..... jacob is now nearly 4weeks old i just cant beleive how fast its gone, he is such a beautiful little boy and is so good for his mummy and daddy. he loves his food now and put on 12oz this week im so pleased cos i was worryin that he wasnt getting enough milk from me my health visitor said im not giving him skimmed milk but jersey cream lol!! he take s to my boob well now as be4 i had to express my milk 4 him cos he wouldnt latch on but i kept on tryin and he finally got it! ive been ill the past couple of days it felt like i had the flu i was shaking so much and also my boob was soooooo sore i couldnt move without it hurting so pickin up jacob was a nightmare luckly my health visitor popped in 2 weigh bubs i told her how i felt and she said ive got mastitis and to get myself 2 the drs so i did and now im on antibiotics i had to keep feeding jacob on my bad side 2 which was v.painful but now im feelin so much better. ive also got prolapse which im so gutted about i knew my birth went 2 well something was bound 2 happen! i dont no bout any1 else but i hate my body now! im left with a jelly belly and all my clothes look terrible on me and seem 2 show off my tummy even more :( but jacobs so worth it! well i hope every1 is enjoyin there little ones and there pregnancies better go and feed jacob again take care all x x x

22nd feb 08.

well jacob is now over 5 wks old its gone so fast and hes changing each and every day! ive taken so many pics and videos of him i dont want 2 miss a second lol! he was weighed on the 19th feb and is now 8.15lbs which is right on target and hes now fitting in to all his new born clothes properly bless him! im so in love with him he makes us both so happy. im still managing to feed him myself even though im getting over ANOTHER bout of mastitis this time in my other boob, i cant beleive ive had it twice now in the space of a week i really hope im not prone to it cos i dont want 2 be on antibiotics constantly! jacobs now smiling and will bat at his toys he coos lots to and seems really interested in the world around him, he loves having his nappy off and kicking away but his poor old mummy and daddy have 2 be careful as he also likes to wee whilst doing this lol (and sometimes poops just ask daddy lol) we have now just brought a sling 4 jacob as i found it really hard to get on with things like cooking ect when he wants to be held all the time hopefully he wont always be like that... he really likes it in there and looks so comfy ive added a pic of him in it in my photo book! i finally managed to catch him smiling on camera its not a great pic but it makes me smile ive added that 2. well best get on lots 2 do as always take care everyone x x zo x x

8th march 08....

well i thought id better update my page as ive not done so in ages (thanx 2 my little man keeping me busy) so jacob is 8wks on monday i cant beleive how fast its gone, it only seems like yesterday when i was pregnant coming on 2 this site moaning about all my aches and pains to my online buds :-) im really enjoyin mummyhood though and jacob is such a joy, we've been gettin really big smiles and little giggles from him and now hes doing those things he seems (touch wood) 2 be cryin less its as if hes found a new way of communicating with us! we got him a new play gym the other day and he LOVES it..... it has a blow up tube with balls inside and u attach it to the frame and he lays there and kicks it like crazy smiling away i will hopefully add a pic of him playing in it soon! we had our 6wk check up on wednesday and everythings great, my dr couldnt beleive how strong jacobs legs are! i said i think he may walk early and she agreed, hes also taller then av so all his trousers are getting to short for him and he weighed 10.2 1/2lbs on tues! we went 4 a family photo yesterday and jacob was soooo good i think he liked all the flashin from the camera we had some lovely shots takin some of the 3 of us some of jacob, me & jacob and some of just carl & jacob there goin 2 be done in black and white and put on a huge canvas above our fire place! hes now started sleepin in the night from 8pm- about 2am then he wakes again at 5am and then if im lucky will sleep until 6.30/7ish which is quite good 4 jacob so i guess u could say hes now settling in 2 a routine! im still feeding him my self which im so pleased about cos i thought id only manage a couple of weeks and hes putting on weight well. he has is first jabs on weds im really not looking 4ward 2 that bless him mind u i will prob be the 1 cryin lol!! right id best go its feeding time again and i seems my little man knows his mummys not feeling very well 2day (i have a rotten cold) cos hes been very miserable all day. take care every1 x x x x

20th march 08 ....

jacob is now 9wks and is getting soooo big and now weighs over 11lbs. its been a wk since he had his 1st set of jabs and hes now finally back 2 his old self, after his jab he was so grumpy all he done was sleep and cry 4 about a wk it was horrible! ive now changed the pram into the pushchair cos his feet were touchin the end and he loves it cos he can watch the world go by when i sit him up in it, its amazing how fast they grow. And last nite he slept from 8pm-3.30am which is really good, im really enjoyin being a mummy im finding that im much more comfident now and i dont worry bout things as much as i did,its funny how much ur lives change when u hav a baby.. yet it seems as though they've always been here if u no what i mean! i think jacob is now tryin 2 roll over when hes on his playmat and he loves it when i play 'peek a boo' with his feet i get really big smiles! he also loves 2 be up on his feet as soon as he can support himself we're gettin a baby walker i think he'd like that. well best go its near feeding time again. take care every1 x x x x

28th march 2008......

another week has flown by jacob is 11wks in 3 days time and is a proper little chunk lol. he's smiling lots more now which can be quite testing when im feeding him.... i look down at him & he's smiling away and not eating meanwhile my milk is sprayin everywhere lol so feeding takes abit longer now. he now has a comforter and hes so cute with it, he pulls it right over his face and does this kinda grunting noise it helps him fall asleep during the day but i dont let him have it at night cos like i say he likes it over his face and i worry. we're now using cloth nappies which are so much better then disposibles for jacobs poos (as there quite runny) and soooo much cheaper in the long run, he looks really sweet in them cos he gets a BIG nappy bum and they seem so comfy and soft against his skin and there actually not horrible 2 clean either u just pop them in a bucket no soakin or anything till u get a few and then throw them in the washing machine and then in the tumble dryer easy peasy!! we will be getting him 1 of those play stations that look like babywalkers but dont move and the seat spins round and have lots of toys on them cos he loves to be on his feet and HATES 2 be on his back and cries when hes layin on his playgym.... hes nosy like his daddy and like 2 see whats going on around him! I had a really good night with him he fell asleep at 8pm (so did we) woke at 2.45am bk down at 3.15am and woke at 6am and it was similar the night b4! im sooo excited we've booked our first holiday with jacob 4 next yr only going 2 spain cos its a short flight but we're stayin in a private villa which has its own pool so it will be lovely 4 bubs and me as i hate my body, he will be 1.5yrs old so i think its a perfect age 2 start getting him used 2 flyin. well thats enough of me babbling i hope all is well with every1 and there babies take care x x x x

11th April 2008......

well jacob is now 12 wks old and has changed so much, he can now hold his head and shoulders up very steady whilst laying on his belly and sitting on our laps. he also learnt how 2 roll over and looked so pleased with him self when he did it the first time! and night times hav gotten soooo much better after his bath we give him a massage dress him then i feed him and he sleeps from 8pm then he wakes up about 1.30am but i just turn on his music box and he sleeps till 4.30am feeds then wakes up bout 7.30am so im finally getting a decent nights sleep YAY!!! oh best go its raining so hard its just woken him up ahhhhhh take care every 1 x x x