Luv- I think all ur anxiety is normal; new baby sitter, new pregnancy. Etc! I don’t blame u. I think when and/or if I get a bfp I too will be very nervous..I almost wanna put myself on bed rest for the first trimester so I don’t mc again. We had some pretty wild sex the day before I mc’d ( no s&m stuff, but def worthy of some pineapples.. π ) so I can’t help but feel like maybe that caused me to mc…who knows, it’s long gone now. But it makes me a lil fear full for the next time..if the next time ever comes *sigh*. ‘Did it’ again last night, still couldn’t truly enjoy it tho. I’m starting to think I’m not enjoying it because I want to ttc and to know that we’re just ‘doing it’ doesn’t really make me wanna ‘do it’…does that make sense??