Depression after pregnancy

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    Angelia
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    Gemma, congratulations on seeking help. I’m told the sooner you seek help the quicker it can be addressed and ‘fixed’. I go see a new therapist tomorrow. I’m guessing she will change my meds since the ones I’m on don’t help at all. Up to this point I’d been seeing my OB and then the people at the crisis center. It took 2 weeks to get this appointment.

    #6927945

    muri
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    i dont know what to do. im soo depressed. i wont eat if i do its not much and their are times that i will eat. im pulling away from my newborn son. their are times that i feel like hurting him and myself. i wont let myself lay a hand on him. but i just end up crying. i used to suffer from depression. but i havent taken anything for it for 2 years. i was doing fine for a while with out them but i wonder if i need to take meds again. i dont know what to do. im starting to scare myself. i sometimes say that i dont want him anymore. and that i cant take this.

    #6927946

    rachel13
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    I have been searching the internet of the past few days on post partum depression and I’m not getting the exact answers I want. I think I have postpartum depression. But I had my baby almost 8 months ago. I’m not exactly sure how long i’ve had it, if I even have it. The sympotoms I’ve looked up match what I have, but in genral group. If that makes sense. I really need your guys’ answers because I trust you guys more than the internet!! so heres my story… I’m 20 years old and when I had my baby I had NO baby blues whatsoever. but recently I feel as though i’ve become a bad mother. in fact, a horrible mother. I find myself not sleeping ever. Ive stayed up for over 24 hours one time and wasn’t extrememly tired like most people would be if they stayd up that long. I find this part the hardest to talk about.. but I know its serious. When my son cries I almost feel like I’m too lazy to get up. I don’t want to get up. I almost find myself yelling at him to leave me alone. And I also find it easy to walk away from him when he’s crying. I’ve cried sooo many times recently because I honestly have said to myself ‘i hate you’ towards him. I DONT hate him I really don’t but I almost feel like I do. It’s like my mind is seriously telling me that I do hate him but my hearts knows better and knows that i couldnt ever possibly hate him no matter what… Ive talked to my mom about this and she says its a horrible thing to say I hate him but i can’t help it. He’s a wonderful baby and I know I shouldn’t complain about how well he sleeps and eats. My appitite hasn’t really increased my weight has increased about 5 pounds. Im a stay at home mom and I think that has a lot to do with it too. It’s crazy though because I always want to just leave or walk away or go somewhere else. but when I do I miss him soo much. Ive sat in his room and cried a few times too because I feel like a jerk and a horrible person for thinking these things. What’s wrong with me.. I love my son so much and he deserves a good mommy to not think these bad things..

    #6927947

    Angelia
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    I’ve been on a low dose of Zoloft now for a week and not noticing anything, not sure what I’m suppose to notice. I still feel anxious unless I take the anxiety pills… but those can be addictive so I only take them when I can’t bring it under control myself, which is about once every 3-4 days I’ll take one. I just want to feel like ME again!

    #6927948

    roseyleee
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    OKay so here goes- I am on 250mg of Quetiapine- (anti- pyschotic, anti- anxiety They knock me sideways and make me drool and slobber for a couple hours after taking them). Zopiclone (sleepers x 2) + 1 x fenergen to keep me asleep, Citalopram (anti-Depressants) as normal, Lorezapam up to 4 times a day (they make my jaw lock and lips drool aswell but really help to slow my mania down i.e. i don’t feel like running away anymore)- This is to slow me down. Basically i have puerperal psychosis. I have a woman called myra telling me to do nasty things to my baby and helen (me). But i am also manic and keep wanting to run away. So they also think i have manic/bi-polar depression aswell as the psychosis. Quite obviously i am on the right drugs or i would be typing a load of shi*e on here that didn’t make sense. Just to let you know i am damned fed up with this illness its my birthday soon and i won’t be able to have a glass of wine with my friends to celebrate. 🙁 Least of my worrys i know but i have got to try and retain some of the old me as well as this new crazy mummy life i am leading. Hope you all recover soon. Take care H xx Personally with the past 18 mths i have had i am not suprised i am messed up in the head. xxx

    #6927949

    LatinMama
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    Hi ladies!… I just need to vent a little, cuz I really have nobody to vent without getting them worry…
    I have been feeling down for a while, and even that I have my parents here to help me out with the baby, my husband feels that, even though he loves them that they are inviding his space, my husband is very picky on how he liks the house, and everything have to be perfectly in place… Our house is very small, so we are always on each othes feets…
    Everytime my husband complains about my parents I start crying…. as it is, I have had thoughts of harming myself, but I wont do it for love to my child and my whole family… In fact my daugther is the one that keeps me with one feet on this side of te planet….
    The way that my husband comment about my parents makes me feel that he is not the same man I married… its like seeing another side of him.
    For some reason I need my parents help cuz without them I really wouldnt know what to do…
    The only place I feel good is in the shower where I can cry non-stop until I feel better….

    Sorry it sounds too depress, but I just needed it to let it out…

    #6927950

    Angelia
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    Anyone else still battling Post Partum Depression with a 3 month old baby? It’s getting really bad for me. Still not to the point I’d harm anyone but I am to the point I just don’t care. I NEVER thought it would happen to me. After crying all the time, shaking from anxiety, and feeling sick constantly I have a call into my doctor to get some help. Hoping they call back soon. Please let me know if anyone else is going through this. I’m feeling pretty alone right now. Hubby just can’t relate.

    #6927951

    Angelia
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    On Sunday I finally broke down and called the doctor… crying the whole time. She started me on something for anxiety/panic attacks which helped a lot but isn’t something I can take long term because they can be addictive. Today my doctor prescribed Zoloft. I’m really hoping that within a couple of weeks the Zoloft will work enough that I’ll be back to me. Already just admitting I can’t do this on my own and getting something to take the edge off has felt like a huge weight is gone.

    #6927952

    LeeLeesMOM
    Member

    Hi Ladies, You are not alone!!! I have a 5 yr old and a almost 4 months old and I have been through hell since delivery. My delivery was horrible considering I had a placenta abruption and had to deliver 9 weeks early and I even cried a lot during my pregnancy. Well long story short I am currently battling the depression and like everyone on this page I never thought it would happen to me. I am currently on meds and see a therapist to deal with the depression and I am hopeful there is a recovery. Well if anyone wants to talk feel free to visit me. ttyl

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    McCraig
    Member

    I’m taking celexa and it seems to be working really well. I am also flooding my brain with some really great books about ppd and something about knowing it is a real illness and not just in my head has done wonders. Mostly I have panic attacks and bad anxiety, but I’ve been on the meds for a little over 2 weeks and I’ve noticed a dramatic change. I feel like I am finally bonding and connecting with my beautiful boy and the scary thoughts aren’t as vivid or as frequent. There is great help available ladies…don’t try to do this alone. Ask for help, Talk to your doctor. Go to a therapist or psychiatrist…but don’t ever feel that it is your fault or that you must be the only one feeling this way. Bless you ladies. Be good to yourself.

    #6927954

    muri
    Member

    im soooo tired. im still feeling the same way. i cant even talk to my ob about anything cause he doesnt listen. and the feelings havent stoped. the baby likes to stay up all night and day. their r time were he likes to sleep during the day. i try every thing to make him go to sleep and nothing works. and to top it off he crys for no reason. i realy need help. his dad doesnt really help. when he does he doesnt do much. and my son just turned a month old. i dont know what to do anymore. like when he falls asleep i i put him in his bed and he wakes up. he trys to fight him sleep. and all of this makes me want to hurt him and myself sometimes. cause its just to much for me. i really need help. i do try not to hurt him. and its working. but i dont know how long it will work for. HELP ME.

    #6927955

    muri
    Member

    so i just called my primary care doctor. and i sceduled an appoitment. it would of bbeen on the 26. but i told them that i think i have ppd so they sot me in sooner. i go in this friday. i just hope that i get some help. well we will see what happens when i go.

    #6927956

    Angelia
    Participant

    Congratulations Muri on seeking the help you need. I wish I’d sought help sooner. Things for me are getting a little better. I still have the panick attacks and feeling overwhelmed but honestly after a couple of weeks now the edge is starting to come off… I just want to start feeling NORMAL again.

    #6927957

    muri
    Member

    well i finally got help. i went to go see my doctor today. i finally got put on meds. im feeling a bit better. their trying to find the right dose for me so i go back in two weeks.

    #6927958

    Angelia
    Participant

    This past weekend was HORRIBLE. My mom had to come take care of my kids for me and I pretty much laid in bed shaking and crying. I could barely function. My weight loss has been pretty drastic, 2 dress sizes in just a couple of weeks. I saw my doctor on Friday and then I will see him the first part of next week (not this week due to the holiday). Likely I’ll see him weekly until I’m past this. It’s just not fair to feel this bad. I should be enjoying this time with my baby not dreading it.

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